Bad Memories

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Chapter 5 – Another Day Off

I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. I turn it off and notice I had two messages from Harry. The first on said:

Harry Styles

Anytime xo

That must have been about my thank you for dinner. The next one was:

Harry Styles

Goodnight beautiful, have sweet dreams xo p.s if you have another nightmare call me and I don’t care what time. I'm here xoxo

I smiled at the last one and decided to message Harry back:

Moring, I had no nightmare last night. But I slipped up in my kitchen and my side hit the kitchen bench. I’m alright just a bit sore that all xo

I sigh and got myself off the bed; I had a shower. I noticed in the mirror I had slight bruise on my face where my dad slapped me. I check my phone and I had three messages from Harry. The first one read:

Harry Styles

You alright?

The second was:

Harry Styles

Lu are you there?

The last one was:

Harry Styles

I’m coming around

I sighed and I message him back:

I’m fine; you don’t have to come around

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I put my phone down as I got dressed. In a long blue sleeved t-shirt and jeans. Then I heard a knock at my front door, I knew it was Harry since he didn’t message me back. I walked to the door as he kept knocking, I open the door. Harry comes straight in, “you’re alive,” he says. He hugs me lightly so he don’t hurt me, “you had me worried when you didn’t message me back,” he tells me. He moves back, “how hard did you fall?” he questioned.

“Hard. My dad had some of his mates over yesterday; they got pretty drunk and spilled beer in the kitchen. I didn’t know until I slipped and hit the kitchen bench,” I lied. Harry lightly runs his finger over the slight bruise on my face, “you said that you hit your side not your face” he pointed out. I grabbed his hand, “when I feel I wacked myself in the face with my hand,” I lied again. Harry squeezed my hand, “can I see you side?” he questioned. I lifted my shirt up to show him, “that looks broken,” he says. He looks up at me with worry in his eyes, “I’m fine Harry,” I reassured him.

“I’m taking you to the doctors before work and I’m not taking no for answer,” he tells me. I sigh, “I am fine Harry,” I say again. I could tell no matter what I say would change his mind, “it make me feel better beautiful,” he says as he lightly touches my ribs. I flinch at his touch, “see you need to get it checked out,” Harry tells me as he moves his hand away. I put my shirt back down, “ok,” I sighed.

I quickly brush my hair and grab my bag and phone, “ready,” I tell him. It was really hurting now, because I was rushing. Harry noticed, “You should slow down. I called work to tell them we are going to be late and that we close up,” he tells me. I tried to smile, but I was in so much pain “I don’t think I can smile for a bit,” I say. Harry hugs me around my shoulders, “it be alright, I understand why you can’t smile. I’ll miss it tho,” Harry whispered in my ear. I hug him back, “just don’t lose yours,” I tell him. Harry hugs me tighter, “for you I won’t,” he reassured me.

We leave my house and go to the doctors; we sit down and wait for my name to be called. I hate doctors and hospitals; I’ve been going for a long time. Harry grabbed my hand, “it alright beautiful,” he tells me as he kisses that back of my hand. I look at him, he looked nervous, “are you alright Harry?” I asked him.

“I don’t like doctors,” he admits as he runs his hands threw his hair. I squeezed his hand, “thank you for taking and staying with me,” I tell him. Harry smiled at me, “Lucy Hall!” a male doctor called. I get up and turn to Harry, “can you please come with me,” I begged him. Harry gets up and holds my hand tight, “only for you,” he says as he kisses my cheek. We went into the doctor’s office and I explained what happened. The doctor looks at Harry when I finished, “I’ll be right back,” he says as he leaves. I look at Harry as he grabs my hand, “it be alright,” he reassured me. I put my head on his shoulder, “I hope so,” I say. I had a strange felling the doctor thinks Harry did this to me. I couldn’t shake the feeling, “sorry about that,” the doctor said as he walks back in. The doctor looks at me, “can you lay down and take your shirt off please,” he asked me. I stand up and slowly took my shirt off and hand it to Harry. He already seen me in my bra so I didn’t care. I lay down on the table and the doctor comes over, “this may hurt a little,” the doctor tells me as he looks over my bruises. The doctor touches the one on my stomach and I pull away, “ok that one needs a closer look,” the doctor says. Then he touches the one on my ribs hard and I scream at the pain. Harry runs over to me and pushes the doctor away, “what did the hell did you do to her?” Harry yelled. Tears escaped my eyes from the pain, “I was checking if it was broken,” the doctor tells him. Harry turns to me and wipes my tears away, “it alright beautiful,” he tells me. Then the doctor’s phone rings, he answered it and hangs up. He turns to us, “I’ll be right back,” he tells us and leaves the room. Harry helps me up and puts my shirt back on, “Harry the police are here,” I tell him.

“Why?” he asked me. I looked at him and grabbed his hands, “because they think you did this to me,” I explained. Harry sighed, “It didn’t help that I pushed the doctor,” he says. He placed his forehead to mine, “I’ll set it straight,” I promised him. Then the doctor came back in with two police officers behind him, “we like to ask you two some questions,” one of the officers said. Harry and I nodded, “would you like to tell us what happened?” the other officer asked. I told them my lie and that Harry was not there that he was at home. The police officer wrote everything that I said down and made me read and sign it. Then it was Harry turn, “I was at home when this happened. I only found out today what happened, so I brought her here. And yes I did push the doctor, but he hurt her,” Harry explained to them. The police office wrote it down and Harry read it and signed it, “is that all?” one of the officers asked. I nod yes and they left, “sorry about that. It mandatory if it look like you been beaten,” he apologized.

The doctor sends me for an ultrasound on the bruise on my stomach. Harry was with me the whole time holding my hand and telling me it was nearly over. The doctor found nothing wrong, so he gives me some painkillers, “take the painkillers when it hurts and it should heal in about four weeks,” the doctor explains to me.

Harry and I leave the doctors and once we outside I hug Harry, “sorry about that,” I whispered. Harry hugs me back, “don’t worry about it,” he tells me.

“Thank you,” I tell him. Harry kissed the top of my head, “better get to work,” Harry tells me. I sigh, “Can’t we miss work again?” I asked him. Harry chuckled, “sorry beautiful, but you missed yesterday,” he smiled. I turn my face away from him, “don’t call me beautiful,” I say. Harry turns my face gently to him, “you’re still beautiful with or without the bruises,” he reassured me. He lightly runs his thumb over the bruise on my face. I turn my head away from his touch, “did I hurt you?” Harry asked me with worry on his voice.

“No,” I whispered.

“Then what wrong?” he questioned. I didn’t look at him, “we should get to work,” I say. I start to walk away, Harry grabs my hand, “beautiful please tell me what wrong,” he pleaded. I didn’t look at him, “Harry,” I whispered. Harry moves closer to me, “beautiful, I’m going to take you somewhere today,” Harry tells me. I turn around to face him, “Harry what about work?” I asked him. Harry smiled at me, “I’ll call up and tell them that you’re in hospital,” he explained. I look at the ground, “you’ll do that for me?” I questioned. Harry pulls me closer to him, “I’ll do anything for you,” he smiled. I gave him a smile back, “thank you Harry,” I whispered as I couldn’t help but cry. Harry pulls me closer to his chest, “don’t cry beautiful,” Harry whispered. Harry strokes my hair, “come on,” Harry added as he took my hand.

We went back to his car, we stopped before he let me in, “now I need you to stop crying for a bit, so I can drive,” he tells me. I nod yes as I wiped away my tears. Harry pulls me to him and gets out his phone from his pocket, “hey Lisa, Lu and I won’t be in sorry. Lu hit her head hard, so they are keeping her in longer and I’m going to stay with her,” Harry lied to her. Harry pauses for a minute, “I tell her, ok bye,” Harry says as he hangs up. Harry puts his phone back in his pocket, “Lisa said to get better soon and take your time coming back to work,” he tells me.

“I’m sorry Harry that you had to lie for me,” I tell him. Harry kisses the top of my head, “I really didn’t want to go,” he smiled. I giggled, but as soon as I did it hurt, “I’m going to miss that,” Harry whispered to himself, but I heard it. Harry opens the car door, “better get going,” he smiled. I get into his car and do my belt up as Harry runs around to the other side. Harry gets in and starts the car, “where are we going?” I asked him as he does his belt up.

“Somewhere nice and quiet,” he replied. He starts to drive, “thanks again Harry for doing this,” I say. Harry starts to play with his bottom lip with his fingers and thumb, “beautiful… Anytime,” Harry says. Then he grabs my hand and kisses it, before placing it on his leg. I look at the window; Harry starts rub his thumb over my knuckles. What was I doing asking Harry to skip work? Why did he say yes? I felt free with Harry and the time we spent together. I look at Harry who was thinking about something, so I leant over and turned the radio on with my free hand. The song was a fast rock song, “I like this song,” Harry smiled. Then he starts singing along with the song and I started to smile even tho it was hurting, “you’re smiling,” Harry noticed. I smiled bigger, “It only hurts a little bit,” I say.

We drove until we got to a lake, “where here,” Harry says as he turns off his car. I look at this lake and all it beauty, “Harry this is beautiful,” I say. Harry kissed the back of my hand again, “well let’s go see it then,” he smiled. Harry lets go of my hand and gets out of the car. I do the same and leave my bag and phone in the car. Harry goes to the boot of his car, “what are you doing?” I asked him as I walked to him. Harry smiled, “grabbing our picnic and a blanket,” he replied. He puts on a backpack and picks up a blanket, “why do you have picnic?” I questioned.

“I planned to take you out for lunch today,” he replied. He shuts the boot and takes my hand, “but now we got all day,” he added.

We start to walk along side of the lake, “this is nice,” Harry smiled. We kept walking until Harry stopped under a tree. Harry throws the blanket over the ground and dropped the bag on top of it. I look out on to the lake as the sun hits my skin. Harry comes up behind me and places his hands on my hip, “you happy?” Harry asked me.

“Yes,” I replied. Harry put his chin on top of my shoulder on my good side. I lean my head onto Harry’s, “thank you Harry. I know it was a big ask,” I tell him.

“It really no problem beautiful,” he reassured me. He kissed my shoulder, “are you hungry?” he whispered. I nod yes, “good, because I made it,” he smiled. Harry takes me over to the blanket and turns to face me. I slowly start to get down to the ground, which was hurting me, “carful,” Harry tells me as he helps me down. When I finally got down I tried to get comfortable, but it hurt, “are you in any pain?” Harry asked me. I look up at him, “I can’t get comfy,” I tell him. Harry moves the bag next to the tree and sits down against the tree, “come here if you can,” he tells me. I move over to him and it hurt, “slow down,” Harry tells me as he helps me. We kept going until we made it to the tree; Harry sits against the tree again and pulls me between his legs. I get comfy against Harry, “why don’t you take a painkiller?” Harry asked. I shake my head no, “why not?” he questioned.

“I don’t take them,” I replied. Harry grabs my hands, “why don’t you take them?” he asked. I took in a deep breath, that hurt, “because I got addicted to them Harry. I was seventeen and I broke my leg and I started taking them. Then I kept taking them even tho there was no more pain,” I explained to him. Harry starts to run his thumbs over the back of my hands, “ok beautiful,” Harry says as kissed the back of my head. The truth is that my dad broke my leg in the car door and after that the painkillers helped with all the pain he gave me. I made myself stop when I got the job at the bakery, “how about we eat now,” Harry says as he brought me out of my thoughts. I nod yes as Harry pulls out two sandwiches, “hope you like it,” Harry smiled. I take one off him and start to eat it, “it good,” I tell him. Harry smiled as he ate his sandwiches. When we finished Harry got out two drinks, “thanks,” I say as I take one. We stayed there looking onto the lake, “it a beautiful day to go for a swim,” I say.

“Why don’t we? It help you with your ribs,” Harry tells me. I looked at him, “I don’t have a change of clothes and I can’t swim,” I tell him. Harry smiled, “well I have your clothes in my car and I’ll go in with you,” Harry reassured me.

“Thanks,” I say. Harry carefully gets up behind me, “careful now,” Harry says as he helps me up. Harry starts to undress, however he left his boxers on. I start to undress myself; I managed to get my pants, shoes and socks off. Then I had to take a break, “just give me a minute,” I puffed out. Harry comes over to me, “let me help,” he smiled. Harry gently lifts my shirt over my head, “that feels better,” I say. I hope Harry doesn’t say anything about the scar on my shoulder and my thigh. Harry takes my hand and leads me to the edge of the lake, “you ready?” Harry asked me.

“Ready as I’ll ever be,” I replied. Harry smiles as he slowly took me into the water. It was cold at first as it touched my skin, however after time it started to warm up. I went in up to my shoulders, “how does it feel beautiful?” Harry asked me. I smiled as I went under and the world seems to despair. I felt Harry arms go around my hips as he pulled me closer to him as we went up for air. I held on to Harry, because I couldn’t touch the bottom. Harry held on to me, “it ok beautiful I got you,” he tells me.

“You better,” I smiled. Harry smiled back, “I’ll always have you,” he whispered. I didn’t care that I was in pain, I cared about was being happy with Harry, “I notice you keep smiling and I also know it hurts you a little bit. So why do you keep smiling?” Harry asked.

“Because I’m happy and I can’t help it,” I replied. Harry kissed my nose, “good to know you’re happy,” he says. Then Harry spins us around and drops me into the water. I go under and start to panic. I felt Harry arms go around my hips and he pulls me to him, “Lu it ok,” he says. I wrap my arms and legs around him to make sure I didn’t go anywhere. Harry places his arms around my bottom and back, “I’m sorry that I drop you,” he apologized. I place my head on his shoulder and caught my breath, “it alright Harry,” I said shakily. Harry starts to rub my back, “I lost my grip,” Harry explained. I look at him, “Harry I’m fine,” I reassured him. Harry looks at me and smiled, “I think we should get to dry land,” he says. Harry carried me all the way to the blanket, the he drops to his knees and lays me down, “I think after that we need a rest,” he smiled.

“I think we might,” I smiled back. Then Harry laid down next to me on my good side and pulls me to him, “so how are you feeling?” Harry asked me as he moves my hair out of my face. I rest my head on his shoulder, “alright,” I replied.

“Why did you want to miss work so badly today?” Harry questioned.

“Have you seen my face? I know it not that bad” I asked him. Harry runs his fingertips lightly over the bruise on my face, “yes I have. Do you think people would stare?” he asked me. I look straight into his perfect green eyes, “it not that. It just the comments and questions,” I admitted.

“I understand,” he whispered. Still looking into his eyes, “why did you finally say yes to skipping work?” I asked him. Harry bites his bottom lip, “I could tell work was not going to be fun, because you weren’t happy,” he explained. Then I heard Harry phone go off, Harry gets up and grabs it. He smiles when he reads his message, he comes back over and laid down. He shows me his message:

Niall Horan

Went to your work today to find out you and Lu where not there. Did you both skip it together? ;)

I laughed, “He knows me to well,” Harry laughed. Harry than messages Niall back:

Yes we did and having fun :D

I looked at Harry as he smirked as he waited for Niall to reply. Then his phone goes off, I jump a little bit. Harry and I read the message:

Niall Horan

Just don’t forget to give her bra back and it not a hat

I look at Harry, “how does Niall know that it was on your head?” I asked him. Harry cheeks flushed a slight red, “I sent them all the picture,” he replied. I turn my head away from him, “I’m sorry beautiful,” Harry says with worry on his voice. I turn my head back smiling, “I don’t care Harry it not like they haven’t seen it before,” I tell him. Harry smiled as he throws his phone behind him, “you had me there,” he laughed.

“Pay back a bitch,” I laughed. I stopped laughing, because my body started to really hurt, “I think that enough smiling and laughing for now,” Harry tells me. I tried to stop smiling, but Harry was smiling, “I said stop smiling,” he tells me. I cover my mouth up and Harry takes my hand away, “I want to see it, but if hurting you should stop,” he says. Then he places our hands on his chest, “I know,” I pouted. I felt Harry’s heart beat get faster, “beautiful can you tell me the truth about how you got hurt?” he asked me. I look away from him, “beautiful?” Harry whispered. I knew Harry could tell that I was lying, but I still couldn’t tell him the truth, “my dad friend did it,” I lied. I still couldn’t look him in the eye, “what!” Harry yelled. I closed my eyes, “Harry,” I whispered.

“I’m going to kill him!” Harry shouted. Then Harry gets up and starts to pacing, “Harry it all ok my dad got him back,” I say. As soon I said it felt wrong, because I was making my dad the hero when he really is the villain. Harry takes a deep breath, “so he gone than?” Harry questioned. I nod yes, “good, but he better not come back or he will pay,” he added. Tears form in my eyes; I just lied to Harry again. I feel bad lying to him, “hey don’t cry beautiful,” Harry says as he kneels down beside me. He wiped away my tears, “you’re safe now,” he tells me. Harry laid down beside me and pulls me close, “you don’t have to lie to me,” he whispered.

“I know. It I just didn’t know how to tell you,” I say. Harry strokes my hair, “just tell me the truth next time please beautiful,” Harry tells me.

“I’ll try,” I say. I close my eyes and burry my face into Harry chest. Harry starts lightly running his fingers up and down my arm, “go to sleep beautiful,” Harry whispered in my ear. I felt Harry kiss my forehead as I feel asleep.

When I woke up Harry was fast asleep next to me. I look around to see it was dusk, so I turn my head to look at the lake. It was covered in warm colours, “it beautiful isn’t it?” Harry whispered. I turn my head to look at him, “that it is, I could lay here forever,” I replied. Harry smiled, “then why don’t we.” Harry says. Harry gets up and helps me to lay on the other side, so I didn’t lay on my bad side. Then he laid back down and grabs the edges of the blanket. Harry wraps it around us as he pulls my back to him, “now we can,” he says. Harry places his chin on top of my head so that he can see. He also wrapped one of his arms around the front of me, so I can rest my head on it. I grab his hand on the arm I was laying on as he places his other hand on my hip. Harry start to move his thumb slowly over my skin, I felt so calm and relaxed that I wished I could stay in this moment forever with Harry. I realized that I was falling for Harry, but hope he not falling for me, “beautiful I think I fallen for you,” Harry whispered in my ear. I guess I'm too late. Why have you fallen for me? I’m broken and trouble for you. I turn around to Harry and look up at him, “Harry,” I whispered. I lightly touch Harry jaw, “please tell me you feel the same,” Harry begged. I trail my finger down to his Adam apple, “Harry I do, but,” I started. Harry crushes his lips to mine, I kiss him back. Harry pushes me on to my back so he can be on top of me. Harry breaks the kiss so we can get some air, “there nothing you can say that stop me falling for you,” he whispered as his lips touched mine. Harry kissed me again, but with more passion. His tongue begging for entrance to my mouth which I allowed. Our tongues danced with desire and passion for one another. My face was hurting, but I didn’t care. I never wanted this moment to stop. I felt Harry hand go down my side to my thigh. He squeezed my thigh as he breaks the kiss and sat up, “I think we should stop, because I don’t want to hurt you,” Harry tells me. I sit up ignoring the pain, “and I hate hurting you,” he added.

“You’re the only person that can’t hurt me,” I tell him as I place my hand on his face. Harry smiled into my hand, “I hope I can never hurt you,” Harry whispered. I lightly kiss him on the lips and pull him back down. I turn to face the lake again as Harry wraps both arms around me gently. Harry kisses my neck and sent shivers down my spine, “Harry can we not tell the boys until I'm ready please?” I asked.

“Ok, but can I ask why?” he questioned.

“Because I never done anything like this before,” I admitted. Harry kisses my neck again, “ok then we take it slow,” he tells me. I smiled as we watched the lake turn to dark. I felt Harry run his fingers up and down on the skin under my belly button, “Harry you going to make me fall asleep again,” I tell him. I could tell Harry was smiling as he kept doing it, “then go to sleep than beautiful,” he whispered in my ear.

“But I don’t want too,” I pouted. Harry kissed my shoulder as he carefully moves to the other side of me and pulls me close to him, “it ok to go back to sleep,” he tells me. I look at him, “so this is a lazy day then?” I asked him. He nods yes, “I think you’re a bad influence on me Lu. I haven’t missed a day yet,” Harry tells me.

“So I think were even then,” I giggled. Harry places his hand on the side of my neck and rubs his thumb over my bottom lip. Harry kissed me, “that why I need you to go to sleep, because I can’t stop myself with you and I want to go slow,” he tells me. I smiled as I lightly place a kiss to his lips, “really?” I questioned.

“Yes, I wanted to kiss you yesterday, but I settled for your nose. I also wanted you to stay again last night, it nice to have you in my bed. Even if you have nightmares,” he admitted to me. Maybe I should have stayed last night and I wouldn’t be covered in bruises, “maybe I should have stayed,” I mumbled. Harry somehow pulls me closer to him, “it going to be alright now,” he reassured me. I smiled into his chest as Harry starts running his fingers up and down the side of my thigh. I kissed his chest and smiled, “that not putting me to sleep,” I giggled. Harry smirked as he crushes his lips to mine. Harry pushes our hips together, and then he touches my ribs. I move away quickly and tried not to scream, “I’m so sorry beautiful,” Harry apologized. I could tell in his voice that he meant it, “it ok Harry,” I say.

“Maybe we should stop with the make out sessions until you’re healed, “ he tells me. I closed my eyes to get the pain under control as Harry kissed my forehead, “I’m sorry,” he whispered. I open my eyes to look into his green ones, “I know you are,” I reassured him. Harry kissed me softly on the lips, “better not start that again,” Harry smiled. I run my fingertips down the side of his face to his lips. I trace his lips with my fingertip, “why?” I asked him. Harry kissed me passionately; he bites my bottom lip asking for entrance to my mouth. I let him in as he dominates my mouth with his tongue. I thrust my fingers through his hair and pulled him closer. I don’t know what was happening to me, but I just couldn’t get enough of Harry. I place my hand on the small of his back and push him to me. Harry breaks the kiss and starts to kiss my neck. I moan when he found my sweet spot, Harry smiled against my skin. Then Harry sighs against my skin, “we need to stop again, because I can’t risk hurting you again,” Harry tells me. He softly kissed my lips as he laid next to me and pulls me close, “at least I know where your sweet spot on your neck is,” he smirked. I smiled as Harry draws circles on my back. I close my eyes and fall asleep on Harry chest.

When I woke up it was cold even tho I was right next to Harry. He was still asleep as a cold wind blew across us. I shiver and my teeth start to chatter as I burry myself in to Harry. I was still cold. Harry wraps his arms around me tighter, “it freezing,” he whispered. I nod yes, “I think we should put our clothes back on,” Harry tells me. Harry stands up and runs over to our clothes, “stay there I’ll get yours,” he added. I watched Harry quickly put his clothes back on, then he runs back over with my clothes and gives them to me. I put them on as fast as I could with Harry help, “it got cold quick,” Harry smiled as he puts the blanket around us. Then he reaches for his phone, “wow it midnight,” he says.

“I never thought it was that late,” I tell him. Harry smiles, “better get home before we get sick,” he tells me. Harry gets back up to grab our shoes and socks, we quickly put them on. Harry helps me up and keeps the blanket around me. Harry grabs his bag and puts it on, “time to go,” he smiled. I wrap the blanket around him, “don’t want you to get sick,” I smiled back. We walk back to his car, I had one last look at the lake, “I’ll bring you back I promise,” he tells me. I take the blanket off and hand it to him, “you better,” I smiled. Harry puts his bag and the blanket in the boot as I got into the car. I picked up my phone as soon as I got into the car. I had no messages or calls, I sighed in relief. Harry jumps in and turns the car on “let’s warm up first,” he says as he turns the heater on. I put my hands in front of the vent to warm them up. I look at Harry as he was smiling big, “why are you smiling?” I asked him. He grabbed my hands, “because you make me happy,” he admitted as he kissed the back of my hands. I could feel my cheeks go red, “Harry you’re the one that makes me happy,” I tell him.

“I don’t know how,” he smiled. I smiled back, “oh before I forget Louis asked me to ask you if you wanted to come to his game this weekend?” Harry asked me. I nod yes, “I would love too,” I beamed. I love to spend more time with the boys and Harry, “it a day game and a three hour car drive. So I was wondering if you wanted to stay the night before?” Harry asked me nervously. He rubs the side of his neck, “and the after party is at Niall’s and Liam’s,” he added. I looked at Harry as he waited for my answer, “yes,” I smirked. Harry leans over and kissed me, “what about work?” I asked him as he pulled away. Harry rubbed his fingers over his lips, “we work Friday and go straight to my house after. Saturday we have another day off and Sunday we get the late shift and close up,” Harry explained as he continued to play with his lips. I nod that I under stood everything and bit my bottom lip as I watched Harry. I’ll do anything to have his lips back on mine and him touching me. Harry must have read my mind again, because he crushed his lips back on to mine. Harry pulls my legs up and over the centre console, so my back was against the door. Harry moves on top of me and breaks the kiss to let us get some air, “I can’t resist you when you bite your lip,” he breathed. I look down and blushed; Harry gently grasped my chin up to see my face. I look deep into his green eyes that where full of lust, “Harry,” I whispered.

“Lu you don’t know what you do to me,” Harry whispered back. I pulled him to my lips and kissed him hard. My side started to really hurt all of a sudden and Harry was nowhere near it. I pushed Harry off of me and start to cry from the pain, “Beautiful what’s wrong?” Harry asked. I could tell in his voice that he was scared, “beautiful did I hurt you again?” Harry questioned. He was getting more scared, “beautiful talk to me!” Harry shouted. Harry carefully sat me up and pushed the car seat back so that he could kneel in front of me. Harry puts his hands on my thighs, “please tell me what wrong?” Harry pleaded. Threw my tears I could tell that he was crying, “I don’t know it just hurts so much,” I breathed out. I grabbed Harry hand, “you didn’t do it I promise,” I added.

“Please take a pain killer to help with the pain. I promise you won’t get addicted again,” Harry begged. I knew I was scared to take them, but in my head I needed it so I nodded yes. Harry gets out of the car and quickly runs to the boot to get a bottle of water. Before he gets back in the car he looks threw my bag for the painkillers, when he found them he jumps back in. He reads the packet to see how may to give me, he pops two out, “open your mouth,” he tells me. I do as he says as he puts one in my mouth and some water. I close my mouth and Harry puts his lips on mine until I swallowed the pill. He does the same with the second one, but he stay after I swallowed. He moves his lips away as he rest his forehead to mine, “thank you beautiful,” he whispered. He ran his fingers threw my sweaty hair over and over again. He stayed there until my breathing went back to normal and the pain was nearly gone. I look into Harry red puffy eyes, “Harry,” I say. He looks lost and hurt, “Harry,” I whispered as I touched his cheek. Harry puts his head in my lap and wraps his arms around my hips. Harry lets tears fall, “I was so scared, I didn’t know what was going on. I saw you in so much pain and I couldn’t do anything. I thought I hurt you again, but it still is my fault. If I can only control my feelings towards you none of this would of happen,” Harry babbled as I stroke his hair. This strong man on my lap was scared and upset. I couldn’t help but cry over the fact he already cares so much for me, “Harry it not your fault,” I reassured him. Harry didn’t move or say anything so I continued to stroke his hair, “Harry can we go back to your place tonight?” I asked him.

“Are you sure?” he questioned. I could tell he still thinks it his fault, “I am sure,” I tell him. I ran my fingers over his wet cheek as he closed his eyes. Harry slowly gets up, but leaving his hands on my hips, “I would like that,” he says. I wiped away the tears that stained his face, “Harry believe me when I say this is not your fault,” I tell him. I kiss his lips lightly, “I’ll try,” he whispered. Harry moves to the driver’s seat, “Harry how you put the seat forward?” I asked him trying to change the subject. Harry gives me a small smile as he lent over. He pulls a leaver and the seat moved forward, “is that better?” he asked me as he sat back up. I smiled as I nodded yes, “now I can be closer to you,” I say. Harry looked down at his hands that where on his lap, “well sitting here not going to get us home,” he says. Harry turns the car around and starts driving to his place. I look over at Harry who was focused on the road and mumbling to himself. I notice Harry hand was resting on the centre console, so I held it. Harry squeezed a little, “Harry everything going to be alright,” I tell him. Harry didn’t say anything he just starts slowly running his thumbs over my knuckles. We didn’t speak the rest of the way to his place, but Harry held my hand the whole way. As we got out I grabbed my bag and phone, “Better grab your clothes and the bag out of the boot,” I heard Harry say. I follow him as I watched him open the boot, “I also washed Louis soccer jersey for you, because it was covered in grass and sweat,” he added. I picked up my clothes as Harry picked up his bag, “better get inside before we catch a cold,” Harry tried to smile.

“Good idea,” I smiled back. I could tell that he was still upset about what happened. I pushed my clothes to my chest, so I could free up my hand to hold Harry’s. We get into Harry’s place before he lets go of my hand, “make yourself at home,” he tells me. Harry turns on the heater to warm up his whole place. I stood near the door still as I watched Harry take off his shoes. He comes over to me and throws his shoes down, “here I put these in my room,” he says as he takes my clothes off me. He walked to his room and I quickly kick my shoes off and put my bag and phone down on the kitchen bench. I follow him to his room, “Harry,” I whispered. He was standing at his window looking at the window in his own world. I hug him from behind as I rested my forehead between his shoulder blades. I must of scared him, because he jumped a little, “hey beautiful,” he says.

“Harry we need to talk about what happen,” I tell him. He removes my hands from him and turns around to look at me, “I just want to have a shower and go to bed,” he tells me. I shake my head no, “we need to talk about it please,” I begged him. Harry starts to walk away from me, “Harry!” I yelled as I grabbed his arm.

“I said no!” Harry yelled back as he got out of my grip. I started to cry, “I’m sorry if I care about you,” I cried as I walked passed him and straight to my bag. Before I could pick up my bag Harry hand stopped me, “please don’t go Lu,” Harry begged. I looked up at him and his eyes where full of tears, “I need you to stay please,” Harry pleaded as he lets his tears fall. I wiped away his tears, “I’m sorry for making you cry. I’m sorry that I hurt you physically and emotionally,” Harry started before I cut him off with a hard kiss. Harry deepened the kiss with his tongue in my mouth as he places his hand on the back of my neck. I place my hands on his hip to pull him closer to me. Harry pushes my bag across the bench as he runs his other hand down the side of me missing my ribs. Then he runs his hands over my bottom and rests them on my thighs. Harry lifts me up and places me on the kitchen bench as he stood between my legs. I pull his shirt over his head as I broke the kiss. Harry then pulls mine over my head and kisses my neck. Finding my sweet spot straight away, I moan as he sucked it. I put my finger threw his hair as my other hand grabbed his back. Harry places his hands on my thighs as he rubbed his hands up and down. Harry stops and places his forehead to mine, “I can’t, I’m sorry beautiful,” he breathed onto my lips. I place my hands on his bare tattooed chest, “I understand,” I whispered on his lips. I slide my hands down his toned stomach and rest them on his hips. Harry closes his eyes and bit his bottom lip, “Harry lets go take that shower,” I say. Harry opens his eyes quick, “beautiful?” he breathed. Harry moves his head back, “are you sure?” he questioned.

“I’m sure,” I replied. He smiles as he lightly kissed my lips, “better get rid of these then,” he smirked as he pulls on my pants. I nod as he slowly pulls them down letting his fingers touched my skin. With one last pull my pants where on the floor, so where my socks. I smiled as I undid his jeans button, “please let me do this,” he tells me. Harry pulls his pants down and off with his socks. Harry picks me up under my bottom as I warped my legs and arms around him. He carries me to the bathroom; he kissed me before putting me down. He starts to run the shower, “how do you like your showers?” he asked me.

“Nice and warm,” I smiled. Harry adjusted the water and turns to me, “are you sure about this?” he asked. I nodded yes as I tried to reach my bra clip, “can I please do it?” Harry asked me. He moves closer to me, “yes,” I say. Harry places his hands on my bra clip and undoes it. I quickly stop my bra from falling onto the floor. Harry steps back, “it ok if you changed your mind,” he tells me looking into my eyes. I bite my bottom lip as I let my bra fall to the floor. Harry eyes where still looking into mine. I gave him a nod to say it was okay. Harry’s eyes travelled down my body, “you’re so beautiful,” he whispered as he crushed his lips to mine. He breaks the kiss, “now do you want me to go next or do you want me to continue with undressing you?” Harry asked. I kissed his lips lightly, “up to you,” I say. Harry smiled as he tugs on the sides of my knickers. I kiss him as he slowly pulls them down and lets them fall down to my feet. I kick them off without breaking the kiss. Harry deepened the kiss as he pushes me to him. It been a long time since I’ve done anything like this. I’ve only ever had sex once and it was a party. It was the first time I got drunk and I don’t really remember anything. The guy was my maths partner and he don’t remember anything, but he was a virgin too. So in my head Harry was the first man I let see me naked. Harry stops the kiss, “Lu?” he panted. I open my eye and look into his, “Lu are you a virgin?” Harry asked me. I looked down as I felt my cheeks go red, “um no, but yes. I lost it at a party when I was drunk, but I really don’t remember,” I confessed. Harry lifts my face up and kissed me softly, “I won’t do anything that you don’t want to do,” he tells me,

“Harry I want you,” I admitted. Harry puts a piece of my hair behind my ear, “I want you too, but I’m not going to make love to you today,” he tells me.

“Make love?” I asked. Harry smiled, “yes make love. I want to make it special for you. I also want to touch and kiss you all over without worry about hurting you,” he confessed to me. I place my hand on his face, “why am I so lucky to have you?” I asked. Harry kissed my wrist, “I’m the lucky one,” Harry says. No Harry I am, you shown me these new feelings and made me forget my other life even if it only the time I spend with you. Harry runs his fingers up and down my bare back, “do you still want that shower?” he asked me.

“Yes,” I replied.

“Do you want to put your knickers back on?” he asked. I look into his eyes, “no, but I don’t want to be the only one naked,” I smiled. I put my thumbs under the waistband of his boxers, “that fine with me,” Harry smiled. I pulled them down still looking into his eyes until they fall at his feet. Harry kicks them away, “where both naked now,” Harry smirked. Harry runs his hands down my arm to my hands as he holds them, “I’m going to step back,” he tells me. I nodded as he stepped back looking into my eyes. I slowly looked down over his body until I got to his member. I quickly look back up at his face, he was smiling, “I take it you never seen a man naked before,” he says. I blush at what he said, because he was kind of right. That night at the park when the boys went skinny dipping I only saw there bottoms, “you’re the first,” I admitted.

“I take another first and that why I'm lucky, because you trust me enough to let me in,” Harry says. I smiled as I bit my bottom lip, “what have you done to me Styles?” I asked. Harry closed the gap between us, “what have you done to me beautiful?” he asked me. I blushed again as Harry runs his fingers down my neck, “I like it when you call me by my last name,” he whispered. He continued to run his fingers down between my breasts carefully not to touch them. He stops at my belly button, “I like what I see Lu. You’re so beautiful,” Harry breathes on my neck before lightly kissing it. He leaves a trail of kisses on my collarbone, “better get into that shower,” Harry says before kissing my shoulder on my scar. Harry leads me over to the shower and pulls my back close to him and wraps his arms around me. He rest his chin on my shoulder as the water covered us, “this feels nice,” I whispered.

“Get used to it. I think this is my new way of having a shower,” Harry tells me as he kissed my shoulder on my scar again. I giggled, “How are you feeling?” Harry asked me. I turned to him and kiss him on the cheek, “perfect,” I replied. Harry runs his fingers over the bruise on my face, “what about your face and body?” he questioned.

“My face doesn’t hurt and my body just hurt a little bit, but it not bothering me,” I smiled. Harry returns the smile, “good to hear,” he says. I grab his hands that was wrapped around me, “Harry can we please talk about what happened in the car?” I whispered. Harry sighs, “I was so scared. We were making out then you pushed me off. Then I saw you crying from the pain and I thought I really hurt you this time. I thought I let you down, so I don’t know what happened. So I started to cry, because I broke my promise,” Harry tells me. I lightly run my fingers up and down his arm, “Harry I think it would still happen even if you were not kissing me and Harry you can never let me down,” I tell him.

“I’m sorry for becoming a wreck in front of you. I meant to be a strong man for you and I failed,” Harry says. I turn around and place his face in my hands, “you can never fail me and you don’t have to be strong all the time. You have me. Why would you think that you have to be strong all the time?” I asked him.

“Because my step father told me too. He uses to tell me no woman wants a man that weak,” he confessed. I kiss him, “he wrong,” I tell him. I push him against the wall and kissed him passionately forcing my tongue in. Harry grabs my hip and pulls me close to him. I break the kiss and rest my forehead to his, “where did that come from?” Harry puffed. I place my hands on his chest and look him in the eyes, “giving you back what you give me,” I say.

“Thanks beautiful,” Harry whispered. I felt Harry member get hard against my thigh. Harry goes red as he notice I felt it, “um what can I say? That kiss was hot and I have a beautiful woman in front of me,” Harry babbled as he looks down. I blushed at his words, “Harry,” I whispered. Harry looks up at me as I travelled my hands down his abs, “beautiful what are you doing?” he questioned.

“You said no love making, but you never said anything about touching,” I smiled as I kissed him. I didn’t really know what I was going to do, but I remember the girls in high school talking about it. So I kind of have an idea of what to do, “Lu,” Harry moaned on my lips as my fingers lightly run over his member. I wrap my fingers around it and slowly start to move my hand up and down. Harry digs his fingers into my hip, “oh my god Lu,” Harry moaned. I start go a little bit faster as I kissed Harry. Harry then moves his hand down to my hand that was wrapped around his member, “let me teach you,” he tells me as he breathes heavy. I let go feeling like I was doing it wrong and that I was stupid. Then Harry turns me around and presses half of me to him. So his member was right next to me, “now I’m going to teach you, because it your first time,” he whispered in my ear. He grabs my hand and wraps it around his member and slowly moves it up and down, “grip it a little tighter,” he tells me as he kisses my shoulder. I did as he told me, “don’t forget to go all the way to the tip,” he tells me. He moves are hands all the way to the tip and back down. I felt myself get wet from turning Harry on, “keep going,” Harry says as he moved his hand away. I kept going as Harry kissed my shoulder blade, “that it,” he puffed. I had the urge to touch my self so with my free hand I grabbed my breast, “let me do that please,” he whispered as he placed his hand over the one on my breast. I moved my hand away and Harry squeezed my breast lightly, “Harry,” I moaned. I start to move my hand a little faster around his member. Harry other hand and starts to lightly squeeze my other breast, “Harry,” I moaned again. I turn my face to him and he does the same, “you doing so great,” he breathed heavy as he kissed me hard. I take one of his hands and lead it down, “are you sure?” Harry asked me on my lips.

“Please,” I begged. Harry kissed me again as his hand went down threw my slit “Harry!” I moaned loudly as he found my pleasure button. I throw my head back as he lightly massaged it. I picked up my speed with his member, “fuck,” Harry moaned against my neck. Harry stopped massaging me and slid a finger in me. I inhale deeply as he starts to move it in and out of me slowly. I felt my legs go weak and my knees start to buckle. Harry pulls his finger out of me as we slowly slide down the wall to the floor. I kept going with his member when we were on the floor, “stand up on your knees,” he tells me. I did what he said never losing grip on his member. Harry pulls me to him and starts bitting my neck. I get faster on his member as Harry digs his fingers into my hip, “fuck I’m going to cum Lu!” he moaned loudly. Harry moves his hands to my breast and starts to squeeze them again, “you so soft,” he whispered. I squeezed his member little tighter as I got faster, “Lu!” Harry screams as he cums. I move up and down a couple more times so he can ride out his orgasm. Harry smiled as he kissed me hard, “time to finish you off,” he smirked. Harry turns me around to face him between his legs. He kissed me again and starts to travel down my jaw to the sweet spot on my neck, “Harry,” I moaned. Harry smiled against my skin, “I like it when you moan my name,” he whispered in my ear before nibbling on my earlobe. He moves down to my breasts and puts one of my nipples in his mouth and starts to suck it, “Harry,” I moaned into his hair. He moves his mouth to the next one and starts sucking it, “Harry I want you back inside of me. I want you to make me scream your name,” I tell him. Harry kissed me hard as he moves me over his leg and sets me up on my knees. Harry moves me closer to him, “now I’m going to put two fingers inside you,” he tells me. I place my hands on his shoulders as I nod yes. Harry looks at me as he slowly puts two of his fingers inside me. I could feel him in me, “you’re so wet,” he says.

“Please don’t say that,” I whispered as I blushed. I turn my head away, “it nothing to embarrassed by. It just shows me how much you want me,” Harry tells me as he pulls my face to him and kissed me. Harry moves his fingers deeper in me, “Harry that feels so good,” I puffed. Harry moves a bit faster as his thumb plays with my pleasure button, “Harry,” I moaned. Harry kissed my chest, “just let your body do what it wants,” he whispered. My body starts to ride his fingers, “that it beautiful,” he says. I start to get faster and so does Harry, “Harry I think I’m going to cum,” I moaned. Harry pulls me closer to him as he got faster, “cum for me beautiful,” he whispered in my ear. I wrapped my arms his neck and dug my nails into his shoulders, “Harry!” I screamed as I climaxed. Harry rubs my pleasure button fast as he kept my orgasm going. I felt warm liquid come out of me when Harry took his fingers out, “oh my god that was great,” I puffed as I collapsed on to him.

“I can tell,” he says to me as he kissed my cheek. I moved my hands to his chest and noticed a blood trail I made, “Harry your bleeding,” I say as I sat up. I noticed the scratches on his shoulders, “oh my god I scratched you,” I panicked.

“It all right beautiful. It showed me what a good time you had,” he reassured me. I look at him, “so this is normal?” I asked. He smiled as he nodded yes, “I marked you too,” he tells me as he touches my neck. I kiss him lightly, “my legs feel like jelly,” I tell him. Harry smiles again as he moves my hair out of my face, “I did a good job than,” Harry smirked. I rest my head on his chest as Harry starts to rub my back lightly. Harry kissed the top of my head, “I think we should finish our shower,” Harry added. Harry lifts me up as he stood up not letting go of me. I wrapped my arms around him as he moved us back under the shower. I burry my face into his chest, “how are you felling?” Harry asked me.

“Good,” I replied. I kissed his chest, “I think we should finish this in the morning,” Harry says as he turned off the water. Harry pulled me out of the shower and wraps a towel around me. The he wraps a towel around him then grabs another towel and starts to dry his hair. Harry smiled at me as he moved closer, “your turn,” he says. Harry starts to dry my hair and when he was done he kissed me lightly on my nose. Harry takes my hand and leads the way to his bedroom. I stand next to his bed as Harry went to his chest of draws to get some clothes. He hands me one of his shirts and pair of his boxers, “don’t I have a pair of clean knickers?” I smiled.

“You need them for work,” Harry replied. Harry pulls me in for a kiss, “now get dressed,” he tells me. Harry walks back over to his chest of draws and throws his towel on the floor. I look at his bottom as he pulls his boxers up, “I know you’re looking beautiful,” Harry says. I look away as he turns around and walks over to me. Harry runs his fingers down the side of my neck, across my collarbone and down my arm, “you know it ok to look,” Harry tells me. I look at him, “I had a look at yours too,” he smiled. Then he places his hands on my bottom, “and I like what I see,” he added. I blush, “I like what I see too,” I say as I bit my bottom lip.

“Time to get dressed,” he tells me. Harry rips my towel off me and throws it on the floor. I move back as I threw his shirt on the bed. I slowly pull up his boxers, “I know what you’re doing beautiful,” Harry tells me. Harry grabs his shirt off the bed, “and you need to stop,” he added as he puts the shirt over my head. I put my arms threw the sleeves, “is there something wrong Harry?” I smirked. Harry pulls me close, “you,” Harry says as he kissed me hard. I pull him closer as he break the kiss, “we need to go to bed,” Harry says on my lips. I kissed him lightly on the lips, “I know,” I smiled. Harry moves his hands to my bottom and picks me up. He carefully places me on the bed, “I’ll be right back,” he tells me as he kissed my nose. Harry runs out of his room as I closed my eyes. What was happening to me? I never wanted Harry to stop touching me. I feel wanted by him, “now this is not for now. It for just in case,” Harry tells me. I open my eyes and notice he has a glass of water and my painkillers, “ok,” I say as he places them down. Harry lightly kisses me before jumping next to me. Harry pulls my back to him as he moves his arm under my head. Harry lightly runs his fingers up and down on my stomach, “go to sleep beautiful. I’ll be here when you wake up,” Harry whispered into my hair. I kiss Harry arm before closing my eyes.

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