Afraid of Falling in Love
To The Edge
Karmina's POV
The last few days for Karmina were spent avoiding Harry. When she did see him, she said as little as possible. He had tried to win her over, but she just refused everything he had given her. Karmina had never been a girl who could be bought, and she wouldn't start now over some pop star. It didn't help that as she was using the computer the other day, she had seen that on his birthday he had been with her, and had a stripper. All he had done while she was in a coma. She hadn't bothered to mention it to him, she wasn't keen on talking to him at all. The only thing she could feel at this moment was betrayal. Her trust was broken, and that she took very seriously. Karry was all she had, and all she needed. She planned to move back to Los Angeles after Harry went back on tour, she knew if she she told him he would only protest.
"Would you like some breakfast?" Harry interrupted her thoughts. She merely shook her head, without bothering to look at him. She felt him sit beside her on the bed. "I'm really sorry, Karmina," he said in a low voice. "Everything between me and Caroline has been over for a long time." He grabbed her hand. She wanted to hold back and not give him the satisfaction of a response but she lost her sense of control.
"I suppose your birthday was just ages ago," she spat. She could hear him loudly exhale.
"That's not what it looks like," he added. Karmina turned to look at him, to read his expression. His eyes were filled with sadness as he bit his lower pink lip. "We were just catching up it was nothing like that. I promise," he kissed her hand.
"If it was nothing like that then why didn't you tell me?" She shot up in frustration.
"I didn't want to overwhelm you," he stood beside her.
"I rushed into this relationship. I have to find out who I am before I continue in what ever this is," Karmina wasn't trying to be mean, she was being honest.
"I understand," Harry's voice cracked. "I just want you to know that I never meant to hurt you," he lifted her chin so she was looking into his gleaming green eyes.
"Harry, there is something else," she decided she needed to be mature about the situation. He nodded, signaling for her to go on.
"I'm going back home to LA," she said sternly.
"What? Your going to take Karry all the way back to LA! She's going to be so far from me. Karmina please don't do this to me," the tears began rolling down his cheek. Karmina wiped the side of his cheek.
"I am not doing this to you. I'm doing this for me. I'm not trying to take her away from you, but LA is where I need to be. You won't even be here most of the time. When you have a few days in between come back to LA instead. I promise to bring Karry to visit you as often as I can," Karmina pleaded with him.
"Karmina," Harry whispered, he then bent down and kissed her softly on the lips. "I'm going to miss you," he pulled his arms around her for a warm embrace. He then dragged his suitcase into the living room. Karmina followed Harry as he went into Karry's room. She lay napping in her crib. Harry picked her up softly, she woke a little then fell back to sleep in his arms. "I love you so much," he whispered to her. He pecked her forehead gently, and the placed her back in her crib. He turned to look at Karmina, who stood in the doorway.
"I'm going to miss you too Harry," she gave him a weak smile, as the tears fell from her face. She was so angry at him a few minutes ago, and just speaking to him for a few minutes he had changed her mind completely. He walked over to her and picked her up for a hug.
"Tell me you love me. Tell me you'll never let me go," he cried into her ear. And she opened her mouth to speak but couldn't, the pain was just to much to bare.
"Harry, mate. We have to go," Louis's voice rang through her ears, and she felt her feet touch the ground.
"I love you, my heart will never let you go," she wiped the years from his eyes.
"I love you. Goodbye, Karmina," he kissed her forehead and she watched as he walked out the door, leaving Karmina alone and torn.
The last few days for Karmina were spent avoiding Harry. When she did see him, she said as little as possible. He had tried to win her over, but she just refused everything he had given her. Karmina had never been a girl who could be bought, and she wouldn't start now over some pop star. It didn't help that as she was using the computer the other day, she had seen that on his birthday he had been with her, and had a stripper. All he had done while she was in a coma. She hadn't bothered to mention it to him, she wasn't keen on talking to him at all. The only thing she could feel at this moment was betrayal. Her trust was broken, and that she took very seriously. Karry was all she had, and all she needed. She planned to move back to Los Angeles after Harry went back on tour, she knew if she she told him he would only protest.
"Would you like some breakfast?" Harry interrupted her thoughts. She merely shook her head, without bothering to look at him. She felt him sit beside her on the bed. "I'm really sorry, Karmina," he said in a low voice. "Everything between me and Caroline has been over for a long time." He grabbed her hand. She wanted to hold back and not give him the satisfaction of a response but she lost her sense of control.
"I suppose your birthday was just ages ago," she spat. She could hear him loudly exhale.
"That's not what it looks like," he added. Karmina turned to look at him, to read his expression. His eyes were filled with sadness as he bit his lower pink lip. "We were just catching up it was nothing like that. I promise," he kissed her hand.
"If it was nothing like that then why didn't you tell me?" She shot up in frustration.
"I didn't want to overwhelm you," he stood beside her.
"I rushed into this relationship. I have to find out who I am before I continue in what ever this is," Karmina wasn't trying to be mean, she was being honest.
"I understand," Harry's voice cracked. "I just want you to know that I never meant to hurt you," he lifted her chin so she was looking into his gleaming green eyes.
"Harry, there is something else," she decided she needed to be mature about the situation. He nodded, signaling for her to go on.
"I'm going back home to LA," she said sternly.
"What? Your going to take Karry all the way back to LA! She's going to be so far from me. Karmina please don't do this to me," the tears began rolling down his cheek. Karmina wiped the side of his cheek.
"I am not doing this to you. I'm doing this for me. I'm not trying to take her away from you, but LA is where I need to be. You won't even be here most of the time. When you have a few days in between come back to LA instead. I promise to bring Karry to visit you as often as I can," Karmina pleaded with him.
"Karmina," Harry whispered, he then bent down and kissed her softly on the lips. "I'm going to miss you," he pulled his arms around her for a warm embrace. He then dragged his suitcase into the living room. Karmina followed Harry as he went into Karry's room. She lay napping in her crib. Harry picked her up softly, she woke a little then fell back to sleep in his arms. "I love you so much," he whispered to her. He pecked her forehead gently, and the placed her back in her crib. He turned to look at Karmina, who stood in the doorway.
"I'm going to miss you too Harry," she gave him a weak smile, as the tears fell from her face. She was so angry at him a few minutes ago, and just speaking to him for a few minutes he had changed her mind completely. He walked over to her and picked her up for a hug.
"Tell me you love me. Tell me you'll never let me go," he cried into her ear. And she opened her mouth to speak but couldn't, the pain was just to much to bare.
"Harry, mate. We have to go," Louis's voice rang through her ears, and she felt her feet touch the ground.
"I love you, my heart will never let you go," she wiped the years from his eyes.
"I love you. Goodbye, Karmina," he kissed her forehead and she watched as he walked out the door, leaving Karmina alone and torn.
Notes
Sorry I haven't posted. I'm in the middle of moving, so my time is very limited right now. I hope you enjoyed!xoxo<3
I was also wondering if you wouldnt mind checking out something ive started today, its my first story and id like some feed back please! Let me know what you think ;)
http://www.harrystylesfanfiction.com/Story/10021/The-Maroon-Tavern/
7/1/13