Tattooed Heart **ON HOLD**

Rosie's POV

"Eyes on the road."

"I think they are."

My eyes scanned the back of the car in front of us. The traffic was horrible right now, and Zayn was being a back seat driver.

"Watch it!" Liam snapped. I stepped on the brakes, making the car screech to a stop. Cars honked behind us, and all around us, making everyone groan.

"What!" I yelled. I pulled the car over, and parked it. "You almost got us killed!"

"God, fucking relax." He replied and chuckled. I rolled my eyes, and pulled back into the cluster of cars along the street.

Seconds, minutes passed and everything was silent. Not an awkward silence or comforting, but a though filled one. And, only one thing was flying through my head: how could I let this happen? I rested my hand on my lap, only to raise it to my mouth and chew on the nail.

How could I be so stupid or weak to let someone do that to me? After everything I've been through thus happens. My eyes narrowed, and I swerved around the car before me. It was sudden and sharp, causing all of our necks to snap. My sudden anger outburst, was fueling up.

I did that.

I let them.

I didn't fight.

I was a dumbass.

No, I am a dumbass.

For everything.

The road was clear now, probably cause I was speeding ahead and getting faster by the minute, but no one seemed to care. I made a sharp, right turn and smiled. It felt satisfying to release some anger. A pinch. Not a lot.

"Calm down, speed racer." Harry said.

"Shut up." I growled and tapped my fingers on the wheel. "I have enough problems on my plate as it is, so just shut the fuck up please."

"Woah, calm it princess." Liam added.

"Really, would you like to enlighten why you're acting so moody? Are you in you're time of the month or something?" Harry asked.

I stopped the car. Right in the center of the road. no one was here. Of course, no one was.

"Listen, I seriously don't want to deal with your shit right now." I turned around in the seat. "I'm sorry for being in edge lately. I guess I reacted the wrong way in loosing my fucking mind! I doth remember anything that's happened lately! And now, I have Niall on my ass about our 'relationship' and Eleanor's death to handle-"

"What are you talking about. What thing with Niall?" He interjected.

"If you must know, he claims to be my boyfriend." I huffed and turned back around. It felt better to let it out. It just felt weird to let it out to him. Harry.

"He's not your boyfriend."

"I know that, he's a jackass." I stated and started to drive again. I looked into the mirror and saw that reflection of Harry's smile looking back at me.


*3 Weeks Later*

"And what about that one?" I asked, tracing a beautiful black and white skull with vines sticking out in all directions up his arm.

"I don't know...it just felt. Manly." He replied, smiling.

"And this?" I traced out the ship on his upper arm. He jumped from my touch, and I could feel goosebumps forming.

"Oh, that's old. I don't remember." He said, chuckling.

Harrys hand found it's way to my shoulder, and pulled it down revealing the permanent mark. I smiled, just looking at it, but the meaning felt deeper.



"What about you? What does this mean?" He whispered. His fingers felt as if they were lingering on my skin as he outlined the tattoo. "You never told us."

"Umm." I stammered. This inking meant so much, that it hurt. But, I guess that's why I got it. "El. It's what she would tell me all the time."

"You guys were close, huh?" He reminisced and leaned back, facing me. The apartment was quiet except for our voices. One thing that never happened at Niall's.

"Yea." I nodded, and tried to blink back tears. It felt easier to open up to Harry then anyone- it's funny though, cause only a few weeks ago I never felt that. I knew snippy remarks would get no where but an argument or a prolonged conversation, and right now, I just needed to let it all out. "For the longest time."

His hand found my back, and pulled my head to his shoulder as tears came out. He circled the other inking just below my neck....and I oddly liked the comfort.



I knew new why I got them. Only I did. I needed to get rid of the pain bubbling inside of me. I thought getting a tattoo that reminded me of her would help...maybe it would make all my worries just run away when it pierced my skin. It did, somewhat. For the first couple days it helped, then it's just became a memory of El, making me want to cry.

"Birds. They represent freedom. Freedom of sprit and grief." He stated looking at my shoulder again. I smiled.

"Yep. How'd you know that?"

"I just.....did. I don't know." He chuckled, and I laughed. I laughed for El, cause she would've wanted me to. She would've wanted me to live, to love, to live her life for her, to-

A thought crossed my mind. It didn't make any sense though. I guess I'll just mention it later....Liam or Zayn will know..but it just doesn't make any sense right now.

"What's this?" I breathed, and rubbed along the blank spot of tan skin that was perfectly bare. Why just one blank spot?

"Oh, it's uhh." He chuckled nervously. "I just....wish someday if I ever do find the right person, I want to have it shown. I want to be reminded of it every day that she's the one, she's my priority."

I smiled. It was a beautiful thought. And it made sense. I love it.

"Sorry, it's stupid..."

"No, no not at all, Harry. It's wonderful." I said. "I kind of have the same thing in mind."

"You do?"

"Yea, when I find the person, I want to get a tattoo that represented what we had. That is love. I just don't know how to represent it yet." I looked down and laughed a little. That was one of my secrets that no one knew...except Harry. And I doth know why I did, but I revealed it.

"Like, like a...Uhh." He smiled "A heart. A tattooed heart."

Notes

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