Breathe

Harry's P.O.V

“Hey” Louis walks though the threshold as a nurse works on examining Nina. The group flocks in behind him spreading about the room.

The nurse listens to Nina’s heartbeat, I’m thankful she finished looking over the baby long before the guys came in. I’m not ready to tell anyone.

“Her vitals are strong” She looks up after writing down something on the chart.

“I’ll see you guys in two hours” She dismisses her self I nod and thank her.

“Your mom is coming up later but she told me to give you this” Louis throws a bag onto my lap.

“It’s clothes for yourself and some other stuff I think” He mumbles and stares at the small monitor.

I open the bag and see a pair of my jeans also a grey shirt, but underneath that is a blanket that was mine when I was younger.

“She said it would help Nina get better” Liam smiles while I stare at the red fabric, I remember being sick and this was the only thing besides my mom that I wanted.

I spread the blanket across Nina, hopefully the doctor’s wont mind.

“Have they said anything?” Dani bounces Ella on her hip

I close my eyes and grip Nina’s hand.

“24 more hours” I whisper

“Until…” Dani starts

“Dani stop” Liam warns

“No” I stop him

“We need to accept what could happen”

“Harry relax” Zayn lets his hand fall onto my shoulder.

“No, it’s not good, this isn’t good and we need to accept” I pause, feeling my body warming up “We need to realize what this is”

“She could die” My voice cracks

“Please calm down” Eleanor tries saying from the other end of the room.

“Nobody is dying” Zayn reassures me but fails, we need to look at all our options.

“She could die, her brain isn’t working she’s technically dead” The lump forms in my throat; tears building up I can’t take this much longer.

“Don’t say that!” Louis shouts at me

I stand quickly, causing the chair to scrap backwards.

“Look at her Louis” I growl back at him

He avert his eyes, my blood boils.

“Look at her for fuck sakes”

“That’s my Nina, my girlfriend” I scream, their faces paling,

“Your girlfriend is over there, Zayn your girlfriend is here, Liam Dani is standing holding your child my girlfriend is fucking brain dead” My body rattles, dry heaves kicking in, everyone looks shocked.

“Brain dead,” I whisper and fall back into my chair,

“She’s not here” I breathe

“She’s not dead yet” Louis tells me, sounding bitter.

“I can’t do this for another day, I need her”

“You need to be strong for her, that’s what she needs” Zayn snaps

“Bu-“ I start and am interrupted by a awful noise rising through Nina’s monitor as well as the baby’s monitor.

“Get the doctor!” I yell as I see the monitor flat line, the doctors are already in the room before Louis can run out and get them.

“Out! Out!” The doctor demands, I try to say no and stay in the room but everyone is grabbing at me pulling me to the door.

It slams in my face, I fall onto the closed door, sobbing and gasping for air.

“No”

“Harry get away from the door” Louis pulls at my arm; I try to see what’s going on through the small shades blocking the window.

Words can’t explain what I feel; I need to get away from these walls.

“What happened?” I whisper horrified

“She flat lined Harry there was nothing we could do, the doctors will help her now she’s going to be okay” Dani grabs my shoulders.

“Stop telling me it’s going to be okay, because it’s not” I wipe my cheeks.

Everyone remains silent. Either silently crying or silently holding in tears.

“Mister Styles” A man walks out of Nina’s room after quite a long time.

“Yes” I stand and he strides over to me

“She’s going to need surgery again there was a bleeder that caused internal damage, we’re having her prepped now”

“Is she going to be okay?” I say hushed

“We will do everything we can”

“And the baby?” I turn to see if anyone heard

“The baby is stable but we will keep a constant watch on him”

I run my hand through my hair

“Thank you” The doctor leaves

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I turn

“What’s going on?” Liam asks, his eyes shooting from me to the doctor

“She’s going back into surgery” I stare at the exit sign.

“You guys should go” She will be awhile

“We aren’t going anywhere” Zayn sits down

I shake my head

“Mr. Styles! Mr. Styles!” A doctor comes running down the hallway looking fresh out or in surgery.

“You’re being asked for please hurry” He gathers me away from everyone’s confused face.

I follow him, practically running down the hallway of the hospital.

We enter a room that says “No visitors beyond this point, medical staff only”

It’s an OR it’s the cleanest room I’ve ever seen; the whole room is white with stainless steel equipment.

“Please wash your hands” He rushes me, I lather the soap and then rinse.

“She woke up, and she started asking for you, please hurry we don’t have much time” he leads me over to the bed where Nina is covered completely except her face, I don’t see it until I hover over. Everyone else leaves the room.

“Nina” I break down once her brown eyes look up at me.

“Harry” She whispers

I fall to my knees, placing my head beside hers.

“I’m so sorry” She sounds weak, barely being able to process the words.

“No, don’t apologize, I love you so much” I sob quietly

“Am I pregnant” She asks scared, it sounds painful. I don’t want her to be in pain anymore.

I nod and more tears fall.

“Oh” Her voice cracks

“No, don’t cry, please don’t cry” I beg her, if she cries I wont be able to handle.

“Promise me you wont leave the baby,” She cries

“What are you saying” I shake my head

“Promise me, you’ll be there for the baby, promise me the baby wont be alone”

I start kissing her cheek

“You aren’t going anywhere, you’re going to survive”

“Harry know that I love you please, know that I only love you” she stutters

“Stop please baby”

“I love you so much” I tell her over and over

“Harry, I want you to know you can love agai-“

“No stop, I don’t want anyone else, you’re mine and I’ve worked so hard for you I love you, just you” My sobs become distorted

“I feel it pulling me”

“Don’t let it love, I’m here and I need you to come back to me” I stroke her hair she smiles slightly

“I’m scared I won’t wake up again”

“You will wake up again and I’ll be there waiting for you” I stare at her eyes, her big brown eyes. They're sad and dull. My stomach does flips, she's okay right now. She's awake. Things will get better.

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