This Fight Is Worse Than War
Chapter 1
"Soo how was your four day weekend?" Alana sat down next to me at the lunch table.
"Fine." I said trying not to look at her. I stabbed my carrot with a fork and left it there not saying a word.
"Doesn't sound to fine from what I hear." She took a pause. I could feel her eyes locked on me.
"Or from what I see what is this?" She went to grab my arm but I pulled away pulling down my sleeve and ignoring her.
"Bryn! Answer me." She said louder.
I turned to her staring into her. "Nothing. Everything is perfectly fine now stop." I slammed my hand on the table. Soon I could feel everyones eyes on me. I wanted to burst out in tears, I wanted to run from everything and everyone. I wanted to run away from life.
Soon, I got the nerve to get up push my tray of food off the table and storm out of the cafeteria while putting my jacket on. I ran to the guidence counselors office in tears not stopping or looking at anyone. I could hear people laughing and whispering from behind me and I went by them, but I didn't care. I was falling apart and I needed someone to listen.
"Ms. Doye?" I said peering around the door. Her head went from looking down at her paperwork straight to me. She was pretty, brown short hair and it was straight, she had gray eyes and glasses and was about the perfect size. Not skinny, not fat. Perfect.
"Come in Bryn. Shut the door behind you." She welcomed me in suggesting me a chair to sit in.
"What's wrong?" She asked me taking off her glasses and setting her paperwork to the side.
"Im done. With everything, everyone. Just life. Im abused at home, I only have one friend, no one likes me everyone talks about me behind my back, makes fun of me, sends death threats to me. I dont have my mom in my life. I want to die!" I had cracked. I was soon crying again and it began getting hot.
"Bryn calm down. Bryn are you ok?" I heard her say she ran over to me with a bottle of water and shoving it down my mouth.
"Your turning white you need to take a few deep breathes." I did so soon being able to breathe again. It was still hot so I took of my jacket. She was on her way back to her seat to sit down when she gasped.
"Oh my god!" She said. A look in her eyes was heart warming but yet sad. She ran back over to me inspecting my arm and then looking at my face. I guess the water washed some of my make-up away revealing some of my bruises.
"Do you have anymore?" She asked, with a worried look on her face. I lifted up the side of my shirt to show her my bruises by my ribs. She gasped again and soon her eyes were filled with tears. She tried hard to hold them back but slowly they danced down the side of her cheek and soon disapearing of the bottom of her chin. Disapear. I wanted to disapear.
Before I knew it I was pulled into a hug by Ms. Doye. Her hug was warm and inviting. It made me feel safe from all the people in the school, all the people in the world that could hurt me. It even made me feel safe from my dad. She pulled away and wiped away the tears from my cheek. I took another deep breathe and soon felt calm enough to speak again. We talked for a couple of minutes before being interupted by the secretary.
"Ms. Doye?" She knocked on the side of the door.
"Hmm? Oh come in come in." She said waving her hand.
"I should probably go." I said wiping away my tears and grabbing my jacket.
"No no no sit! We still have to talk. What do you need Ms. Nash?"
"We have a new student here today. You need to give him a few classes. He just moved here and even though there are only 2 weeks of school left until summer he needs a credit to graduate." She said still standing in the doorway.
"Okay bring her in." Ms. Doye said moving back behind her desk sitting in her chair.
"Oh yea hes a boy not a girl." She laughed as she walked away and a boy walked in. I didn't look not caring.
"Come in and sit. You can sit by Bryn for right now." Ms. Doye pointed to a chair and he pulled it over to her desk sitting right next to me. I looked down trying not to get into their conversation.
"Whats your name hunny?" She asked the boy turning to her computer.
"Harry. Harry Styles." He said. Oh my god. I think I just died inside. His voice sounded so beautiful and perfect. I felt like a someone had ripped my heart out and just gave it away to him. I wanted to look at him but I knew if I did I would only be dissapointed. Not it his looks but I knew someone or anyone would ever go after to me.
They continued talking and soon Ms. Doye handed the boy or Harry, a peice of paper. Im guessing it was his schedule.
"Bryn? Bryn?!"
"Huh?" I said turning to Ms. Doye.
"Do you mind showing Harry around school. Maybe it will give you a chance to make a new friend." I wanted to say no but at the same time I wanted to throw myself on top of Harry and scream yes. Something about him made me feel different. I didn't know what it was but I loved the feeling. So I just nodded my head getting out of my seat.
Harry and I were both now in the hallway. I walked a little faster than him so I was ahead of him.
"My name is Harry if you didn't already know." He said. He put his arm on my shoulder sending tingles and chills down my body.
"I know." I snapped at him turning around.
"Woah okay then." He said flinging his hands in the air. "Your name is Bryn right?"
"Yea. Bryn. Bryn Mayfield." I continued walking. I showed him his classes and where they were.
"I guess Im done here." I said. I started walking away when I dropped my jacket. I bent down to pick it up but Harry was already going for. We both stopped and we both looked at each other. His eyes were perfect. They were such a beautiful emerald green, and his skin looked so soft, so touchable, and his lips were pure perfection. I just wanted to kiss them. He looked back down to pick up my jacket when he grabbed my arm. He looked at it, inspecting it. He looked at me with worry in his eyes and sadness all over his face. All I could do is sit there, tears ready to flow out of my eyes. I grabbed my jacket and ran away to my locker.
"Fine." I said trying not to look at her. I stabbed my carrot with a fork and left it there not saying a word.
"Doesn't sound to fine from what I hear." She took a pause. I could feel her eyes locked on me.
"Or from what I see what is this?" She went to grab my arm but I pulled away pulling down my sleeve and ignoring her.
"Bryn! Answer me." She said louder.
I turned to her staring into her. "Nothing. Everything is perfectly fine now stop." I slammed my hand on the table. Soon I could feel everyones eyes on me. I wanted to burst out in tears, I wanted to run from everything and everyone. I wanted to run away from life.
Soon, I got the nerve to get up push my tray of food off the table and storm out of the cafeteria while putting my jacket on. I ran to the guidence counselors office in tears not stopping or looking at anyone. I could hear people laughing and whispering from behind me and I went by them, but I didn't care. I was falling apart and I needed someone to listen.
"Ms. Doye?" I said peering around the door. Her head went from looking down at her paperwork straight to me. She was pretty, brown short hair and it was straight, she had gray eyes and glasses and was about the perfect size. Not skinny, not fat. Perfect.
"Come in Bryn. Shut the door behind you." She welcomed me in suggesting me a chair to sit in.
"What's wrong?" She asked me taking off her glasses and setting her paperwork to the side.
"Im done. With everything, everyone. Just life. Im abused at home, I only have one friend, no one likes me everyone talks about me behind my back, makes fun of me, sends death threats to me. I dont have my mom in my life. I want to die!" I had cracked. I was soon crying again and it began getting hot.
"Bryn calm down. Bryn are you ok?" I heard her say she ran over to me with a bottle of water and shoving it down my mouth.
"Your turning white you need to take a few deep breathes." I did so soon being able to breathe again. It was still hot so I took of my jacket. She was on her way back to her seat to sit down when she gasped.
"Oh my god!" She said. A look in her eyes was heart warming but yet sad. She ran back over to me inspecting my arm and then looking at my face. I guess the water washed some of my make-up away revealing some of my bruises.
"Do you have anymore?" She asked, with a worried look on her face. I lifted up the side of my shirt to show her my bruises by my ribs. She gasped again and soon her eyes were filled with tears. She tried hard to hold them back but slowly they danced down the side of her cheek and soon disapearing of the bottom of her chin. Disapear. I wanted to disapear.
Before I knew it I was pulled into a hug by Ms. Doye. Her hug was warm and inviting. It made me feel safe from all the people in the school, all the people in the world that could hurt me. It even made me feel safe from my dad. She pulled away and wiped away the tears from my cheek. I took another deep breathe and soon felt calm enough to speak again. We talked for a couple of minutes before being interupted by the secretary.
"Ms. Doye?" She knocked on the side of the door.
"Hmm? Oh come in come in." She said waving her hand.
"I should probably go." I said wiping away my tears and grabbing my jacket.
"No no no sit! We still have to talk. What do you need Ms. Nash?"
"We have a new student here today. You need to give him a few classes. He just moved here and even though there are only 2 weeks of school left until summer he needs a credit to graduate." She said still standing in the doorway.
"Okay bring her in." Ms. Doye said moving back behind her desk sitting in her chair.
"Oh yea hes a boy not a girl." She laughed as she walked away and a boy walked in. I didn't look not caring.
"Come in and sit. You can sit by Bryn for right now." Ms. Doye pointed to a chair and he pulled it over to her desk sitting right next to me. I looked down trying not to get into their conversation.
"Whats your name hunny?" She asked the boy turning to her computer.
"Harry. Harry Styles." He said. Oh my god. I think I just died inside. His voice sounded so beautiful and perfect. I felt like a someone had ripped my heart out and just gave it away to him. I wanted to look at him but I knew if I did I would only be dissapointed. Not it his looks but I knew someone or anyone would ever go after to me.
They continued talking and soon Ms. Doye handed the boy or Harry, a peice of paper. Im guessing it was his schedule.
"Bryn? Bryn?!"
"Huh?" I said turning to Ms. Doye.
"Do you mind showing Harry around school. Maybe it will give you a chance to make a new friend." I wanted to say no but at the same time I wanted to throw myself on top of Harry and scream yes. Something about him made me feel different. I didn't know what it was but I loved the feeling. So I just nodded my head getting out of my seat.
Harry and I were both now in the hallway. I walked a little faster than him so I was ahead of him.
"My name is Harry if you didn't already know." He said. He put his arm on my shoulder sending tingles and chills down my body.
"I know." I snapped at him turning around.
"Woah okay then." He said flinging his hands in the air. "Your name is Bryn right?"
"Yea. Bryn. Bryn Mayfield." I continued walking. I showed him his classes and where they were.
"I guess Im done here." I said. I started walking away when I dropped my jacket. I bent down to pick it up but Harry was already going for. We both stopped and we both looked at each other. His eyes were perfect. They were such a beautiful emerald green, and his skin looked so soft, so touchable, and his lips were pure perfection. I just wanted to kiss them. He looked back down to pick up my jacket when he grabbed my arm. He looked at it, inspecting it. He looked at me with worry in his eyes and sadness all over his face. All I could do is sit there, tears ready to flow out of my eyes. I grabbed my jacket and ran away to my locker.
8/26/13