Breathe
48 hours
Harrys P.O.V
Louis and I sit here, in the hallway staring at the walls again. We haven’t said a word to each other since the news. I can’t believe it really, my mind is numb my body is frozen and I don’t know how to react.
“Nina needs you” Louis says after a long time, I turn staring at him puzzled.
“She needs you Harry, regardless of the baby that you aren’t thrilled about, she needs you”
I pause not sure how to respond
“I can-t deal with all this right now” I stutter swallowing loudly.
“You have to, that’s part of growing up and being an adult. You can’t just check out because things are rough” He says sternly
I stare at my feet “I’m only 20 years old”
“Think about Nina” He whispers
“I just need some air I need to think I need her to wake up” My eyes become glossy.
“Sometimes you have to grow up and act like an adult”
“She wouldn’t want the baby either” I spit out and instantly feel bad
“How can you say that?” He says with disbelief
“I just know, we’ve talked about it, please don't tell anyone, my mom, the rest of the lads, the girls, no one please”
He stands and looks at me with immense disappointment
“Don’t be fucking stupid, you might loose Nina, and the baby for good, they could die. Stop sulking in your own self pity and think about that. You said Nina was the best thing that happened to you” He strides off back in the direction of the others.
She was the best thing that ever happened to me….
After twenty minutes I decide it’s time to go back. There’s no point freaking out on Louis everything he said was true.
“Harry!” my mom approaches
“They said you and Tia can go in now, they aren’t taking other visitors at this time” She says saddened but happy that we can go in.
I breathe deeply and look to Tia who is in tears.
“She doesn’t want to go in Harry, it’s just you” Niall informs me as Tia bellows out cries. I don’t even ask what’s wrong. I’ll find out soon enough.
“Okay” I say quietly and hug my mom before walking down the hallway to Nina’s room.
I open the door and there’s a medical staff surrounding the bed.
They stare at me momentarily before welcoming me to walk further.
“Charles, please present the case” I stand off to the side and my eyes can’t leave what I see in front of me.
Nina…
She’s hooked up to every cord in the room, she has bandages all over her, and she looks drained. Her face has no color in it and she’s almost unrecognizable.
“Nina Marie Antoinette Vinci, age 18, multiple blunt force trauma to the head, a radius fracture, a femur fracture and a patella fracture. Open exit gunshot wound to the abdomen above the uterus causing internal bleeding, 12-15 weeks pregnant and currently under the effects of anesthetic” He takes a deep breath.
I freeze, staring at the group with immense worry.
“We called the pediatricians unit into the surgery and they said it was safe to proceed so we finished the stabilization surgery but that is only the beginning, we have to see if she will wake up and then continue from there, we have the baby on a constant monitor” Another speaks up, I look from Nina to another screen and back again.
“Wha-What if she doesn’t wake up” I stutter and put my hand to my mouth
“…Mr. Styles if she doesn’t wake up she will be considered brain dead” He speaks with hesitation and I can see why. Panic enters my blood stream and I don’t know how to react.
“The anesthetic will ware off quite quickly within a few hours. If she isn’t awake in the next 48 hours she will be considered brain dead”
I take a sharp intake of air, numbing my limbs. “Thank you,” I breathe
The doctor hands me an envelope before leaving the room, he smiles small and the group retreats.
“Nina baby” I whisper and sit beside her flipping the envelope in my hands.
“We should open this” I speak again knowing she can’t respond. I don’t care I just need her and if this is all I can get I’ll take it.
I open the letter and the paper crinkles a bit.
“It’s a picture” I speak “Of the baby” my voice cracks and I scan my eyes down to the black writing. “June 3rd at 6:12pm, boy” I drop my head down onto the bed with my arms cradling them.
“We’re having a boy,” I cry, my emotions taking over me completely
“I need you, I can’t do this” I break down
I’m not like this usually, I don’t know what’s wrong with me but every time I try to hold everything in and be strong I cant.
I remember Nina asking me to sing to her in the helicopter and now here staring at her emotionless face just makes me feel worse.
I grab her hand and hold it close to me
“Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love” I sob quietly into her hand, singing slowly
“And I will hold you closer hope your heart is strong enough” I take a long shaky breath.
“When the night is coming down on you we will find a way through the dark” I hold her hand and the baby picture in one and cry softly, I needed her more than anything right now.
“I miss you,” I whisper
“Please wake up”
Louis’s P.O.V
“What’s wrong babe?” Eleanor asks for the millionth time
“Nothing, I’m just tired”
“They aren’t letting us in I’m assuming” Anne says while crossing her arms.
We see Harry emerge from the distance and he looks devastated.
“Harry” his mom rushes up to him
“You guys can go home, it’s all okay” He speaks slowly
“What’s going on?” Liam asks
“She’s not awake yet, theirs no point in you all being here it’s late and you all should go home, the doctor said she’ll start taking normal visitors during the normal visiting hours tomorrow”
“The baby needs to go to bed Liam” Dani yawns and cradles the sleeping infant. Harry’s eyes go hard and stare at Liam placing Ella in her car seat.
“Where are Niall and Tia?” He asks while everyone grabs his or her coats.
“They had an emergency and had to leave they didn’t say” Zayn holds onto Perrie’s waist.
“Harry” I approach
He sighs and looks down
“How is she” I whisper
“Not good, but hopefully getting better” He answers simply
“And” I pause and look around “The baby?” I say in a hushed tone
“The baby is fine for now”
“What do you mean for now?”
“It’s a long recovery” He states saddened, I stop with the questions, he’s too emotionally wrecked to answer anything.
“I can stay, I’ll send El home with Dani”
“No” He says sharply “I want to be alone with Nina tonight, just me and her and you look exhausted please go sleep”
I think about fighting back but then give up “Okay I’ll go” I pull him into a hug, very quick very brisk. Then I follow El out the door after everyone’s said goodbye to Harry. His mom takes an extra long time they talk and hug for about 15 minutes.
“Call if anything happens or if you need anything okay?” she grabs his cheeks and he nods.
“Bye lad” I say before we exit.
Harry’s P.O.V
I walk back to Nina’s room and sit back in my chair, I lay my head on the bed while holding her left hand. I feel my eyes getting droopy.
“Goodnight love, sweet dreams” I plant a small kiss on her knuckles and surrender myself to sleep.
Notes
SO I WANT TO KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS ON
1) - Nina being pregnant
2) - The idea of Harry leaving
3) - The idea of Nina dying
4) - A miscarriage
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2/22/16