Breathe
Intimidating
The harsh sunlight brings my hangover head discomfort. I sit up and groan. I look around the room and notice the chair – shit that wasn’t a dream. I stand up and an unusual feeling moves from my stomach to my throat. I rush myself to the bathroom and throw up. I hear the door open, It’s Harry no doubt, I lift myself off the ground and pour water from the sink in my mouth.
“ Lou?” I say surprised as I leave the bathroom “ I thought you were Harry” I sound disappointed.
“ Nope, he’s pissed at you, we all are” He speaks monotone, I roll my eyes.
“ I did what I did for a reason, Harry said some pretty horrible things to me and I reacted, I didn’t expect it to get that far but it’s not all my fault”
“ You don’t get it do you? Harry blames himself fully for what happened, he was a mess last night, he looked around London for you for 3 hours and when he couldn’t find you he started panicking and we’ve never seen him like that” He pauses “Everyone was in a frenzy, Liam, Zayn, Niall, El, Dani me everyone. When you finally called us it took Harry everything he had to not come with us”
I stare down at my fingers as guiltiness fills me. “ I’m sorry, maybe I should just go” I look over to my suitcase.
“ No, you’re not leaving, Harry needs you. We all care about you, we didn’t want anything bad happening” He speaks softly, making me feel like an errant child. I give up the battle with him and say “ I understand, I really am sorry, I didn’t mean for this to happen” He gives me a small smile “ Go talk to Harry, he’s in the living room.” He points to the door. “ Let me change first” I notice I’m still in my date clothes. He nods and puts his hands in his front pockets before leaving the room.
I walk over to my suitcase and rummage through it for comfy hangover clothes, I manage to find http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=77654171 I pull my hair to the side and braid it quickly. I glance at myself in the mirror before I leave the room, I look like shit – great.
Harrys sitting casually on the couch, looking down at his lap playing with his phone. He looks up but when his eyes meet mine he shoots his head down. I flinch, I make my way over to him and sit next to him. I grab a throw pillow and place it in my lap before crossing my legs. Harry sighs, deep, annoyed.
“Do you want to talk” I say shyly staring at his bowed head. Abruptly he stands and waltzes over to the kitchen, putting on the kettle. I slowly follow. He’s acting like a child, I stride over and wrap my arms around his midsection. His hands dart to my wrists pulling me off him. I gasp, “ I’m still fucking pissed at you” He hisses at me, face emotionless. I step back, he rejected me. The thought brings me discomfort. I nod and tilt my head downward towards the floor to avoid eye contact. I hear him take a deep breath and turn away from me. Tears fill my eyes, he doesn’t want me. I stifle backwards and he turns, quickly I spin myself to avoid him seeing the tears, I was too late. “ Hey” He says softly and walks towards me. I take further steps away from him and let the tears fall freely. He puts his arms out to me, “Don’t touch me” I snap, and his face falls. “ Just leave me alone” I walk out of the kitchen and back into Harry’s room, closing the door loudly.
I retreat to the bed and burry my head in the pillow.
This is bullshit, after 20 minutes I march out of the room and straight into the living room where Harry sits. He looks up at me confused.
“ You said yourself relationships need to be worked on when problems rise, so we can talk about it or I can leave and let you act like a petulant child all alone” I shout at him. His eyes widen and his brows crease. He sits up balancing his forearms on his thighs “Alright lets talk” I notice El and Lou retreat back into their room.
“ You overreacted when I told you about Niall, you accused me of cheating and it hurt me” my voice hitches.
“ I don’t like when other guys want what’s mine” he whispers
“ So you get mad at me for telling you something?, would you rather have me keep things from you?” I sit next to him, he shakes his head.
“ No, no I want you to tell me things”
“ You went and got drunk with Max and put yourself at risk, you wouldn’t text anyone back or call anyone to let us know you were safe and alive, I looked all over London for you, I’ve never been so scared in my life. If anything would have happened to you I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself” his voice cracks and he clears his throat.
“ I’m sorry, I should have called or texted something, I was mad” I look at my feet
“ Instead you go and call for Max instead of me” He says harshly, tone hurt.
“ It’s not like that” I caution
“ What’s it like then Nina?”
“ I was mad” I say simply
“ Did you do that just to hurt me?” I step back, surprised.
“ No, I didn’t know it hurt you” I speak quietly
“ You’re my girlfriend, not his, my responsibility, not his, its my job to protect you and keep you safe.” He’s practically yelling “ You have no idea how mad I am”
We sit in silence for three minutes, I don’t know what to say.
“ You haven’t kissed me yet today” I pout
“ I know” He says with a bitter tone.
“ How long are you going to be like this?” I snap. He sighs before standing up, I look at him confused – where is he going. He strides towards me and puts both of his hands on my hips pulling me forward. He places a small kiss on my forehead, then on the bridge of my nose. I look up at him, our mouths inches away from each other. His lips find mine softly. I wrap my arms around his neck as the kiss deepens. His tongue pries its way through my teeth and wraps around my own.
“ I love you so much” He says after the kiss breaks. I nod
“ I love you too” He pulls me into a hug from around my waist.
“ Please don’t ever do that again”
“ I wont” I press my lips against his throat.
“ Are you still mad at me?” I look up at him.
“ Only a little” He kisses my nose
“ What do you want to do today?” He holds me at arms length
I groan and rub my aching temple “ Up to you” He chuckles
“ Lets go get Starbucks and then figure something out, go change” He pats my behind pushing me towards the bedroom. I sulk back into the room Harry following behind. I look him up and down, he’s wearing black skinny jeans with a V-neck white tee shirt. I take out http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=77701473 and strip off my pajamas, I hear Harry gasp as I pull on my top. “ Something the matter Styles?” I tease, buttoning up my shorts. He clears his throat.
“ Lets go” He holds his hand out to me, I take it willingly.
--
“ Do you like London?” He peers around the street. I sigh, I know where this is going.
“ Yes Harry I love London” I look up at him. “ It’s Sunday” He chimes. I nod “ It would appear so” I giggle “ Do you have an answer?” I frown, “ How can you ask me for an answer after all that’s happened in the past twenty four hours?” I say quietly incase of paps. “ You’re doubting our relationship cause of what happened today and last night?” He sounds as if he’s been winded.
“ It’s a not something I can conjure up a answer for in two days” I hear his deep breath “ Point well made, but please think about it” He stops in the middle of the side walk and kisses my forehead, I notice photographers hiding in the bushes. “ Harry” I tug at his shirt and he releases me from the kiss, I point to the paps. “ I don’t care” He murmurs and softly places his lips on mine. I smile mid kiss and his lips leave mine. “I love you” he whispers. “ Eh I like you to” I joke and his face turns into a smile “ Just a little?” He teases back, I nod laughing. His hands rest gently on my hips.
“ I love you too” I roll my eyes and he pecks my cheek quickly before grabbing my hand and continuing our stroll.
“ What Starbucks are we going to?” I ask when the area we appear in looks familiar, he points to a green topped building with the famous logo “ That one” I pause “ Shit” I say under my breath, that’s where Max works. I hold onto Harry’s hand tighter as we enter the store. I glance around and see him at the cash register. Harry senses my nervousness and looks down at me.
“ What’s wrong love?” He says softly, I look over at Max, he’s seen us. “ Max works here” I push Harry slightly to the direction he’s in, Harry looks over and then quickly back. “ Come on” He pulls my hand into the line.
“ What are you doing?” I ask harshly, “ We’re getting our drinks then leaving, I want to say a few words to Max” Harry sounds sarcastic, emphasizing Max’s name.
“ I can help whose next” Max shouts at the line of people, we’re up.
“Hello mate” Harry speaks, his tone something more than anger, and slowly Max’s face drops and all the color drains…
“ Lou?” I say surprised as I leave the bathroom “ I thought you were Harry” I sound disappointed.
“ Nope, he’s pissed at you, we all are” He speaks monotone, I roll my eyes.
“ I did what I did for a reason, Harry said some pretty horrible things to me and I reacted, I didn’t expect it to get that far but it’s not all my fault”
“ You don’t get it do you? Harry blames himself fully for what happened, he was a mess last night, he looked around London for you for 3 hours and when he couldn’t find you he started panicking and we’ve never seen him like that” He pauses “Everyone was in a frenzy, Liam, Zayn, Niall, El, Dani me everyone. When you finally called us it took Harry everything he had to not come with us”
I stare down at my fingers as guiltiness fills me. “ I’m sorry, maybe I should just go” I look over to my suitcase.
“ No, you’re not leaving, Harry needs you. We all care about you, we didn’t want anything bad happening” He speaks softly, making me feel like an errant child. I give up the battle with him and say “ I understand, I really am sorry, I didn’t mean for this to happen” He gives me a small smile “ Go talk to Harry, he’s in the living room.” He points to the door. “ Let me change first” I notice I’m still in my date clothes. He nods and puts his hands in his front pockets before leaving the room.
I walk over to my suitcase and rummage through it for comfy hangover clothes, I manage to find http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=77654171 I pull my hair to the side and braid it quickly. I glance at myself in the mirror before I leave the room, I look like shit – great.
Harrys sitting casually on the couch, looking down at his lap playing with his phone. He looks up but when his eyes meet mine he shoots his head down. I flinch, I make my way over to him and sit next to him. I grab a throw pillow and place it in my lap before crossing my legs. Harry sighs, deep, annoyed.
“Do you want to talk” I say shyly staring at his bowed head. Abruptly he stands and waltzes over to the kitchen, putting on the kettle. I slowly follow. He’s acting like a child, I stride over and wrap my arms around his midsection. His hands dart to my wrists pulling me off him. I gasp, “ I’m still fucking pissed at you” He hisses at me, face emotionless. I step back, he rejected me. The thought brings me discomfort. I nod and tilt my head downward towards the floor to avoid eye contact. I hear him take a deep breath and turn away from me. Tears fill my eyes, he doesn’t want me. I stifle backwards and he turns, quickly I spin myself to avoid him seeing the tears, I was too late. “ Hey” He says softly and walks towards me. I take further steps away from him and let the tears fall freely. He puts his arms out to me, “Don’t touch me” I snap, and his face falls. “ Just leave me alone” I walk out of the kitchen and back into Harry’s room, closing the door loudly.
I retreat to the bed and burry my head in the pillow.
This is bullshit, after 20 minutes I march out of the room and straight into the living room where Harry sits. He looks up at me confused.
“ You said yourself relationships need to be worked on when problems rise, so we can talk about it or I can leave and let you act like a petulant child all alone” I shout at him. His eyes widen and his brows crease. He sits up balancing his forearms on his thighs “Alright lets talk” I notice El and Lou retreat back into their room.
“ You overreacted when I told you about Niall, you accused me of cheating and it hurt me” my voice hitches.
“ I don’t like when other guys want what’s mine” he whispers
“ So you get mad at me for telling you something?, would you rather have me keep things from you?” I sit next to him, he shakes his head.
“ No, no I want you to tell me things”
“ You went and got drunk with Max and put yourself at risk, you wouldn’t text anyone back or call anyone to let us know you were safe and alive, I looked all over London for you, I’ve never been so scared in my life. If anything would have happened to you I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself” his voice cracks and he clears his throat.
“ I’m sorry, I should have called or texted something, I was mad” I look at my feet
“ Instead you go and call for Max instead of me” He says harshly, tone hurt.
“ It’s not like that” I caution
“ What’s it like then Nina?”
“ I was mad” I say simply
“ Did you do that just to hurt me?” I step back, surprised.
“ No, I didn’t know it hurt you” I speak quietly
“ You’re my girlfriend, not his, my responsibility, not his, its my job to protect you and keep you safe.” He’s practically yelling “ You have no idea how mad I am”
We sit in silence for three minutes, I don’t know what to say.
“ You haven’t kissed me yet today” I pout
“ I know” He says with a bitter tone.
“ How long are you going to be like this?” I snap. He sighs before standing up, I look at him confused – where is he going. He strides towards me and puts both of his hands on my hips pulling me forward. He places a small kiss on my forehead, then on the bridge of my nose. I look up at him, our mouths inches away from each other. His lips find mine softly. I wrap my arms around his neck as the kiss deepens. His tongue pries its way through my teeth and wraps around my own.
“ I love you so much” He says after the kiss breaks. I nod
“ I love you too” He pulls me into a hug from around my waist.
“ Please don’t ever do that again”
“ I wont” I press my lips against his throat.
“ Are you still mad at me?” I look up at him.
“ Only a little” He kisses my nose
“ What do you want to do today?” He holds me at arms length
I groan and rub my aching temple “ Up to you” He chuckles
“ Lets go get Starbucks and then figure something out, go change” He pats my behind pushing me towards the bedroom. I sulk back into the room Harry following behind. I look him up and down, he’s wearing black skinny jeans with a V-neck white tee shirt. I take out http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=77701473 and strip off my pajamas, I hear Harry gasp as I pull on my top. “ Something the matter Styles?” I tease, buttoning up my shorts. He clears his throat.
“ Lets go” He holds his hand out to me, I take it willingly.
--
“ Do you like London?” He peers around the street. I sigh, I know where this is going.
“ Yes Harry I love London” I look up at him. “ It’s Sunday” He chimes. I nod “ It would appear so” I giggle “ Do you have an answer?” I frown, “ How can you ask me for an answer after all that’s happened in the past twenty four hours?” I say quietly incase of paps. “ You’re doubting our relationship cause of what happened today and last night?” He sounds as if he’s been winded.
“ It’s a not something I can conjure up a answer for in two days” I hear his deep breath “ Point well made, but please think about it” He stops in the middle of the side walk and kisses my forehead, I notice photographers hiding in the bushes. “ Harry” I tug at his shirt and he releases me from the kiss, I point to the paps. “ I don’t care” He murmurs and softly places his lips on mine. I smile mid kiss and his lips leave mine. “I love you” he whispers. “ Eh I like you to” I joke and his face turns into a smile “ Just a little?” He teases back, I nod laughing. His hands rest gently on my hips.
“ I love you too” I roll my eyes and he pecks my cheek quickly before grabbing my hand and continuing our stroll.
“ What Starbucks are we going to?” I ask when the area we appear in looks familiar, he points to a green topped building with the famous logo “ That one” I pause “ Shit” I say under my breath, that’s where Max works. I hold onto Harry’s hand tighter as we enter the store. I glance around and see him at the cash register. Harry senses my nervousness and looks down at me.
“ What’s wrong love?” He says softly, I look over at Max, he’s seen us. “ Max works here” I push Harry slightly to the direction he’s in, Harry looks over and then quickly back. “ Come on” He pulls my hand into the line.
“ What are you doing?” I ask harshly, “ We’re getting our drinks then leaving, I want to say a few words to Max” Harry sounds sarcastic, emphasizing Max’s name.
“ I can help whose next” Max shouts at the line of people, we’re up.
“Hello mate” Harry speaks, his tone something more than anger, and slowly Max’s face drops and all the color drains…
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