Louis POV

The doctor's words ring through my head.
"And no more knives, Mr. Tomlinson...
"Louis, don't listen to her. You didn't-" Harry tries but I get up and silently make my way up Bri's room. I leave Harry, mid sentence. Before I walk through the door, I say
"Cut the crap, Harry." And I walk into her room. Bri is asleep, scars visible but stitched up, her hair in a messy bun so the doctors could see her. And she is the palest shade of white she could possibly be. All because of me. I walk over to her and kneel down next to her, her hand in mine as I duck my head into the bed.
"I'm sorry, Bri. I'm sorry. This is all my fault," I say not looking at her.
"No, Lou, it's not. I brought this upon myself. Well, along with some other things..." I heard her say. I look up and see that she is awake.
"Yes but if I didn't-" I say.
"No. But nothing. If u didn't give me the knife I would've found something else anyway. Thank you for taking me here. Can I please talk to-"

bri's POV
"Bri! " Niall says rushing into the room. He smiles when he sees me, then friend when he sees the scars on my wrist. Harry comes in,fuming.
"H-hey Niall," I say, my eyes darting towards Harry. I wouldn't expect Jared to be here. he's not like that. He doesn't care about me. Why do I even like him? There's something about him, I just-
"Bri? Helllooo???" Harry says as he waves a hand in front of my face.
"Oh, sorry I sorta zoned out. What are we talking about?" I say to them, but realize its only Niall and Harry.
"We just wanted to know why... Why you did that. Was it because of us,or was it...Jared." Niall asked, his eyes full of sorry, anger, and confusion. I can't- I can't do this right now.
"Can I take a rain check on this right now? I really can't talk about this I mean... We're all together in the same room and... It's awkward. I'll like, tell you separately?" I try to procrastinate the subject. They nodded and left.
I lay down when I hear my phone buzz.
hope you're alright
~Jay red



here we go again..

Notes

Okay so I just want you to know that Jay red is a nickname jared calls himself. I've got nothing but to say;

OH MY GOD IM SOO SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED I'VE BEEN SOO CAUGHT UP WOTH MY OTHER STORY THAT I KEEP PROCRASTINATING THIS ONE... Sowy:'(