Just Your Average Girl

"You guys totally suck!" I said laughing and teasing the boys as they were dancing along to another song. We have been at this for more than 2 hours and are still not sick of it.

"Well looks like it is your turn!" Liam said pulling me up from my seat.

"No, not again! Who is doing it with me?" I asked not wanting to do it alone.

"No one. You make fun of us, you dance ALONE while we take photos and laugh." Louis said smirking at me. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"Saved by the bell!" I said running downstairs to the door.

"Don't think you got out of this!" Harry called after me and I just laughed. I opened the door and I was not ready for what was standing on the other side. It was Niall, the smile that I had on my face no more than 1 second earlier was wiped away.

"Niall? What are you doing here?" I asked trying to keep the tears that I have been holding back all day from falling down my face.

"Can we talk?" He asked me. I could tell he was nervous.

"Talk about what? Talk about how you took my heart and threw it on the ground? Talk about how you went and made out with Sammi even after you told me you never even wanted to talk to her? Talk about how I trusted you with everything and you broke that trust? Talk about how apparently you are going out with Sammi now? Explain why she has been tweeting all those things about you? Please pick one and tell me! I'm waiting!" My voice started to raise. I was now past hurt and moved completely onto anger. I folded my arms and leaned against the doorframe staring at Niall waiting for him to start talking.

"Maddy, please. Just listen. I messed up, I messed up badly. None of that was supposed to happen. She texted me one day asking if we could meet up for lunch? She told me that she had thought a lot about everything that happened the time she threatened you and the night at the club and she wanted to apologize in person. I agreed and thought that it wasn't going to be a big deal. We met up and a small cafe and I didn't think anyone saw us, but I guess I was wrong. There was a pap hiding out outside. She apologized to me and then started to get distressed telling me some stories about how she is so stressed. I put my hand on top of hers to comfort her, there was no romantic intention of any kind. When we were leaving she hugged me and then grabbed my collar and kissed me, I pushed her away as quickly as I could, but they caught the photos anyway. You already know that part of the story, I explained that to you a while ago. Anyway, moving on. Later that night I went out to a club just to have fun. When I got there I sat at the bar and had quite a bit to drink. Last thing I remember is Sammi came up and I tried to ignore her, but she was persistent. I had some more drinks, I took a photo of me kissing her cheek because she asked, and that's it. From there I don't remember anything else. I don't know why I kissed, made out with her. It was a mistake and I regret it 1000%. I was drunk and my judgement was very very hazy. Her tweets were nothing. She thought we were something we weren't. She is a sick bitch, you know that. So there is my explanation. I want you to know that I never stopped loving you, and I never will. I have never loved anyone more than I love you. Knowing that I made you cry hurts me more than you can imagine. I haven't left my hotel room because I have been to sad to walk outside. Everything reminds me of you. When I see you smile, everything literally gets brighter. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. When you laugh I can't help but laugh because I am so happy that you are happy. I want you to know that I want nothing more than to be with you. I came here to tell you that I am truly sorry and I love you. I know I never told you, but I love you. You are my world and without you I have absolutely nothing. I want nothing more than for you to be happy, and I hope with all my heart that being with me will make you happy. But if it doesn't and you want something else, then that's what I want for you. I just want you to be happy. As much as it pains me, if making you happy means me never being able to be with you, then that's what I am willing to do. I just want for you to be happy and smile. I came here to tell you all this in person and to ask you this question. Can you forgive me? Please."

I stood there a second processing everything he just told me. At the beginning of Niall's speech the boys had congregated at the top of the stairs. Tears were now streaming down my cheeks. Niall shattered my heart. I love him, he is the first boy I ever loved. I looked up at his face and noticed that he was crying as well. I couldn't answer right now, I needed time to think. I ran downstairs into my room and shut the door. I threw myself down on my bed and cried into my pillow. I don't know what to do. I want to forgive him and have him here holding me telling me it will be okay, but he is the reason I am here and upset in the first place. Do I forgive him, or do I forget him?

Notes

Okay so I know it is kind of short, but I wanted the apology out there :) So Niall finally told Maddy that he loves her. It happened! :D Haha Anyway guess what!! I AM 1 SUBSCRIBER AWAY FROM 100!!!!!! I never thought in a million years that I would ever get that many subscribers. I just want to say thank you to each and every one of you guys. You make me happy :)