Drops of Jupiter

Sofia's POV

Soft hands caressed my frighted skin up and down . The frightening image of Harry on top of me , was now beginning to fade from my memory museum . Soft gasp of relive escaped my lips as peppered kisses were left on my finger tips . My body relaxed under his gentle touches . We laid together cuddling in a safe endless bed of white sheets . My back pressed to his front legs intertwined . My eyes were swollen with tears that had once ran down non stop and red from the lack of sleep . Soft hands brushed my hair from my eyes from behind .

" Are you okay ? "

He asked quietly after my breathing had slowed down . Even facing away from him I could tell he was worried about me by his tone of voice . It was tired quiet and strained .

" Yeah I'm alright " , I hummed .

I was better , better than 10 minutes ago . I felt awful that I had launched my self at him with such ravish force . But I was so frightened by him , the dream was so vivid , so colorful and alive .

" Come on "

Harry spoke sitting up . My head rose from the mattress to see where we were going . Seeing my apprehension he carefully sat me up . He guided us to the head board where he sat criss cross , back pressed against the wood . His hands found mine as he positioned me on top of him so that I was sitting on his lap , legs wrapped around his waist . We sat facing each other , a small smile left my lips as I saw him reach over to the side lamp to retrieve a hair band , where he processed to pick my hair up in to a big bun like I like it . When he finished accustoming my hair like he wanted he took my hands and kissed them with his red plump lips . A smile broke out from my face .

" Sorry I attacked you " , I mumbled as I played with his large hands that were suddenly very interesting .

He laughed lightly at the memory of me attacking him . The room seemed so warm , so peaceful as we both sat together thinking about what happen.

" You nearly gave me a heart attack ", he said lightly laughing whilst trowing his head back .

I laughed , his head bounced back to place as I starred at his green emerald eyes . He was truly stunning . Even half asleep and wild tired eyes , he still managed to look like a Calvin Klein model . His full eyes lashes fluttered as he spoke .

" You were screaming and kicking while you yelled telling me to stop , it woke me up . I tried to calm you down but , damn you have lungs " , he told picking a strand of my hair and tucking it behind my ear .

" My dream was really scary " , I told him frowning at the memory .

" You wanna talk about it ? " , Harry asked me taking my hands in his .

I looked around trying to dismiss the question that hung in the air . Was I scared to tell him about my awful dream ? Maybe .

" We don't have to talk about it " , he told me placing a warm hand on my cheek .

" No it's okay , it's just- " , I began telling him running my hand through my messy hair in frustration . My eye brows pushed together as I fought with my self weather or not to tell him . The hell with it .

" We were like , sleeping and then I asked you something and you got really mad at me so you- " , I cut myself off before I could give myself away . Curious eyes watched mine as I stopped talking .

" -you raped me ", I told him quietly . I looked down trying to escape the eyes I knew were full of questions . Questions that I my self didn't even know the answers too . And too be honest I was scared of the answers .
After building my self with courage I looked up . Jade eyes peered at me with a pained expression .

" Wait , wait . What did you ask me in your dream ? " , he questioned me . I gulped as his eye brows furrowed together in confusion . Curly hazelnut hair shook back and forth in disagreement .

" Nothing , I just asked you if you- you " , I sucked in a breath , " if you wanted to have another baby " .

Large hands skinned to my back to pressing me to his chest . My head rested on his shoulder breathing in his mesmerizing scent that clouded my mind .

" That's why I got mad ? " , he asked me lightly laughing .

" And then you kept saying , here's you baby , while you grabbed me " , I told him wrapping my hands around his neck , pulling him into a comforting hug . My muscles relaxed as a his digits traced patters on my back .

" That's awful ... " , Harry spoke cupping his hands on my ribs to pull me away so he could look at me in the eyes .

" Well I'm sorry that I did that in your dream " , he told me with a small smile that erupted my stomach in endless butterflies . A loud sign broke out from his lips as his hands rose up to push his hazelnut hair out of his sparkling orbs .
The question in the air made me feel comprehensive over what to say next .

" Um , we should probably go to bed " , I spoke after a while of silence . Not getting an answer I began to un reel my legs from his back when large hands gripped my thighs holding me in place .

" Wait " , Harry spoke sternly . I was almost sure what he wanted to talk about by the look of his eyes .

" Yes ? " , I asked him raising an eye brow . A few seconds flew by before he finally spoke again breaking the silence that ringed in the air .

" Do you ever think about .... About her ? " , he asked me stuttering over his own words . I did not have to be a medium to know exactly who was her . We had never spoken of her since the loss , but now this moment seemed perfectly timed and calculated .

" Everyday " , I said to him . It was true , not a day had gone by that I had not thought of her . Picturing how things could of been , how things should had played out . But the reality was that there was not If's or what could of been . This was now and this was real.

" Do you ever think about what she would have been like ? What she would have liked ? Or what she would have looked like ? " , he asked me staring off into space thinking about our lost daughter .

" I think .. That she would have looked like you a lot " , I told him pushing his curls back while he lightly hummed against my touch , " and I think that she would have your eyes , and you hair ...but I want more of you in her than me , cause your pretty cute " . I told him whilst I laughed at my own words . A lazy smile escaped his heart shaped lips .

" No , she would have your hair . It would be red with curls " , he told me smiling while playing with a strand of my ginger hair . It was funny how we both imagined her that same way , it was like if we had sat down and drawn her out .

" Wait , when you say you want more of me in her , your referring to the future ? " , he asked me turning his head to the side . I was taken back by his observation . Leave it to Harry to find the slightest open crack in the side walk .

" Well yeah .... I mean , I'm not saying that we have to , but yeah but no ... I just ....thought .. " , I went of tripping over my own feet again . I mentally slapped my self . I bit my lip in attempt to shut my self up . A laugh ringed the room as Harry saw my nervousness . Soft peck was stollen from my lips as he laughed at my nerve racking stuttering.

" Your cute when your nervous " , Harry told me grinning and pulling away from our small kiss . I buried my face in his neck as he turned my cheeks the color of my hair .

" But babe ..... Are you sure ? I mean it's not too early ? Where not too young ? " , he questioned me . I honestly could not believe we were having this conversation . It was kind of ironic really , how we went from grieving over the loss of our daughter , to talking about having another one.

" Well .... We were going to have one before , so what's the difference now ? " , I asked him placing my hands in his chest while I traced small hearts over the black fabric .

" You have a good point " , he told me smiling .

" I always do " , I playfully answered back .

" So were doing this ? We're having another baby ? " , he asked me stretching his legs in font of him .

" I just ... I just want to feel that love again , you know ? Like when I was pregnant I felt so alive , so motherly . And all I wanted to do was protect our child , and I just want to feel that again " , I spoke quietly while I steered clear of eye contact .

" I'll take that as a yes " , Harry said whilst he grabbed my chin to make me look at his green eyes .

" Yes " , I spoke boldly , I felt some what empowered at the thought of me being able to respond so confident on the outside , while really my insides were rattling with fear . I didn't fear Harry , but he just had such authority over me and my decisions that talking brave to him was not a good way to go . Any smart man would know not to talk back to him . But at this second I felt as if I could tell him everything that pissed me off about him . Like the fact that he opened every damn cabinet and then not close them . I would bravely hold my ground as the male authority in front of me held my gaze with icy eyes .

" Alright then " , he spoke while a small grin poked around his lips . I was taken back by how quick he went from being stern to being a complete marshmallow in a matter of seconds . Our lips found each other once more before I climbed off his lap and resting back to my side of the bed . Once he flicked off the light the room went completely black engulfing me in a dark satin night . I was a bit displeased when I didn't feel Harry's arms around me , frowning I took hold of the cuddling situation . Giggling I pressed front to his back and hugging him like a jet back . A laugh vibrated throughout my body as he felt me hug him . Strong muscles laid under my finger tips as I clung to his warm body . Harry squealed as I presses my cold toes to his warm calf . I laughed as he tried to push me off only to have me literally cling to him .

" We could start now you know ? " , I heard a gruff voice speak through his back . I was confused by what he meant before a large hand skinned up my thigh . A giggle left my lips as I pushed his hand away from legs .

" Go to sleep Harry " , I told him laughing .

" Alright , alright " , Harry told me plopping back into the pillow .

This moment was indescribable , I felt so safe by his side , unlike in my dream , I felt like the only girl in the world .

" I love you " , I spoke quietly he was probably already sleeping but I just wanted him to know it , asleep or awake . It startled me when he spoke roughly .

" I love you more " .

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