Last First Kiss

With Harry leaving for tour and my friends Cara and Samantha going with them I’m going to be all alone. I’m not a very social person and most of my friends have known me for almost my whole life. I have known Cara since I was 4 and Samantha practically since I was born. Harry and the boys are really the only exception. I have known harry since he was 16 and I was 15 I was very shy around boys but we had a class together and surely enough got picked for partners cliché I know I know but seriously that’s how it happened. Cara my friend was also in that class she was one of my best friends and she always will be but she doesn’t make the best decisions. Sophomore year she had to be pulled out of school to go to rehab. She was a cutter and I had known about it. Sam and I tried to help but clearly it only made things worse, that afternoon we tried talking to her but she denied it and went home early that day. That night I got a call from her mom, Cara was in the hospital she had lost a lot of blood and almost died. Cara needed 40 cuts stitched up and 30 glued. She wasn’t allowed to come back to school till junior year. During this time harry and I had gotten really close because he was friends with Cara’s older brother and he knew what was going on. One day after class before we hadn’t even been talking for that long I started crying I couldn’t help it Cara had texted me in the beginning of class and I had held it in for what seemed to be the longest 45 minutes of my life. As I ran towards the stair case I felt a hand grab my arm. The hand was too big to be Sam’s and I didn’t know who else would be trying to help me. When I turned around I saw the angelic face of Harry. His normally happy smile and adorable dimples turned into an expression I had never seen before on his face before. I actually recognized that face. It reminded me of Sam when she looked at Cara full of concern and worry, It was the face of someone who cared. I guessed I had had that face on a lot too. He started to ask me if I was okay I cut him off by throwing myself into his arms. I hadn’t known him for too long but at this point I didn’t care. He just held me gently stroking my back and whispering little sweet things in my ear “its ok it always will be I’m here don’t worry” and other things along the lines of that, his slow and husky voice ringing in my ear. We left school early that day he lived only a couple blocks from the school so we were able to walk and talk. From that day on he called me every nigh just to check on me. I could tell he really did care.

My junior year was better with Cara back but towards the end got harder. Harry left to go onto the x factor, of course I went to all the shows and soon enough one direction became a band. The boys were all so nice, We had all become really close but not the same as me and Harry. We all hung out quite a bit and this time we were going to the beach. Harry told me I could bring along Sam and Cara if I liked and they were more than happy to come along. This was the first time any of the boys had met my friends, I knew Sam fancied Niall and Cara Zayn but really didn’t think anything of it. The girls got along great with the boys and they actually hit it off with Niall and Zayn. I hung with harry the whole day he kept on grabbing my waist and cuddling up to me and just being really flirty but he was always like this with me. People asked all the time if we were dating I had gotten used to saying no he is just my best friend but at this point I kinda noticed what everyone must have been talking about. He flung me around in the water and would hug me around the waste and kiss my cheek and forehead but I didn’t put much thought into it.

Senior year went by slowly harry was off working with one direction and I had a lot of school work. He still tried to call as often as he could but the calls weren’t every day anymore I missed him, and a lot more then I was admitting. Cara and Zayn were dating as well as Niall and Sam and the girls planned on leaving for tour with them in the summer I wasn’t invited but I didn’t really care I didn’t want to be a bother and It wasn’t like Harry was my boyfriend or anything so I just kinda didn’t have plans for the summer.

Now it was the day before they were all leaving and the boys offered to bring us all out to a movie and dinner. Cara Sam and I had been getting ready for what seemed like forever before the door had rung. We all ran down the stairs like little kids who had just heard the ice cream man outside. Sam got outside first and Niall gave her a peck on the cheek before snaking his arm around her waist. Then Cara ran over to Zayn who gave her a quick snog before hugging her from behind and putting his head on top of hers. They were adorable and I then realized how jealous seeing them like this made me. Harry came over to me and kissed my forehead and then announced to the boys for them to go ahead to the movie he needed to talk to me but we would still be able to make dinner. The boys fussed over it a little but then agreed when we finally turned to go inside I gave harry a funny look which he must have picked up on because he started rubbing my side in an attempt to tickle me but it didn’t work. We sat down on the couch and we sat crossed facing each other like we always did when we needed to talk I leaned back onto the couch a little more. So Styles what could have been so important that it made us miss going to see this movie? I asked. It’s all you guys have been talking about for a week. He chuckled a little and placed his hand on my thigh, it sent shivers of delight up my whole body but I kept my composure. It’s just Halle I have been feeling really guilty because I didn’t invite you to go on tour with us and I realized that I need you there he spat out. Oh no its fine I started but his hand flew up to my face. It rested on my cheek for a few seconds and then trailed down to my neck his thumb rubbing circles our eyes never breaking contact. I need you there he repeated. I will go if you want I just don’t want to impose I stuttered. Halle you wouldn’t be imposing Harry said in a half chuckle. I smiled and looked down blushing and his hand moved to my chin and tilted my head up so my eyes would be staring at his, green eyes always make me melt I think to myself he smiled seeing how intoxicated by his stare I was. Well I guess this isn’t goodbye after all I said and he bent down and kissed my cheek again, I guess it isn’t he repeated in almost a whisper sending chills up my back.

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