Does he know?

I knocked frustrately on Nial'ls door untill he opened it. As the door opened, a huge smile and two big, blue eyes met mine. "What's up with the knocking?" he said as he signed that I should come in. "Have you heard the news?!" I said frustrately as I looked at him and Soph at the same time. I literally jumped in his bed with my head in his pillow. They looked at me like I was out of my mind. "Okay listen"

"Zayn is in love with me!" I almost yelled. I expected two shocking looks or maybe a "WHAT" or an "are you kidding" but all they did was giggling. "SO YOU KNEW IT? ... YOU TOTALLY KNEW IT THAT'S WHY YOU'RE SMILING AND LAUGHING, RIGHT?"! I said shocked.

“How come you didn’t get the clues?” Niall laughed looking at Soph who had a grin on her face as well.

“This is no fun seriously our friendship is about to die. He knows every single detail about my feelings for Harry” I sat down on Niall’s bed with the saddest face ever.

“Don’t worry maybe the feelings will go away if you spent less time together?” Soph said.

Excuse me. How was I able to avoid my ROOM MATE WHICH ALSO WAS MY BEST FRIEND?!

“Guys.." I said as I breathed in.. and out.. " I tell him everything. Like everything. He knows way too much!”

“Then dont do it?" Niall looked questionably at me. “You can tell us everything, so he doesn’t have to know everything. He’s also hiding this secret from you, remember that” he continued.

“You’re a smart Irish guy” I laughed. Deep down I know he was right but it wasn't that easy hiding things from my best friend - who absolute has to be the person I share room with and hang out with every day.

Class was about to start so I and Soph headed before coming late while Niall had plans with the musical. “So your plan is to pretend you don’t know Zayn’s secret and just stop telling him about Harry. Right?”, she asked as we walked towards the classroom. I just nodded in return. I could simply not fill Zayn with my thoughts and feelings about Harry. I felt so bad for him. But how was I able to ignore the fact that he liked me?

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I Skyped with Sarah before going to bed I told her everything about Zayn. She was also in shock. I mean who wouldn’t be?! The door suddennly opened and Zayn came in. I turned on the light to say hello when I saw something different about his face..

He came towards my bed. Then I saw it C L E A R L Y .


”ZAYN WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO YOURSELF!?” I spoke up as I in a hurry shut my laptop. Zayn's eye was completely blue, black and swollen. He looked like a prisoner who had just been into a fight with a gang member.

“Pure baby what happened?” I asked while I hugged him. I fondled his neck with my left hand. He was quiet for a moment but then spoke out " I’m fine, everything is fine. Don't think about it" he whispered. I was speechless, looking at him made me want to cry. It was devastating seeing him in this condition, he didn’t smile, and his answer was emotionless just like everything else about him. He excused himself and went to the cafeteria and came back after what felt like a lifetime. He sat on the bed with an icebag on his eye. I sat beside him with an arm around his neck. I could not cope with this at all.

“ What happened, please tell me?” His eyes were filled with tears.

“ I had a fight..with Harry”, he snuffled.

“What why?”, I said softly. I was so worried about them. I loved them both to death.

“I can’t tell you it’s not a big deal”, he looked at me with a sad face.

“Of course you can tell me everything, we are best friends and yes it is a big deal. Look at you, you’re a mess. Why did he have to do this? I'll kill him when I see him Zayn!" I raised my voice. I was so mad at Harry for beating up my best friend.

“NO”, he almost shouted. “This is between me and him. Now will you let me sleep?”, he asked softly. I was worried and I wanted to do everything I could to make Harry regret this.

“If you want anything let me know, I’m here for you. Sleep well”, I said and pretended to be fine with the fact that he wouldn’t tell me what was going on. But I would figure it out sooner or later.

Next day

“Tell me what happened, I know you know it. You’re one of Harry’s best friends. TELL ME”, I almost yelled at Lou. He looked like an afraid child. He held his hands up as he explained “I promise I don’t know anything”. I couldn’t believe this. First my friends had kept a secret for me in weeks and now no one wanted to tell me what’s going on. This college is way too fucked.

“You promise that?“, I looked seriously at his face. He knew when I was serious with him, it was a big deal. “Okay I can’t promise but I’m not allowed to tell you”, he said looking the other way.

“LOU it’s my best friend and he’s fighting with Haz because of me. Is it because of the secret?” he looked at me with big eyes. “SO you know it?” he whispered. I nodded. “ The guys told me”, I confessed.

“Oh okay but promise it’s staying between me and you. Haz and Zayn have been enemies since Haz cheated on you and yeeah.. Zayn has had a crush on you for awhile and when Harry realized that he completely lost his mind. He told Zayn shitty things like if he touches you, he’ll punch him to death and if he hit’s on you it will cost him a lot. I have never seen Harry like this before I swear. Yesterday they fought in class because of a ridiculous thing, someone mentioned your name and they completely went insane, they were about to get suspended”, he whispered.

I was in shock I was sure that I looked like an idiot with my mouth being open and all that. I didn't even know how I should react. It felt like every word Lou had just said slowly hit me in the face.

“Are you serious about this Lou? I can't believe my own ears!" I said with an open mouth still schocked as hell.

“Shh, there is more" He looked around to see if anyone was listening to our conversation.

"Zayn doesn’t want to tell you anything because he knows you’re sad and don’t feel the same as he does. I really think you guys should work this out. This is for no good”, he continued. Woah. Way too much information in one day. How could they keep this from me I don't undestand it.

The bell rang, I thanked Lou for helping me and I headed to class. I couldn’t focus or concentrate. I kept thinking of Lou’s words. This was so fucked up. A pure mess. While I was in my own world, Zayn suddenly texted me. “Meet me in our room, gotta tell you something important. NOW!”

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