Breathe

“Thank you Wembly stadium!!” Louis yells into his microphone as we finish the first concert back. I’m miserable. Simon says Nina’s woken up and we can call her when she’s well enough for a conversation. I can’t take this much longer. I need to see her. Guilt overcomes me for leaving her and the baby; the baby, I hope he’s okay. I miss them both.

The lads and I jog off the stage.

“Good show mates” Zayn takes a swig of his water bottle.

“Have you heard from Tia?” I ask Niall, he shakes his head.

“She needs time, her dad died you know? She’s been spending her time with her mum, her mum wants to see Nina bad but they’re too distraught” He too takes a sip of his water.

“How’s Nina doing? It’s been a day” Louis looks to me

“Simon says she’s woken up and now she’s just waiting till she feels well enough before I can call her, I miss her allot”

All the boys look down at their hands.

“I miss her terribly,” I whisper

“Listen Harry, we love Nina too and we don’t want you to think we didn’t want to be there” Liam starts, I smirk slightly

“It’s fine, I understand” I end the conversation quickly to avoid an argument

“I’m going back to the bus” I walk through them and grab a water bottle of the table behind them. I almost start walking out the front door then I realize this place is crawling with fans; I resort to the secret exit the security guards showed us.

Nina’s P.O.V

“I’ll check back in with you in a bit! Sleep tight, the doctors should be in soon” Sarah laughs small and leaves the room, if I had the energy I’d punch her out. She leaves and shuts the door; the darkness closes in on me. I want to scream, I want to cry, but I can’t I’m so angry and weak I can’t manage any emotion. I look around the room, nobody… nobody is here… I’m completely alone with all these emotions and it’s like a boat that’s flooding and there’s no saving it I’m trapped at the bottom tied down to the floor.

This empty feeling has never been so present before, I just want somebody, anybody, just someone to come keep me company I can’t take the darkness alone anymore.

Harry… my mind grows even angrier when I think about him. Why did he leave me… I don’t understand…. I was probably just a burden to his lifestyle; I was never good at interviews or looking good on magazines…

It was about time he left, I didn’t think he’d put up with me this long, I can’t blame him but without surprise he leaves this empty space in the middle of my body. I just wish I knew why, so maybe this hole and the tears that want to burst through would be gone. I want to cry but I can’t, every time I move or talk the pain radiates through me. I could die… I might want to even as horrible as it sounds I have nothing to live for… I have no family; I don’t know where Wyatt is. I have no friends, surely Tia will never want to see my face again, I have no one. I sit in the room alone with no one to talk to, with no one to vent to, with absolutely no one. I wouldn’t wish this upon my greatest enemy. You realize how much you miss people when you get kidnapped. I miss Harry.

I close my eyes; hopefully sleep with take me away long enough until I can be graced with the presence of other human beings. I’m tired of being alone.




Harry’s P.O.V

“That’s the third time I’ve called her on the number you’ve gave me and it doesn’t work!” I yell outraged throwing the phone in Simon’s direction. I breathe deeply as he looks puzzled.

“I will look into it, Harry I must tell you something, you might want to sit down” He turns concerned, I furrow my eyebrows. I just want to talk to Nina.

“Please” He motions to the chair, I sit reluctantly.

“What” I snap.

“Nina has been rushed into emergency surgery. There was a bleeder in her brain that could leave her brain dead” His words hit me like a million bricks.

“What… I have to go” I stand and feel my body go limp.

“No, you can’t go! Wait until we see how the rest of the day goes” He reasons with me

“I have to be with her, I have to see her” I shake my head frantically

“No, you need to be here, you said you’d finish out the tour, don’t make me pull out the contract that you’ve already disobeyed!” He yells

I swallow….

“I cant, I need to know she’s okay” I collapse down the wall

“We will get a call as soon as we are updated, please don’t worry much”

“Please don’t worry much? My girlfriend is half way around the world in major surgery and you want me to not worry much!” I growl he steps back.

“You give me the phone next time Sarah calls!” I hiss and walk out of the room.

Nina’s P.O.V

“Miss Vinci” The doctor walks in the room, I open my eyes slowly, It’s blurry.

“Miss Vinci, good afternoon, you’ve had quite the journey” He smiles at me, he’s got brown eyes with a slight tan, a great smile and typical hair, fohawk or whatever its called, he looks young for a doctor.

I can’t manage words and he can tell. “We’ll check your vitals and talk about your recovery plan” I nod and the nurse starts working around me, feeling parts of my body, checking my pulse, taking my blood pressure, and writing a whole lot down.

“So Nina you’ve sustained allot of injuries in a short period of time and with that said you should already suspect you will be here for allot longer than two days, we still have a few more surgeries to accomplish in your leg and upper shoulder, you’re organs are stable so far but we are ready to fix any problems we should meet. Also the baby is stable, and we will work our hardest to keep you both stable” He smiles again at the end, I try to smile but I’m almost positive it looks awful.

“Now how are you feeling?” He asks

I shake my head “Not good” Everything is blurry and dizzy.

“We’re upping your pain medications you should be feeling better shortly”

“We will be checking on you every two hours and you should be able to leave the ICU into the normal hospital wing in a two to four weeks, see you in a couple hours, make sure to get lots of rest”

He looks at me and smiles again and then leaves the room followed by the nurses.

I open my mouth and a ghostly cry comes out as I sob into my pillow, I can finally cry and It’s never felt so good. I cry everything out, the kidnapping, the surgery, Harry leaving me… Everything into one hospital pillow.

Notes

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