Dancing With My Scars - On Hold
Chapter 17- Anything's Possible
Better Days - The Goo Goo Dolls (song to listen to while reading)
Bella's Point Of View:
My eyes are burning from tears I assume and I can feel a mattress under me... When did I fall asleep? I slowly lifted my body up from the bed and winced at the paint my wrist was in.
"Take it easy, Bella." A voice said from the corner of the room. I snapped my neck around to find Harry under a blanket, sitting in the chair across from me. I quickly pulled my wrist under the bed, hoping he didn't notice it.
"Harry? What on earth are you doing here?" I gasped, very confused. "Where's Zayn?" I had to ask.
"He called me last night after your little.. incident in the bathroom." He sighed with his eyes closed, like it pained him to say that. I shook my head with a bit of anger, I specifically told Zayn not to tell Harry.
"I told him not to tell you." I groaned, settling my head back down onto the pillow. "You can go now, I'm fine." I sniffled, burying my face in my pillow. I felt the weight of the bed shift and his hand settle on my shoulder blade.
"You know I'm not going anywhere." He stated, and I know he's right.
"So what do you want me to say?" I flipped my head over to face him. His eyes were a very light, innocent shade of green this morning.
"I don't want you to say anything." he smiled, pushing the hair that was stuck my tear stained face away. "Today I'm going to take you out before the results show tonight, is that ok?" He asked as if I had a choice.
"Can we stay in rather than go out?" I nudged his arm and he chuckled slightly.
"Of course. Pizza like old times?" He laughed and I nodded.
This is why I lo-- enjoy spending time with Harry. He doesn't question me, tell me right from wrong... most of the time anyway. We have that ability to just settle into place and act as if things are fine, for a little while anyway.
"Get showered, I'm inviting friends over." He smiled, interrupting me from my thoughts. I nodded my head and slowly got out of bed. A toothy grin appeared on my face when I heard Mia cooing in the background.
"Thanks, Harry." I whispered under my breath, barely audibly.
"You're welcome." He smirked from the other side of the room. That cheeky bastard.
When I stepped out of my long ass shower, I heard lots of familiar voices in the living room. I'm almost excited to go out there and be around the people I love, I really need that. As dangerous as it is to be around Harry, he really does know me better than anyone else.
I put on a cute outfit and took a deep breath before stepping out into the living room. For a short moment, all eyes were on me. Zayn, Perrie, Drew, Liam, Olivia, even Niall all stood before me, awkward smiles on their faces.
"Bella!" Perrie squealed, jumping into my arms. "How're you doing, love? You killed it last night girl!" She smiled.
"I'm great, and thanks babe!" I lied, I'm not great. I'm actually horrible, but managing.
"Twinkletoes..." Zayn gave me a nervous grin. I pulled him into a hug and kissed his cheek softly. "Are you mad at me?" He whispered and I breathed heavily.
"I could never be mad at you." I smiled, pulling away.
Olivia and Liam both gave me quick pecks on the cheeks, but they were pretty wrapped up in each other to notice me... which I'm completely happy about. They'd actually make a really sweet couple in my opinion.
"Bell, can we talk for a minute?" Niall gave me a crooked smile. My eyes immediately went to Harry who was already shooting daggers through Niall's very soul.
"For a minute." I sighed. To be honest, I'm dying to pour my heart and soul out to Niall and cry like I used to, but since we dated everything got all fucked up.
We both walked towards the front of the apartment where no one else was and sat down across from each other.
"So..." I awkwardly whispered, not really knowing what to do.
"I miss you." He blurted out to my surprise. "I miss our friendship." He corrected himself. Oh.
"I miss it too." I admitted with a weak smile.
"I'm sorry I fucked everything up with us dating, but maybe it was a sign that things weren't meant to be?" He suggested.
"Or a sign that you're a cheater." I snorted, with a small smile. "But I agree, I think it's better if we just stay as friends." I replied.
"Does that mean your going to be with Harry?" His eye contact faded at this question and his voice was low. I thought about this for a minute... Are me and Harry going to fall back into place?
"Anything's possible at this point." I chuckled at that. Anything really is possible now, with Louis back and all...
"You don't say." Niall sighed. Suddenly, I almost felt naked. Did Harry tell him what I did last night?
"You know, don't you?" I almost choked out.
"The only way Harry could convince me to come without be thinking it was a plot for murder was to tell me." He sighed. I blinked back tears, I really didn't think I wanted anyone to know, but now that Niall does I feel a slight sigh of relief.
"I just don't know what to do anymore, Niall." I sniffled as he took my hand.
"Keep your chin up, dance, and raise that beautiful daughter of yours. And if you ever feel like that, you call me without hesitation. Got it?" He squeezed my hand. I took a large deep breath and wrapped my arms around his shoulder. This felt like home.
"I love you Nialler. You know that, don't you?" I sniffled. "You're my best friend." My voice cracked kissing his cheek.
"And you're mine, love." He responded. As I pulled away, something still didn't feel right between us.
"Be with Chloe. If she makes you happy, then I'm happy." I uttered, trying to sound sweet but failing miserably.
"Are you serious?" He gasped, pure shock. Jeez, I didn't think he would be so willing right away.
"Yup." I sighed honestly. Without another word, I winked at him and headed back to our group. These are my people.
"Bell, wanna take some shots?" Perrie squealed from the kitchen table.
"Pizza and shots?" I giggled glancing at Liam.
"Remember last time with pizza and shots? In the pool? Liam and Bella got it on!!!" Zayn cracked up and I buried my face in my hands.
"Is that so?" Olivia joined the laughter, only making me laugh harder. I felt Harry come up beside me and kiss my cheek, I assume giving me the ok.
"Shots before work? I think yes." I smiled taking the risky move on sitting on Harry's lap. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me closer.
This is what life should be like all the time... but of course I have the annoying reminder in the back of my mind that Chris and Louis are in town and I have to deal with them. Fucking sigh.
"Cheers to Jersey!" Niall cheered, clinking shot glasses with the rest of us. I winked at Drew in the corner of the room with Mia in his arms, thankful that he is going to keep an eye on her while we drink.
"You're all bloody nuts." He laughed shaking his head.
Bella's Point Of View:
My eyes are burning from tears I assume and I can feel a mattress under me... When did I fall asleep? I slowly lifted my body up from the bed and winced at the paint my wrist was in.
"Take it easy, Bella." A voice said from the corner of the room. I snapped my neck around to find Harry under a blanket, sitting in the chair across from me. I quickly pulled my wrist under the bed, hoping he didn't notice it.
"Harry? What on earth are you doing here?" I gasped, very confused. "Where's Zayn?" I had to ask.
"He called me last night after your little.. incident in the bathroom." He sighed with his eyes closed, like it pained him to say that. I shook my head with a bit of anger, I specifically told Zayn not to tell Harry.
"I told him not to tell you." I groaned, settling my head back down onto the pillow. "You can go now, I'm fine." I sniffled, burying my face in my pillow. I felt the weight of the bed shift and his hand settle on my shoulder blade.
"You know I'm not going anywhere." He stated, and I know he's right.
"So what do you want me to say?" I flipped my head over to face him. His eyes were a very light, innocent shade of green this morning.
"I don't want you to say anything." he smiled, pushing the hair that was stuck my tear stained face away. "Today I'm going to take you out before the results show tonight, is that ok?" He asked as if I had a choice.
"Can we stay in rather than go out?" I nudged his arm and he chuckled slightly.
"Of course. Pizza like old times?" He laughed and I nodded.
This is why I lo-- enjoy spending time with Harry. He doesn't question me, tell me right from wrong... most of the time anyway. We have that ability to just settle into place and act as if things are fine, for a little while anyway.
"Get showered, I'm inviting friends over." He smiled, interrupting me from my thoughts. I nodded my head and slowly got out of bed. A toothy grin appeared on my face when I heard Mia cooing in the background.
"Thanks, Harry." I whispered under my breath, barely audibly.
"You're welcome." He smirked from the other side of the room. That cheeky bastard.
When I stepped out of my long ass shower, I heard lots of familiar voices in the living room. I'm almost excited to go out there and be around the people I love, I really need that. As dangerous as it is to be around Harry, he really does know me better than anyone else.
I put on a cute outfit and took a deep breath before stepping out into the living room. For a short moment, all eyes were on me. Zayn, Perrie, Drew, Liam, Olivia, even Niall all stood before me, awkward smiles on their faces.
"Bella!" Perrie squealed, jumping into my arms. "How're you doing, love? You killed it last night girl!" She smiled.
"I'm great, and thanks babe!" I lied, I'm not great. I'm actually horrible, but managing.
"Twinkletoes..." Zayn gave me a nervous grin. I pulled him into a hug and kissed his cheek softly. "Are you mad at me?" He whispered and I breathed heavily.
"I could never be mad at you." I smiled, pulling away.
Olivia and Liam both gave me quick pecks on the cheeks, but they were pretty wrapped up in each other to notice me... which I'm completely happy about. They'd actually make a really sweet couple in my opinion.
"Bell, can we talk for a minute?" Niall gave me a crooked smile. My eyes immediately went to Harry who was already shooting daggers through Niall's very soul.
"For a minute." I sighed. To be honest, I'm dying to pour my heart and soul out to Niall and cry like I used to, but since we dated everything got all fucked up.
We both walked towards the front of the apartment where no one else was and sat down across from each other.
"So..." I awkwardly whispered, not really knowing what to do.
"I miss you." He blurted out to my surprise. "I miss our friendship." He corrected himself. Oh.
"I miss it too." I admitted with a weak smile.
"I'm sorry I fucked everything up with us dating, but maybe it was a sign that things weren't meant to be?" He suggested.
"Or a sign that you're a cheater." I snorted, with a small smile. "But I agree, I think it's better if we just stay as friends." I replied.
"Does that mean your going to be with Harry?" His eye contact faded at this question and his voice was low. I thought about this for a minute... Are me and Harry going to fall back into place?
"Anything's possible at this point." I chuckled at that. Anything really is possible now, with Louis back and all...
"You don't say." Niall sighed. Suddenly, I almost felt naked. Did Harry tell him what I did last night?
"You know, don't you?" I almost choked out.
"The only way Harry could convince me to come without be thinking it was a plot for murder was to tell me." He sighed. I blinked back tears, I really didn't think I wanted anyone to know, but now that Niall does I feel a slight sigh of relief.
"I just don't know what to do anymore, Niall." I sniffled as he took my hand.
"Keep your chin up, dance, and raise that beautiful daughter of yours. And if you ever feel like that, you call me without hesitation. Got it?" He squeezed my hand. I took a large deep breath and wrapped my arms around his shoulder. This felt like home.
"I love you Nialler. You know that, don't you?" I sniffled. "You're my best friend." My voice cracked kissing his cheek.
"And you're mine, love." He responded. As I pulled away, something still didn't feel right between us.
"Be with Chloe. If she makes you happy, then I'm happy." I uttered, trying to sound sweet but failing miserably.
"Are you serious?" He gasped, pure shock. Jeez, I didn't think he would be so willing right away.
"Yup." I sighed honestly. Without another word, I winked at him and headed back to our group. These are my people.
"Bell, wanna take some shots?" Perrie squealed from the kitchen table.
"Pizza and shots?" I giggled glancing at Liam.
"Remember last time with pizza and shots? In the pool? Liam and Bella got it on!!!" Zayn cracked up and I buried my face in my hands.
"Is that so?" Olivia joined the laughter, only making me laugh harder. I felt Harry come up beside me and kiss my cheek, I assume giving me the ok.
"Shots before work? I think yes." I smiled taking the risky move on sitting on Harry's lap. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me closer.
This is what life should be like all the time... but of course I have the annoying reminder in the back of my mind that Chris and Louis are in town and I have to deal with them. Fucking sigh.
"Cheers to Jersey!" Niall cheered, clinking shot glasses with the rest of us. I winked at Drew in the corner of the room with Mia in his arms, thankful that he is going to keep an eye on her while we drink.
"You're all bloody nuts." He laughed shaking his head.
Notes
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