Listening to Niall

"Jamie" Niall gets a hold of me. I couldn't control my screaming I zoomed up to my feet trying to put the biggest distance I could between me and the bloody face. I had flashbacks to the car crash two years ago. All the blood, the glass, the body. Niall locked his hands around me to calm me down. The others heard my screaming and came running.
"Help" The person limped closer to us.
"What is this?" Harry asked as he reached us first.
"Shhh" Niall was whispering in my ear as I was on my knees, him hugging me from behind.
The bloodied face man was standing in front of me. "Help me please"
Over six months it took me till I stopped waking up screaming. A year had past before that driver stopped hunting my dreams, and 15 months when I stopped going to those meetings.
But it took only one moment off guard to make those awful memories flood back.
"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to scare you- I need help" the person said in a shaky voice "They are still trapped inside"
"Where? Take us" Harry said. The person was limping trying to take them back to his trapped car.
"You can't move on your leg, just tell them where it is and stay here" Eleanor stopped him "I'll call for help"
"Over by the park. You can't miss it" He pointed. The boys ran to where the person directed them. Niall stayed by my side.
"I'm sorry" the person said again. I got up from my knees and moved closer to him, looking in to his cut up face.
"What happen?" I was whispering
"I lost control of the car and I couldn't get to my phone or get my friends out, it flipped over. The buckle is stuck and I heard you, so I came to get help" He said.
"How many people are in the car?" Niall asked
"Two" Tears were running down his cheeks. "She's stuck"
"I'm sorry for screaming" I tell him "I probably scared you even more"
"I probably look scary" He tried a faint smile, but it hurt his face. "You need to get her out"
"Let's go see if we can help" I say to Niall. He nodes at me.
"I'll stay here with him, what's your name? Who can I call?" Eleanor turned to him.
As we neared the car we could hear screaming and banging.
Harry looks at me with wide eyes. Louis and Liam are trying to break in.
I get up to the car window. The person banging upside down moved her hand, and I got a glimpse at the banged up face "Mia!" I shouted putting my hands up to the locked window.
She was in such a state. "Calm down we called for help" I shouted for her to hear me
"Don't go! Where is Matt? Is Mattie ok?" She was asking about her fiancé. Then it downed on me. The bloodied face guy is Matt. I have seen him only a couple of times, since he studies at Cambridge.
"He's fine- He's with Eleanor" I tell her "Who is in there with you in the back?" I ask trying to keep her talking and mind off of the situation.
"Ariel- we saw her on the way and stopped to give her a lift, she isn't moving Jamie" A new stream of panic washed over her.
"Get the other door open" I tell Niall. The boy's are trying their best to unlock it.
"Hold on I hear the sirens" I say "Try getting Ariel to comment". I see her turn her head to Ariel, trying to reach her from her position. Liam managed to get the back door open and pull Ariel out. Harry then climbed into the car to try and help Mia.
"Ariel" I touch her. She is lying on the ground head propped up on Liam's lap. It seems as if she hit her head pretty bad.
"Ariel" I try again. She opens her eyes slightly.
"Jamie" She whispers at me "What happen?"
"You were in an accident but you're ok, help is on their way" I hold her hand. The sirens are getting louder indicating how close they are.
Harry managed to get Mia's seatbelt and now they were both crawling out of the car.
"Are you ok?" I ask her from where I was, not wanting to leave Ariel's hand.
"Yes I'm fine- is my face ok? Look at my face!" She remembers her wedding date- 4th of February.
"Mia- you are fine is anything broken?" I ask her.
"No- where is Matt? Matt!" She shouts. The medics are here and they run over to us.
"My fiancé is over there and he's hurt" She points to where Matt is waiting with Eleanor and Perrie.
The medics get hold of Ariel and put her on a stretcher. They try to get Mia on one as well but she refuses.
"I'm fine- you need to come with me to Matt" She pulls one of the medics with her.
"Is there anyone we can call love?" One of them asked Ariel.
"We couldn't get to the phones- they are in the car somewhere" I tell him
"Who are you?" He asked me. Good question, since we're clearly aren't friends.
"I'm in her classes" I tell him. Mia and some medics are back with Matt, El and Perrie.
"We need to take them in" The one who was standing next to me said.
"Jamie, come with me" Ariel caught my hand again.
"She can't, no room in the ambulance, and you can't drive- the roads here aren't cleared yet" The driver told us.
"Well, call me and let me know how things are going" I tell Mia, "Ariel, Mia is coming with. She's going to be there with Matt but she'll keep an eye out for you too" I smile at her "You'll be fine" They start rolling her to the back of the vehicle.
"Jamie" Ariel calls out for me "Thank you" She says. When the ambulance drives off we all walk back to the boys flat.
"What a day" Oliver says taking his coat off.
"Adventurous ha?" Louis smiled.
"Nice of you to be there for Ariel after all she put you through" Zayn said to me.
"You would have done the same thing" I answered him.
They all sat down in the living room talking about what just happen. I was standing quietly, looking out the window when I felt a tap on my shoulder. Looking up I see Harry standing beside me. "That was a bad car crash you were in wasn't it?" He looked out as well. As the words left his mouth I had another flashback to the body lying on the road, glass sprayed everywhere. I shake my head to clear my vision. Just then I caught a few words from the group on the sofa. "The glass was everywhere and she didn't move" Oliver said. I forgot he was with us that day.
Two years ago we were coming back from a movie one Friday night. Oliver was at the same movie with friends and we gave him a lift home. Our friend Max was driving. We let Eleanor off at her home and then he continued to our house. I was sitting at the front and wanted to change the song that was playing but couldn't find the switch. So Max took his eyes of the road just for a second. That same second a car coming the other way lost control and got on to our lane. When we looked back to the road it was too late and we smashed right into them. I banged my head on the side window, and couldn't move my neck for over a month. Max broke his nose and had to have some stitches. My friend Hilary who was Max's girlfriend at the time was sitting in the back next to Oliver without a seatbelt on since she let Eleanor who was seated in the middle out. She flew head first into the windshield. I dreamt about her for over a year. She would haunt my dreams, coming at me with her broken neck and banged up face. Oliver was the only one that came out of there without a scratch.
"The funeral was one of the saddest we have ever been to, right Jay?" Eleanor brought me back to the present.
"Sorry, what?" I looked at her
"I was telling them about Hilary's funeral" She said.
"What happen to the other car?" Harry asked "I mean the people in it?"
"They were all dead but the driver- He was drunk by the way" Oliver said
"That always happens you know, the drunk driver gets to live" Niall looked at us. I excuse myself to go call Mia and see how things are, since they managed to get her phone from the car before they left.
"Hi love, how is Matt?" I ask when she answers.
"He has a few cuts on his face but they'll heal until the wedding, the problem is his foot" She was panicking "They said he ripped his Achilles thingy and he needs to go into surgery and have a cast put on. He'll have a cast on our wedding day" She was crying now.
"Mia, sweetie it's not the end of the world as long as you both are alive" I say "How is Ariel?"
"She's back to herself, she hit her head quite bad but other than that she's fine".
I hang up the call, and head back to my friends when I hear them talking about me.
"I wasn't there so I didn't see the things they did" Eleanor said
"Max and Jamie went to therapy for a long time after that" Oliver added
"Hilary was a close friend"
"True you three were like the three musketries" Oliver chuckled
"Are you in touch with max?" Harry asked. This is the first time he really heard the whole story of that long ago nightmare.
"He committed suicide a few months later" Oliver said quietly
"Jamie and him blamed themselves for the crash" Eleanor told them
"How's that?" Liam asked fascinated with the story. My friends new about the crash since Eleanor told them after they found out I go to therapy for it. But never heard the full story since we only met them a few months after, when school started.
"Well, Max blamed himself because he was driving and Jamie blamed herself since because of her he took his eye off the road"
"If Hilary was Max's girlfriend why wasn't she sitting in front?" Harry asked
"She was showing me stuff on her phone so she sat with me in the back" Eleanor told him.
"Sometimes Jamie still has nightmares you know?" Oliver told El.
"Yeah, I know" She then looks up at me noticing me standing in the hallway.
"Come on Jamie what are you doing there?" She asked
"Listening to you blabbing about the past" I say angry with them, talking about my nightmares.
"Jamie, don't be cross with El, we are all friends here" Perrie said
"Yeah we would all still have nightmares if we would have gone through what you did" Liam said.
"You didn't have bad nightmares did you?" I asked Oliver sitting down next to Niall.
"No, not like you did. But don't forget that I volunteered with those guys I've seen a lot of things"
"Not two years ago you didn't, you were too young"
"Not that young, I did get to see some" He frowned "I reckon I could stomach it better, that’s why I'm going to be a trauma doctor one day" He smiled
"What is up with you and cars Jamie?" Louis said finally
"Heah, I don't know it's like bad luck or something" I say. I kept thinking the same thing today when I was sitting with Ariel.
"Hey!! We never got to make a snowman!" Eleanor made a sad face
"That's right!" I am shocked by the thought we forgot the most important thing you do on a snow day.
"We can go back out and build one" Liam suggested
"No way! I'm not going back out! Too cold" Perrie snuggled up to Zayn
"Fine- Harry, Niall come with me" Louis got up "Put your gloves on"
They leave the flat without another word
"Where you reckon they're off to?" Eleanor turns to look at the closed door.
"I have an Idea" I smile. If they are as crazy as I know Louis is…
I few moments later they are back with snow in their arms. They put the snow down on the floor and go back out to get some more. "Start building" Louis orders us before he shuts the door.
"Just as I suspected! An indoor snowman!" I smile and get up from my seat.
We finish building a quite handsome snowman, with eyes and Harry's hat. We put a jersey on him as well.
"What shell we call him?" I ask
"Billy" Louis decided
"Billy it is" Liam said
"Billy.. I like it" I smile up at them.
"Shell we take pictures with Billy then?" Eleanor asked taking out her phone
"Of course" Niall and Louis pick Billy up to the sofa
"What are you doing?" Perrie was looking at them shocked
"He is cold on the floor, so he should sit with us" Liam told her as If she is crazy for not thinking about this herself.


I'm in bed with Niall in his room all cuddled up to him. "You think tomorrow it will be safe to drive Oliver back to grandma's home?" I ask him
"Yeah, should be ok to drive" He said "Jamie, was it that bad after the crash, like El said?"
"It was worse" I say
"Do you feel like sharing what happen?"
I was quiet scared to speak the awful things so they won't come back to haunt me.
"I learned it wasn't Max's or my fault" I say finally "It was the drunk driver's".
"I was screaming and crying, and Oliver was trying his best to calm me down.. But I couldn't! Not with Hilary lying on the hood of the car like she did. Max was gutted. He was petting her cheek trying to get her to talk to him… But I saw her eyes, they were open.. She was dead already." I shivered the image flashing in front of me.
The bodies from the other car were spread on the ground next to us. It was terrible"
"What happen after? I mean after the funeral and all?" Niall asked me
"It destroyed our summer. I couldn't leave the house, couldn't sleep, and couldn't eat. When I was alone I wanted to be with people, but once I was with people wanted to be alone." I breathed in a deep breath. "At some point my mum talked to Max's mum and found out he is going through the same thing like me, so they decided to send us to therapy. But Max didn't make it. He couldn't live with what had happen. He and Hilary were together since 6th grade. He was devastated" I looked into Niall's blue eyes "I was almost gone too. I was thinking of cutting myself, to see if I will feel as much pain as Hilary did… but after Max killed himself I knew I couldn't. I knew I had to live, that I wanted to live. So that thought pushed me to get better"
"Oh darling, why is this the first time I'm hearing about it?" Niall hugged me
"Because I didn't want to say it out loud, I couldn't.. But now I know and I can deal with it all" I smile at him "Hilary would have been so sad and angry with me if I didn't get back up and going. So at first I did it for her. I came to school, I made sure I got the best grades, as I got better I did it for me"
"I love you! You're the strongest person I know" Niall kisses me
"I wouldn't have been able to go through all of these things if El wouldn't have been by my side every step of the way. At first she came to therapy with me waited outside"
"Eleanor is a dear friend" Niall smiled
"She is". I close my eyes, waiting for sleep to come as I am still cuddled up with Niall.
But after all that happen and the memories that were triggered, the ghost of my past have awaken and they were back to haunt my dreams.

Notes

Updated from my phone.. hope it makes sense.. if not I'll fix it when I'm near a computer xx