Dancing With My Scars - On Hold
Chapter 28- Remember
Atlas - Coldplay (song to listen to while reading)
Bella's Point Of View:
"I can't believe they're doing the show without me tonight." I whine to Niall and Chloe who are here, together, at my bedside. It's been a week since the accident and I'm still bedridden, which is mortifying to say the least.
"It's all going to be fine, your replacement is great and I'm sure that Chris and her will do brilliantly." Chloe tries to assure me, but I just shrug it off.
"It just doesn't seem fair." I whine, slowly pulling my knees to my chest. The left side of my body is healing, but my arm is still pretty fucked up... Who knew breaking your Radius and your Ulna would be so painful?
"Well on the bright side, Mia and Harry are getting on well." Niall explains, and a small smile crawls onto my face.
"I miss them both so much." I sigh, shaking my head.
Over the course of the week, I've been having little flashbacks or reminders of what happened during the week I can't remember. For example, a song played on the radio and then I remember the song Chris and I had rehearsed to, or when I ate a slice of pizza I remembered ordering it with Harry. Little images, pictures or sounds are triggering the memories, so hopefully they'll all come together and I can remember what happened the day of the accident.
"Well you're getting out of here soon, right?" Chloe asks, and I nod.
"In a few days I can finally get out of here," I chuckle, "I hate hospitals."
"We know." Niall smiles, and Chloe leans into his shoulder. During their visits I have to bite my tongue before I say something mean, but I do get a little frustrated when I see them together... It makes me wonder what my life would be like if Jamie never passed away and they never came back to visit.
"It's Jamie's birthday the day I get out of here." I share, and they both look down. "I think we should all get together, go to dinner or something and celebrate." I suggest, and a large smile appears on Niall's face.
"I think she would like that."
"Do I look alright?" I asked Harry, walking outside of the hospital bathroom. We're going straight from here to Jamie's birthday, and I have to admit I'm a little torn up today.
"You look beautiful... are you ready to go?" He asks, picking up my hospital bag and snaking his other arm around my waist.
"Ready." I nod, and we proceed to check me out of the hospital and make check up appointments.
The drive to dinner is mostly silent aside from Harry telling me about work or Mia or something stupid that happened during his week that would make me smile.
"I love you so much." I smile, and he does the same.
"Me too, love." He adds, sliding his hand on my thigh and patting it softly.
When we arrive at the restaurant, I see the usual crew sitting around the table. My eyes immediately recognize a seat next to Drew is wide open, so I sit beside between him and Liam.
"Hey Bell, are you alright?" Drew asks, and without another word I wrap my arms around him. The embrace with my brother is sad and warm at the same time, and I don't let go until he does. I don't want to let go of anyone first in a hug anymore.
"I'm good." I smile, and chat mindlessly with Perrie and Zayn about work or maybe an old memory of Jamie. It feels wonderful to just sit and talk to friends that I haven't really seen in a while unless they were visiting my bedside.
"Bell?" Liam taps me, and I look over to him. He gives me a sympathetic smile and I wrap my arms around him tightly and close my eyes.
"Jamie would have been so happy that you're doing this... I saw how much she loved and looked up to you when we were on the run, ya know?" He asks, and I scoot my chair out to face him with a nod.
"Sometimes I wish you guys could have seen during those three years we were apart. She was so damn smart, ya know? Like smarter than Drew and I combined." I chuckle at the memory of Jamie helping Drew and I do the bills or helping Niall study for becoming a director.
"I believe that." He chuckles, and we both tilt our heads back to halt the tears. "I'm sorry Bell, I really am." He whispers, and suddenly a major flashback pops into my mind.
Flashback:
"Bella, I don't know how to tell you this but Harry has been meeting with a suspicious man here lately..." Liam tells me with a shaking voice over the phone.
"What? Are you... so he..." I stutter, unable to think straight.
"Yeah... I think he's been involved with some drugs lately but please don't tell him I told you this."
"I knew it, I knew those drugs in the car were his." I cry into the phone, hardly breathing.
"I'm sorry Bell, I really am." Liam tries.
"Thanks for being honest with me, your secret is safe with me."
I'll talk to you soon... yeah, bye." He hangs up, and my world has now been officially changed completely since Liam confirmed this.
End Flashback
"Bella, what's the matter?" Liam's voice snaps me out of my thoughts. I look around at the table, everyone is staring at me and I'm shaking.
Harry and drugs? He's been watching my daughter all week and no one has bothered to remind me about this?
"Bella, what's going on?" Harry's asks from across the table, and I look up to hide the tears. I have so much anger right now that I can't even think straight.
"No... No, I can't do this. I need to get out of here." I stammer, grabbing Drew's keys out of his pocket and dashing to his car. When I get inside and lock the door, I notice Harry outside the window.
"Bella, just let me help you! Whatever it is, let me fix it." He pleads, and I roll down the window a crack so he can here me.
"Thanks for reminding me about your little drug charade... What, did you think I wouldn't remember?" I ask, and his eyes go wide.
"I didn't remind you because it was a set up and none of it is true! Come no Bella, please let me explain, I--"
"Just shut up!!!" I screamed, flooring it and zooming out of the restaurant parking space. Without even thinking twice, I call the only person I can trust anymore and luckily, he answers on the first ring.
"Chris?" I sob into the phone. "I.. I need you." I sniffle.
"Where are you? I'll be there in 5 minutes, just please don't drive anywhere." He gasps, and I tell him where I am while parking on a random side street.
While sitting behind the wheel, memories of the accident flood my mind and I cringe at the thought of falling asleep behind the wheel.
Then I remember why I was so restless, I got no sleep because of the drugs... The drugs led to a fight, Chris and Harry were fighting, I fell backwards... Louis saved the day? What the actual fuck?
I let the tears and confusion flow out of me while texting the babysitter not to let Harry in the apartment tonight no matter what. Seconds later, Chris' car pulls up and he lifts me out of the drivers seat and into his car.
"Please explain to me everything that happened..." I sob, and he nods while driving away.
"I'll tell you at my apartment, is that ok?" He asks, and I nod.
"Is Louis there? I think I need to thank him." I try, and he gives me a warm smile.
"I knew you'd come around."
Bella's Point Of View:
"I can't believe they're doing the show without me tonight." I whine to Niall and Chloe who are here, together, at my bedside. It's been a week since the accident and I'm still bedridden, which is mortifying to say the least.
"It's all going to be fine, your replacement is great and I'm sure that Chris and her will do brilliantly." Chloe tries to assure me, but I just shrug it off.
"It just doesn't seem fair." I whine, slowly pulling my knees to my chest. The left side of my body is healing, but my arm is still pretty fucked up... Who knew breaking your Radius and your Ulna would be so painful?
"Well on the bright side, Mia and Harry are getting on well." Niall explains, and a small smile crawls onto my face.
"I miss them both so much." I sigh, shaking my head.
Over the course of the week, I've been having little flashbacks or reminders of what happened during the week I can't remember. For example, a song played on the radio and then I remember the song Chris and I had rehearsed to, or when I ate a slice of pizza I remembered ordering it with Harry. Little images, pictures or sounds are triggering the memories, so hopefully they'll all come together and I can remember what happened the day of the accident.
"Well you're getting out of here soon, right?" Chloe asks, and I nod.
"In a few days I can finally get out of here," I chuckle, "I hate hospitals."
"We know." Niall smiles, and Chloe leans into his shoulder. During their visits I have to bite my tongue before I say something mean, but I do get a little frustrated when I see them together... It makes me wonder what my life would be like if Jamie never passed away and they never came back to visit.
"It's Jamie's birthday the day I get out of here." I share, and they both look down. "I think we should all get together, go to dinner or something and celebrate." I suggest, and a large smile appears on Niall's face.
"I think she would like that."
"Do I look alright?" I asked Harry, walking outside of the hospital bathroom. We're going straight from here to Jamie's birthday, and I have to admit I'm a little torn up today.
"You look beautiful... are you ready to go?" He asks, picking up my hospital bag and snaking his other arm around my waist.
"Ready." I nod, and we proceed to check me out of the hospital and make check up appointments.
The drive to dinner is mostly silent aside from Harry telling me about work or Mia or something stupid that happened during his week that would make me smile.
"I love you so much." I smile, and he does the same.
"Me too, love." He adds, sliding his hand on my thigh and patting it softly.
When we arrive at the restaurant, I see the usual crew sitting around the table. My eyes immediately recognize a seat next to Drew is wide open, so I sit beside between him and Liam.
"Hey Bell, are you alright?" Drew asks, and without another word I wrap my arms around him. The embrace with my brother is sad and warm at the same time, and I don't let go until he does. I don't want to let go of anyone first in a hug anymore.
"I'm good." I smile, and chat mindlessly with Perrie and Zayn about work or maybe an old memory of Jamie. It feels wonderful to just sit and talk to friends that I haven't really seen in a while unless they were visiting my bedside.
"Bell?" Liam taps me, and I look over to him. He gives me a sympathetic smile and I wrap my arms around him tightly and close my eyes.
"Jamie would have been so happy that you're doing this... I saw how much she loved and looked up to you when we were on the run, ya know?" He asks, and I scoot my chair out to face him with a nod.
"Sometimes I wish you guys could have seen during those three years we were apart. She was so damn smart, ya know? Like smarter than Drew and I combined." I chuckle at the memory of Jamie helping Drew and I do the bills or helping Niall study for becoming a director.
"I believe that." He chuckles, and we both tilt our heads back to halt the tears. "I'm sorry Bell, I really am." He whispers, and suddenly a major flashback pops into my mind.
Flashback:
"Bella, I don't know how to tell you this but Harry has been meeting with a suspicious man here lately..." Liam tells me with a shaking voice over the phone.
"What? Are you... so he..." I stutter, unable to think straight.
"Yeah... I think he's been involved with some drugs lately but please don't tell him I told you this."
"I knew it, I knew those drugs in the car were his." I cry into the phone, hardly breathing.
"I'm sorry Bell, I really am." Liam tries.
"Thanks for being honest with me, your secret is safe with me."
I'll talk to you soon... yeah, bye." He hangs up, and my world has now been officially changed completely since Liam confirmed this.
End Flashback
"Bella, what's the matter?" Liam's voice snaps me out of my thoughts. I look around at the table, everyone is staring at me and I'm shaking.
Harry and drugs? He's been watching my daughter all week and no one has bothered to remind me about this?
"Bella, what's going on?" Harry's asks from across the table, and I look up to hide the tears. I have so much anger right now that I can't even think straight.
"No... No, I can't do this. I need to get out of here." I stammer, grabbing Drew's keys out of his pocket and dashing to his car. When I get inside and lock the door, I notice Harry outside the window.
"Bella, just let me help you! Whatever it is, let me fix it." He pleads, and I roll down the window a crack so he can here me.
"Thanks for reminding me about your little drug charade... What, did you think I wouldn't remember?" I ask, and his eyes go wide.
"I didn't remind you because it was a set up and none of it is true! Come no Bella, please let me explain, I--"
"Just shut up!!!" I screamed, flooring it and zooming out of the restaurant parking space. Without even thinking twice, I call the only person I can trust anymore and luckily, he answers on the first ring.
"Chris?" I sob into the phone. "I.. I need you." I sniffle.
"Where are you? I'll be there in 5 minutes, just please don't drive anywhere." He gasps, and I tell him where I am while parking on a random side street.
While sitting behind the wheel, memories of the accident flood my mind and I cringe at the thought of falling asleep behind the wheel.
Then I remember why I was so restless, I got no sleep because of the drugs... The drugs led to a fight, Chris and Harry were fighting, I fell backwards... Louis saved the day? What the actual fuck?
I let the tears and confusion flow out of me while texting the babysitter not to let Harry in the apartment tonight no matter what. Seconds later, Chris' car pulls up and he lifts me out of the drivers seat and into his car.
"Please explain to me everything that happened..." I sob, and he nods while driving away.
"I'll tell you at my apartment, is that ok?" He asks, and I nod.
"Is Louis there? I think I need to thank him." I try, and he gives me a warm smile.
"I knew you'd come around."
Notes
hi guys! I have midterms this week and I have a lot going on so sorry if I don't update as often as I usually do...may or may not be getting my license a week from today! most likely not because I never drive and I will probably fail hahahaha but fuck it i'll be 17 !!!! :)
thanks for reading, please vote if you haven't ... if you do I'll be more inclined to update! xxxx
Can you plz update? Hopefully Harry finds Bella.
1/14/18