Harrys P.O.V

The clock in the room makes an annoying ticking noise, I stare up at it 7:38am, I look over to my beautiful Nina she hasn’t woken up. I haven’t slept much, the nurses come in ever so often to change Nina’s IV, check her pulse or give her medicine and do whatever nurses do. It keeps me up.

I don’t mind though I’d do anything for Nina.

“Good morning beautiful” I whisper while looking up at her pale face. My eyes trailing down to her stomach covered by bandages and blankets, you can see a wire sneak out through the blanket and attach to the smaller monitor beside her own. I gulp, I never considered a baby well I did but never at this time. It’s all too soon this is happening too fast. She doesn’t even know the baby exists and that it’s a boy.

A knock at the door makes turn quickly. It opens and my mind goes to relief when Wyatt walks through the threshold holding crutches beneath his arms. He’s all bandaged up, a cast on his left wrist.

“Thought you’d be here,” He says quietly, his eyes skimming around the room. There’s a bouquet of flowers in his left hand.

“These are from my wife and the kids, I know Nina would have no care for flowers” He pulls up a chair and it scratches across the floor making a noise that makes me cringe.

“How are you feeling?” I ask

“Better, I’m on a shit ton of meds” He answers dully

“Nina took the most of it” He frowns, looking down at his feet.

“I tried to protect her Harry I tried so hard” His voice cracks and I stare at Nina’s face. I don’t know if I’m waiting for her eyes to open or for the monitor to flat line.

“It’s okay Wyatt, you did your best” I try to reassure him

I see his face drop and go pale “She took a bullet for me”

I keep my eyes fixed on Nina unable to look him in the eyes

“I did this to her”

“No you didn’t, those ass holes and Tia’s dad did this to her”

“I signed first, I should’ve never signed. I should’ve taken the beatings for her, cause I’m her big brother, that’s what big brother’s do they protect their little sisters” He sobs, I’ve never really witnessed a grown man, especially Wyatt’s size cry before.

“It should be me in that bed not her I’m so sorry Harry”

“You did what you could, I don’t know what happened out there and I’m not sure I want to know but you did everything you could to your ability, Nina’s stubborn and I’m sure no matter what you did to protect her she’d try and protect you no matter what- she’s just like that she doesn’t like relying on someone for protection or help” I mumble, my voice sounding flat.

“She loves you” He whispers after a few moments, It takes me by surprise.

“I know” I say with no expression as I look down at the small monitor again it’s still beeping.

“She’s pregnant isn’t she?” His voice sounds like he already knew the answer,

“How did you know?” I turn and raise an eyebrow

“Besides the monitor, they hooked one up to my wife during her pregnancies. But Nina did say something on the boat that she thought she was because she was feeling weird, I told her it was just her injuries but she kept on thinking it was something more” He pauses

“I didn’t think she was, I heard the nurses talking about how Nina is a miracle, the fact that she’s alive” He bows his head

I don’t know what to think, I wish she were awake so I could ask her. Nina is a miracle and I’ve known that this whole time but the fact the nurses are saying it means that the doctors expect her to die.

“She was so weak the last two days, we had no food and only small amounts of water I didn’t think a baby could last without, Nina and the baby are a miracle”

“They’re my miracles,” I whisper quietly, gently squeezing Nina’s limp hand.

“I can stay here, no matter what, I’m her biological brother and her only family Harry” He says like he’s stating facts I already know

“What do you mean?” I ask, my voice monotone

“With all you have going on, I saw on the news today the broadcast for your tour going on hold. She wouldn’t want to be the reason you stop your career”

“I’m not going anywhere,” I state sharply

“I know, but if there ever comes a time where you need to choose, Nina or your career, she’ll never be alone” He smiles at me. I smirk small, barely noticeable. He makes sense and I know Nina won’t be happy when she hears about all this, if she wakes up. But I can’t leave her now, not when I’m not sure if she’s even alive or not. Just the fact of her not being in my life is enough to make me stay.
“I know I can’t avoid Simon or the tour, but I just want to be here right now with her” I simper

“Do you want the baby?” He asks out of nowhere

“Nina was scared if she was pregnant that you wouldn’t want it”

My heart aches when I hear that, that Nina thinks I don’t want it. I mean I’m not esthetic about it. I’m not ready to be a father and I don’t think I’d be a very good one. Nina isn’t ready either, she loves kids but we’ve talked about it and neither of us wants a baby.

“I’m not ready” I work around the answer instead of flat out saying I don’t want it.

“I wasn’t ready either, but once I saw them, the twins, I’ve never felt that feeling before, the feeling of seeing something you’ve created that’s 100% yours, it’s indescribable” He grins

“I just don’t know. I see people find out they’re having a baby and they’re jumping up with joy, I don’t really feel like it’s real” I diverge

“Well under the circumstances I wouldn’t feel like it was real either”

“I just want to talk to her about all this, I want her to wake up, she needs to know” I look out the window, it’s raining, feeling much like my mood.

“What she endured on the boat was pure trauma” his face falls into something ghostly

“I don’t ever want to hear about it, I just want her back”

Another knock at the door makes us both jump. It opens and someone comes in I never thought I’d see again.

Tom…

“Can I help you lad?” I ask rudely

Wyatt looks at me, and then back to Tom

He presents a bouquet of flowers

“I just came to bring her these,” He says softly

I wasn’t about to make a scene in the middle of the hospital room, no matter how much I wanted to punch him out, no matter how much he made my blood boil. Nina wouldn’t want me to. Fuck… I’m talking like she’s already dead. ‘Nina wouldn’t want me to’ it should be Nina doesn’t want me to. She’s not dead. She’s just not. I need something to make me say that with more confidence. I need her, I need her in everyway possible and I’d spend all the money in the world to get her to wake up.

“Thanks” I say sharply

“Is she okay?” He says stupidly

“Does she look okay?” I snap

“Who is this Harry?” Wyatt asks me staring from me to Tom.

“Tom, Nina’s ex boyfriend”

“I’m Wyatt, Nina’s brother,” He says harshly and I suppress a laugh

“I didn’t know she had a brother” His eye brows furrow

“I didn’t know I had a sister till a little while ago”

“Thanks for stopping by Tom” I say trying to get rid of him, this isn’t good vibes for Nina

He walks towards the door before turning around and saying “Try to take better care of her Styles, not many girls like her left”

It sets me off.

But I remain seated as he walks away.

“I hate that guy so much,” I breathe

“He’s right though” I frown and Wyatt looks confused.

“I should have taken better care of her, I shouldn’t have let her go alone. I had a bad feeling about it and I shouldn’t have let her. I should’ve made sure that she and I were always talking and that she wasn’t so distant the last few months” I drop my head onto the bed and cradle it with my arms.

“Harry none of this is your fault” He pats my shoulder

“No but it is, I should’ve realized something was wrong and I should’ve called for help sooner maybe” I pause, my eyes watering “Maybe things wouldn’t have been this bad if I called for help when I wanted to”

“You can’t blame yourself, because that’s foolish, none of this was because of you it was because of some douchbags with a faulty plan, you called the police you got us saved, you did everything you could” He mutters fast

“I’ll hate myself everyday if she doesn’t make it”

“She’s going to make it, you have to think positively”

“I don’t deserve someone like her” I whisper ashamed, my face going crimson.

“We’re polar opposites, she’s perfect and has everything together and I do nothing but harm her and put her in danger, they probably knew where she was going to be because of the stupid paparazzi that follow her around every day because of me” I say angrily.

“She loves you,” He repeats again

“She always talked about you when we were on the boat, she always said how much she missed you and loves you, who gives a fuck about polar opposites if she wakes up you’re going to be the first person she asks for”

I know he’s right, fuck; if I were in this situation the first person I’d ask for would be Nina… That’s the scary thing. Being in love with someone so much that they’re what you want all the time, what you depend on, and the person you’ll put before everything and anyone in your life. Its fucking scary being in love especially this in love, there’s only so many emotions you can handle and so much you can take before you break and run.


“I love her” I reply simply. If there were a word greater than love I’d use it… and that’s what scares the shit out of me. If I lose her I lose everything, that’s the price you pay when you get completely attached to someone. I can’t take much more. Fright makes people run.

“I’m going to go get coffee, do you want anything?” He asks before standing slowly and grabbing hold of his crutches.

“No thanks” I reply

“Harry, everything is going to be okay” He smiles and leaves.

I stare simultaneously at Nina’s monitor and the baby’s monitor. There’s only so much one human being can handle before they break. I look at the time, normal visiting hours have started about an hour ago and the boys said they’d be here at 1. I want to sleep but I’m afraid that if I fall asleep I’ll miss Nina waking up. I can’t take much more of this.

“Please baby, if you can hear me please do something,” I whisper mechanically sounding like an idiot.

“I love you so much please don’t ever forget that” I kiss her knuckles and glance out the window. It’s raining harder now, turning into a thunderstorm.

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