~NELLY'S POV~

Before I knew it, it had turned 9oclock Dani, El, Perrie and Ally had gone home and we were putting our pajamas on and getting ready for bed.

"Night people." I said and gave them all hugs, and kissed Niall on the lips when I came to him, saving him for last, as usual.

"Night." They said and Niall kissed my head.

I went upstairs to my room and lay on my bed staring at my ceiling in thought. Next week is the anniversary of my moms death and it dawned on me that I'd have to go too her grave either alone or bring the boys, which might be awkward for them. It will be awkward to even ask them. I miss Elena, Damon and Wes so much. I got off my bed and went to my dressing table and took the photo album out and went back to my bed and lied on my tummy and flipped it open.

There was this picture and I couldn't help laugh quietly at it, dad and Wes are play fighting and Wes had dad pinned to the floor, clearly letting him win, and you can see in the background me and mom getting all glammed up; she was doing my hair and make up so I looked like her with my curly/wavy blonde hair and jewelry alike. I giggled to myself remembering it all.

I turned a few pages and there was one of me and Wes in a den we made in his room. We were probably telling spooky stories judging by our facial expressions.

I flicked through to the more recent ones from only a few years ago of me and some old school friends including Wes and his group. I was on Wesley's back and wee were pulling funny faces and my friends were all goofing around with Wes' friends. And it hit me that I'd never do that again. But on the flip side I've got even better friends here, ones who I know I'm not going to be departing with any time soon and who won't be leaving me either. Hopefully.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door which was already opened.

"Knock knock." The voice which happened to be Niall's said.

"Hey." He I said smiling.

"Hey yourself. What you looking at?" He asked coming in and sitting next to me on my bed.

"Photo album." I said turning onto my back and putting the album between us so he can see too.

"Wanna see some old, probably embarrassing pictures of me?" I asked chuckling.

"Sure." He said grinning and I turned the album to the start.

I showed him my 3rd birthday which was my first with the Carters.

"Aww, look at that cheesy smile." Niall smiled pointing to my whopping grin I was displaying by my caterpillar birthday cake.

"Hey, can you blame me? I had a caterpillar cake." I laughed.

"I wish I had a caterpillar cake for my birthday." He said as we continued looking through the next few pages.

"I'll get you one for your birthday." I smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder and he kissed my forehead.

"You better had." He threatened playfully.

"Or what?" I dared.

"Um..." He said in thought then the next thing I know my arms are pinned above my head and he is looking down into my eyes mischievously.

"I could tickle you?" He said letting go of my hands with one of his still holding them securely. Fuck. Shit. Fuck. Shitty fuck. Fucking shit. Shit, shyzer and sugar. Fuck a mother fucking duck on toast. I hate being tickled, who ever first found it out is an asshole.

"Please Niall don't. I promise I will get you a caterpillar cake. I will get you two! Or even three! Please don't tickle me!" I begged and he laughed putting his free hand on my stomach gently remembering the bruise that's still there.

"Fine. I'll let you off." Niall said rolling his eyes while smiling.

"Thank God for that. Phew!" I laughed and we got back to my photo album.

I showed him the one of my dad and Wesley play fighting with my mom and me in the background.

"I love this one." Niall said smiling.

"Me too. I remember it well, it was on May 11th 2003 I think, I was about 6 I'm sure. Mom was doing my make up and hair because I wanted to look like her and I can't remember what dad and Wes were play fighting over." I said and flipped a few pages.

"She was very pretty." Niall said and I smiled and nodded in agreement.

"So are you, you know that right?" He added and I couldn't help the dumb smile that came over my face and the slight blush that tinged my cheeks.

"Thanks." I said and leaned my head back on Niall's shoulder.

"Don't thank me. Its my job to make you blush." He said smugly which made my blush grow.

"Stop it." I spat giggling.

"Why, I'm not lying am I?" He asked rhetorically while raising an eyebrow, knowing what he's doing.

"Because!" I exclaimed and sat up covering my face with my hands to hide my red cheeks that could stop traffic.

"Because what?" Niall pressed smirking while taking my hands away from my face and holding them by my sides.

His eyes alternated from my eyes to my lips and I slowly leaned forward. He copied my actions and our lips connected softly. The kiss progressively got more desperate and my hands went to his hair, his hands went around my back and he carefully lay me back down on the bed. This is the best kiss I've ever had.

I'm going to be honest right now, I don't know where this is going. I know were only kissing and I'm pretty sure nothing is gonna to happen, but I'm not ready to go all the way, yet. As much as I trust and love Niall, the thought still terrifies me and the reason is nothing to do with sex itself or that its with Niall;Joe is to blame.

Niall kissed from my lips, down the side of my neck and stopped at my collar bone. He rested his head on his hands which were flat on top of eachother a bit below my chest, grinning adorably.

"Best kiss ever." I smiled at Niall and brushed some hair that had fallen out of place back out of his eyes.

"Couldn't agree more." He sighed contently and I looked at him for a moment.

"Your so cute." I said in a baby tone.

"Why?" He laughed.

"You just are, especially by the way your lying now. Your like a baby cub or something, a really cute one that you could cuddle forever. " I giggled and Niall just laughed even more.

"I'm fine with that. But just so you know, your more cute." He said picking himself up off me and lying beside me instead, I took that as an opportunity to make him into my pillow again. Something he will have to get used to.

"Why? How?" I asked and pulled one of my most unattractive faces.

"You just are, even pulling that face. Your like a demented walrus that you just want to stab with a spear and watch the life slowly drain out of it." He said nonchalantly and I sat up appalled. Did he really just say that?! Am I actually that gross?!

"I'm kidding! I was describing Anastasia, chill!" He said laughing and I just stared at him before laughing along with him, she does actually look a bit like a demented walrus.

"Your like a little kitten that you could just squeeze to death, not literally, just cuddle with all day long. Or a princess, beautiful, smart, funny and no one would upset or mess with her because she has her prince and dukes and duchesses who would kick their ass to China Town if they dared to." Niall said and I blushed again and cuddled back up to his side, smiling.

"Well, in that case, your more like a prince, handsome, smart, witty, and no bitch would ever bat an eyelash at him or his princess would scratch her eyes out if she tried, and his dukes and duchesses would join in for back up. And no guy would make him angry or pissed off or his princess would punch him in the throat, or balls depending in how tall he is." I said and Niall chuckled a bit and kissed my temple.

"Love you princess." Niall said in a sing-song tone.

"Love you too prince." I replied mimicking his tone.

"Love you m-" He cut me off.

"Nope." He said smirking and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"You didn't let me finish." I said.

"You were going to say something which is incorrect." He said smirking.

"How is it incorrect?" I challenged.

"Because I love you more." He stated finally.

"Now that, was incorrect, I love you more." I argued and he looked at me like a parent who is giving its child their last warning would.

"You know what, we love eachother equally. Let's just agree on that because this is never gonna end. Deal?" Niall raised his eyebrow and put his hand forward to shake on it.

"Deal." I rolled my eyes and shook his hand.

"Good. Well, I'm going to bed now. Its half past eleven and we got school tomorrow, sadly." He said and shuffled of my bed.

"Okay, goodnight Nialler." I said and sat up and hugged him.

"Goodnight love."Niall said and kissed me on the lips and went to the door but stopped before he left.

"Do you want your light off?" He asked me.

"Uh, one sec.." I replied and smiled jumping out of bed to put my phone on charge so it doesn't die in the middle of the night then putting my photo album away before getting comfy in my bed.

"Now you can turn it off, please." I grinned and he laughed and pressed the switch.

"Night." He whispered but not to quiet so I couldn't hear him.

"Night." I replied and left my room.

I lied their for a short while and began to drift off off to sleep and thoughts of Joe came to mind. No, I'm not having another nightmare. Joe can fuck off for a few nights. I swung my legs off the bed and crept downstairs. I went into the kitchen and switched the light on so I could see and poured myself a tall glass of water and sat on the counter top.

The water woke me up and I sighed. Curiously, I hopped off the counter and went over to a cupboard I didn't notice above the cooker and opened it. Inside was medication like Tylenol and pain relief, cough medicines, toothache relief and sleeping pills. There was also a first aid kit. Sleeping pills huh? Who are they prescribed for? I reached up for them and looked at the name; Harold Edward Styles. I wonder if I was to take one whether I would sleep better, without bad dreams I mean. I'm sure it wouldn't hurt to try right? I read the directions and it said to take two before bed if required.

I took two and downed one after the other with a mouth full of water that I still had left, put them back in their place in the cupboard then went upstairs to bed. I lay there for a couple of minutes and let the pills do their thing and sleep took over me.

Notes

I know it's short compared to my others, but its cute! I didn't think you'd mind it being a little short since all, well the majority of my other chapters are quite lengthy and all.
Hope you liked it! ^_^<3