Breathe
Birthday Part Three
Nina’s P.O.V
“ You need to get up and get ready Lou and the boys are picking us up in an hour” Tia’s voice rang though my ears, but it sounded like she was 500 miles away and the sound was just reaching me.
“ Nina are you even listening?!” She yelled “ Nina answer me” she shook my shoulder, I weakly fell to the opposite side.
I can’t help my actions. I’ve never felt this broken before, I don’t want to talk to anyone or be with anyone I just want to be alone.
“ Seriously you have to get moving you’ve been in bed all day” She attempts to push me out of the bed, which I refuse.
“ Nina you’re scaring me please get up” She says weakly before sighing and leaving the room.
About twenty minutes later I hear a knock at the door.
“ Come in” My voice is raspy
“ Good day love” I turn to see Louis standing in the doorway, wearing black pants, a red shirt and a dress coat, clearly ready for Harry’s party.
I swallow “ Hi…”
“ How are you?” He moves his hand to his chin
“ Fine”
“ Doesn’t look like it”
I turn my head away from him so he doesn’t notice the tears forming in my eyes.
“ Tell me what happened” He moves and takes a seat on the end of my bed
“ I can’t look at him the same way, I can’t talk to him the same way, and I can’t” I pause looking for the right words “ Be with him the same way”
“ Nina you have no idea how much Harry loves you” He says with disbelief from my words.
“ I understand that, but ever since that kiss everything’s different”
I stares at me impassively
“ You’re doubting your feelings” He says it as if he’s figured out the whole scenario.
I nod “ I love Harry, I just don’t know”
“ You promised him you’d come to his birthday, now stop being so miserable and get ready” His harsh tone and seriousness take me back
“ You clearly have some feelings left for Harry if you are this upset by him”
I look down, he’s right.
“ You have 20 minutes and I’m coming back in to get you”
The door closes.
-
“ Nina” Louis comes in the door with his hand hovering over his eyes.
“ I’m changed” I flatten out my shorts and fix a curl from my hair.
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“ You look incredible” His eyes pop open
I smile weakly
“ Lets go, everyone’s already there”
-
Harry’s P.O.V
I turn my head around the room for the millionth time. Where are they…
“ My son is all grown up!” I see my mom and sister walking my way.
“ Hi mum” I kiss her cheek softly as she takes me into a big hug.
“ Gemma” I say sharply
“ Happy Birthday little bro” She attempts to scruff up my hair with her hand but I quickly swerve out of her way.
“ Quit it Gemma” I tease
“ Where’s your pretty girlfriend?” My mom looks around the room and behind me.
I want to tell them, that Nina and I aren’t together anymore, but the lump forming in my throat is restricting my words.
“ She’s on her way, Louis is bringing her”
“ Why didn’t you bring her?” Gemma questions, her concerned face making an appearance.
“ Uhh” I stall and look to the door “ Oh hey look Nick’s here” I point to the famous radio host.
“ I’ll see you in a bit mom” I swoop down and hug her once more
“ Later Gemma” I give her a quick wave
“ Harrryyyyy!” Nick smiles largely at me
“ Have you seen Louis around” I ask
“ No sorry mate”
“ It’s alright”
“ Where’s your bird?”
I close my eyes briefly, the ball forming once more.
“ Louis is suppose to be bringing her”
“ Why is your mate bringing your bird?”
“ She’s not my bird anymore” I crack and tell him everything
“ Well” He takes a deep breath as I finish my story “ Lets get you a drink” he pats my shoulder
-
Nina’s P.O.V
“ Love would you please stop tapping your foot” Louis rolls his eyes at me as we park outside the venue.
“ Sorry” I halt my foot
We get out of the car and I take Louis arm, as we walk towards the door we are bombarded with photographers, I wince from all the flashes where Louis just walks right though them.
“ You okay?” He turns to me as we enter into the room. I nod “ Yeah, I’m fine”
“ Now smile, you look miserable” He cocks his head and grins, I roll my eyes and smile largely, mocking him. He shakes his head and walks towards the bar.
I scan my eyes over all the people in the club, I don’t recognize anyone, and I can’t see Tia. I walk through the crowd of unfamiliar people.
“ Nina!” I hear someone sequel
I turn around to see Gemma, her face excited. I smile small at her
“ Gemma!” I walk towards her and she pulls me into her arms.
“ When did you get here?” she asks me quizzically
“ Just a few moments ago”
“ Harry’s been looking for you all over”
I gulp “ Has he?”
“ Yeah I think he’s at the bar with Nick” She points behind me, I don’t turn around
“ Nick?”
“ Nick Grimshaw” She laughs at me. Harry obviously hasn’t told Gemma that him and I broke up.
“ Thanks Gemma, I’ll go find him” I give her one last hug before walking off in the other direction.
I walk around the club a couple times before I find him. He’s sitting at the bar with Zayn, Liam, Louis, Niall, Tia, Dani, El and the man I think is Nick, I stare at the back of his head for a couple seconds before one of the boys spot me.
“ Hey Nina!” Liam Points. Shit… I freeze.
Harry whips around and I get caught in his gaze. His eyes travel along my body before they find mine and I see the anger.
“ Nina, where have you been?” Tia breaks the awkward silence.
“ Um, around” I reply quietly.
“ Harry, she’s beautiful” Nick says into his ear, but loud enough for us all to hear.
Harry stands and takes three steps closer to me, his eyes cloudy, his expression hard.
“ Hi” He breathes, I notice the rest of the group has gone back to socializing with each other, not paying much attention to us.
“ Happy Birthday Harold” I sound monotone.
“ What are you wearing?” He narrows his eyes at me, a crease forming in the center between his eyes.
I look down at myself and suddenly I feel uncomfortable, my shorts are a little short and my shirt is very revealing. I gulp.
Harry gawks and rolls his eyes “ Put some clothes on, do you want every guy in here looking at you?” He snaps.
“ That’s non of your concern, we aren’t together anymore” I hiss back
He steps back, as if my words struck him, he looks at his feet “ You’re right, have a nice night Nina” He puts on a fake smile.
“ Harry”
“ What?”
I hand him the bag in my left hand, which has his present in it.
A tight smile produces on my lips “ Happy Birthday”
Harry’s P.O.V
“ Where did Nina go?” Tia leans over the bar to see me
I think, and fear runs through me when I have no idea where she went
“Just to get some fresh air” I reply coolly. I bring the bag she gave me up to the counter.
I rip the tape holding the bag together, I place my hand in and take out a medium sized box. I open it and see a camera, a vintage camera. I smile and take it out. I notice a sticky note on it that reads “ Look at the pictures”
I click the camera roll button and scroll through, the first picture is Nina sitting at the table where we had our first date, the second is the balcony where we had our first kiss, the third brings tears to my eyes, its Nina sitting crossed legged on her bed wearing nothing but her undergarments with a Happy New Year hat on.
“ You okay mate?” Louis pats my back
-----
“ Harreh take another shot” Zayn yells over the music, I laugh and shake my head
“ No, no I cannnt” I fall back onto the couch
“ Hey big guy happy birthday” A voice says from behind me
“ We got you a surprise” I turn and see a girl dressed as a policewomen, but it wasn’t your normal policewomen.
“ You guys got me a stripper?” I yell at the group laughing. They nod and the women makes her way over to me. She removes parts of her clothes and starts dancing on my lap.
“ Harry!” I hear her broken voice. I turn my head and see Nina standing there, watching the girl dance on top of me. Her eyes are glossy.
“ Shit, Nina” I push the girl off me and stand, I notice the group of people around us have evacuated the area.
She puts up her hands and shakes her head. She starts walking towards the exit.
“ No please wait” I speed up to her and grab her arm
“ Don’t touch me!” She growls through clenched teeth and snaps her arm out of my touch.
“ Baby..” I whisper
“ Don’t call me baby, I’m not your fucking baby” She turns and walks out the door taking her phone out and making a call.
“ Hi, I’m in London do you want to hang out?” I hear her speak and anger boils my blood.
“ Just pick me up at” She turns to look at the sign, which says the name of the club “ Groucho, it’s a club”
“ Okay I’ll see you soon” She clicks her phone and puts it back in her short pocket.
I march up to her “ Who the fuck were you talking to?”
“ None of your business!” She yells at me.
“ Who’s picking you up Nina?” I spit back at her
“ That is none of your fucking business Harry now go back inside and enjoy your stripper” She waves her hand dismissing me.
“ Tell me” I ask quieter, trying to calm my nerves.
She sighs and turns away from me. “ Max”
I gasp and rage fills my body.
“ No” I say gritting my teeth
“ No?” She asks confused
“ He’s not picking you up and you sure as hell aren’t going with him” I cross my arms.
Her look is of pure outrage
“ Who the fuck are you to tell me what I can and can not do? We aren’t together anymore and we are never going to get back together so just leave me alone” She presses on my stomach in attempt to push me back
I close my eyes briefly, trying to prevent tears from breaking through.
“ So this is it then” I breath. She swallows.
“ Yeah, this is it”
A car pulls up and I recognize Max.
“ Please Nina…” I say desperately.
“ Please don’t go with him” I try anything I can
She glances between us.
“ I don’t want to keep your stripper waiting Harry, go back in and enjoy your birthday”
“ Not without you” I step foreword with my arms open
She spins out of my grab and that’s when I see the first tear fall from her right eye.
“ Harry, I can’t, I can’t keep doing this. I don’t want to be with you” The tears flow down her face as she talks.
Her words hit me like a thousand bricks.
I stumble backwards “ I love you” I whisper
“ I don’t love you” She speaks, trying to keep her tone under control.
“ Yes you do” I yell, I can feel myself getting heavier. I feel water run down the right side of my face.
“ Goodbye Harry” She turns and starts walking towards the car.
“ You need to get up and get ready Lou and the boys are picking us up in an hour” Tia’s voice rang though my ears, but it sounded like she was 500 miles away and the sound was just reaching me.
“ Nina are you even listening?!” She yelled “ Nina answer me” she shook my shoulder, I weakly fell to the opposite side.
I can’t help my actions. I’ve never felt this broken before, I don’t want to talk to anyone or be with anyone I just want to be alone.
“ Seriously you have to get moving you’ve been in bed all day” She attempts to push me out of the bed, which I refuse.
“ Nina you’re scaring me please get up” She says weakly before sighing and leaving the room.
About twenty minutes later I hear a knock at the door.
“ Come in” My voice is raspy
“ Good day love” I turn to see Louis standing in the doorway, wearing black pants, a red shirt and a dress coat, clearly ready for Harry’s party.
I swallow “ Hi…”
“ How are you?” He moves his hand to his chin
“ Fine”
“ Doesn’t look like it”
I turn my head away from him so he doesn’t notice the tears forming in my eyes.
“ Tell me what happened” He moves and takes a seat on the end of my bed
“ I can’t look at him the same way, I can’t talk to him the same way, and I can’t” I pause looking for the right words “ Be with him the same way”
“ Nina you have no idea how much Harry loves you” He says with disbelief from my words.
“ I understand that, but ever since that kiss everything’s different”
I stares at me impassively
“ You’re doubting your feelings” He says it as if he’s figured out the whole scenario.
I nod “ I love Harry, I just don’t know”
“ You promised him you’d come to his birthday, now stop being so miserable and get ready” His harsh tone and seriousness take me back
“ You clearly have some feelings left for Harry if you are this upset by him”
I look down, he’s right.
“ You have 20 minutes and I’m coming back in to get you”
The door closes.
-
“ Nina” Louis comes in the door with his hand hovering over his eyes.
“ I’m changed” I flatten out my shorts and fix a curl from my hair.
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“ You look incredible” His eyes pop open
I smile weakly
“ Lets go, everyone’s already there”
-
Harry’s P.O.V
I turn my head around the room for the millionth time. Where are they…
“ My son is all grown up!” I see my mom and sister walking my way.
“ Hi mum” I kiss her cheek softly as she takes me into a big hug.
“ Gemma” I say sharply
“ Happy Birthday little bro” She attempts to scruff up my hair with her hand but I quickly swerve out of her way.
“ Quit it Gemma” I tease
“ Where’s your pretty girlfriend?” My mom looks around the room and behind me.
I want to tell them, that Nina and I aren’t together anymore, but the lump forming in my throat is restricting my words.
“ She’s on her way, Louis is bringing her”
“ Why didn’t you bring her?” Gemma questions, her concerned face making an appearance.
“ Uhh” I stall and look to the door “ Oh hey look Nick’s here” I point to the famous radio host.
“ I’ll see you in a bit mom” I swoop down and hug her once more
“ Later Gemma” I give her a quick wave
“ Harrryyyyy!” Nick smiles largely at me
“ Have you seen Louis around” I ask
“ No sorry mate”
“ It’s alright”
“ Where’s your bird?”
I close my eyes briefly, the ball forming once more.
“ Louis is suppose to be bringing her”
“ Why is your mate bringing your bird?”
“ She’s not my bird anymore” I crack and tell him everything
“ Well” He takes a deep breath as I finish my story “ Lets get you a drink” he pats my shoulder
-
Nina’s P.O.V
“ Love would you please stop tapping your foot” Louis rolls his eyes at me as we park outside the venue.
“ Sorry” I halt my foot
We get out of the car and I take Louis arm, as we walk towards the door we are bombarded with photographers, I wince from all the flashes where Louis just walks right though them.
“ You okay?” He turns to me as we enter into the room. I nod “ Yeah, I’m fine”
“ Now smile, you look miserable” He cocks his head and grins, I roll my eyes and smile largely, mocking him. He shakes his head and walks towards the bar.
I scan my eyes over all the people in the club, I don’t recognize anyone, and I can’t see Tia. I walk through the crowd of unfamiliar people.
“ Nina!” I hear someone sequel
I turn around to see Gemma, her face excited. I smile small at her
“ Gemma!” I walk towards her and she pulls me into her arms.
“ When did you get here?” she asks me quizzically
“ Just a few moments ago”
“ Harry’s been looking for you all over”
I gulp “ Has he?”
“ Yeah I think he’s at the bar with Nick” She points behind me, I don’t turn around
“ Nick?”
“ Nick Grimshaw” She laughs at me. Harry obviously hasn’t told Gemma that him and I broke up.
“ Thanks Gemma, I’ll go find him” I give her one last hug before walking off in the other direction.
I walk around the club a couple times before I find him. He’s sitting at the bar with Zayn, Liam, Louis, Niall, Tia, Dani, El and the man I think is Nick, I stare at the back of his head for a couple seconds before one of the boys spot me.
“ Hey Nina!” Liam Points. Shit… I freeze.
Harry whips around and I get caught in his gaze. His eyes travel along my body before they find mine and I see the anger.
“ Nina, where have you been?” Tia breaks the awkward silence.
“ Um, around” I reply quietly.
“ Harry, she’s beautiful” Nick says into his ear, but loud enough for us all to hear.
Harry stands and takes three steps closer to me, his eyes cloudy, his expression hard.
“ Hi” He breathes, I notice the rest of the group has gone back to socializing with each other, not paying much attention to us.
“ Happy Birthday Harold” I sound monotone.
“ What are you wearing?” He narrows his eyes at me, a crease forming in the center between his eyes.
I look down at myself and suddenly I feel uncomfortable, my shorts are a little short and my shirt is very revealing. I gulp.
Harry gawks and rolls his eyes “ Put some clothes on, do you want every guy in here looking at you?” He snaps.
“ That’s non of your concern, we aren’t together anymore” I hiss back
He steps back, as if my words struck him, he looks at his feet “ You’re right, have a nice night Nina” He puts on a fake smile.
“ Harry”
“ What?”
I hand him the bag in my left hand, which has his present in it.
A tight smile produces on my lips “ Happy Birthday”
Harry’s P.O.V
“ Where did Nina go?” Tia leans over the bar to see me
I think, and fear runs through me when I have no idea where she went
“Just to get some fresh air” I reply coolly. I bring the bag she gave me up to the counter.
I rip the tape holding the bag together, I place my hand in and take out a medium sized box. I open it and see a camera, a vintage camera. I smile and take it out. I notice a sticky note on it that reads “ Look at the pictures”
I click the camera roll button and scroll through, the first picture is Nina sitting at the table where we had our first date, the second is the balcony where we had our first kiss, the third brings tears to my eyes, its Nina sitting crossed legged on her bed wearing nothing but her undergarments with a Happy New Year hat on.
“ You okay mate?” Louis pats my back
-----
“ Harreh take another shot” Zayn yells over the music, I laugh and shake my head
“ No, no I cannnt” I fall back onto the couch
“ Hey big guy happy birthday” A voice says from behind me
“ We got you a surprise” I turn and see a girl dressed as a policewomen, but it wasn’t your normal policewomen.
“ You guys got me a stripper?” I yell at the group laughing. They nod and the women makes her way over to me. She removes parts of her clothes and starts dancing on my lap.
“ Harry!” I hear her broken voice. I turn my head and see Nina standing there, watching the girl dance on top of me. Her eyes are glossy.
“ Shit, Nina” I push the girl off me and stand, I notice the group of people around us have evacuated the area.
She puts up her hands and shakes her head. She starts walking towards the exit.
“ No please wait” I speed up to her and grab her arm
“ Don’t touch me!” She growls through clenched teeth and snaps her arm out of my touch.
“ Baby..” I whisper
“ Don’t call me baby, I’m not your fucking baby” She turns and walks out the door taking her phone out and making a call.
“ Hi, I’m in London do you want to hang out?” I hear her speak and anger boils my blood.
“ Just pick me up at” She turns to look at the sign, which says the name of the club “ Groucho, it’s a club”
“ Okay I’ll see you soon” She clicks her phone and puts it back in her short pocket.
I march up to her “ Who the fuck were you talking to?”
“ None of your business!” She yells at me.
“ Who’s picking you up Nina?” I spit back at her
“ That is none of your fucking business Harry now go back inside and enjoy your stripper” She waves her hand dismissing me.
“ Tell me” I ask quieter, trying to calm my nerves.
She sighs and turns away from me. “ Max”
I gasp and rage fills my body.
“ No” I say gritting my teeth
“ No?” She asks confused
“ He’s not picking you up and you sure as hell aren’t going with him” I cross my arms.
Her look is of pure outrage
“ Who the fuck are you to tell me what I can and can not do? We aren’t together anymore and we are never going to get back together so just leave me alone” She presses on my stomach in attempt to push me back
I close my eyes briefly, trying to prevent tears from breaking through.
“ So this is it then” I breath. She swallows.
“ Yeah, this is it”
A car pulls up and I recognize Max.
“ Please Nina…” I say desperately.
“ Please don’t go with him” I try anything I can
She glances between us.
“ I don’t want to keep your stripper waiting Harry, go back in and enjoy your birthday”
“ Not without you” I step foreword with my arms open
She spins out of my grab and that’s when I see the first tear fall from her right eye.
“ Harry, I can’t, I can’t keep doing this. I don’t want to be with you” The tears flow down her face as she talks.
Her words hit me like a thousand bricks.
I stumble backwards “ I love you” I whisper
“ I don’t love you” She speaks, trying to keep her tone under control.
“ Yes you do” I yell, I can feel myself getting heavier. I feel water run down the right side of my face.
“ Goodbye Harry” She turns and starts walking towards the car.
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