Trust Issues
Awkward
Olivia POV:
I didn't want to, but I did. As I opened the phone I thought "Fuck! He better treat me like a princess for even talking to him!"
Harry POV:
The ringing suddenly stopped and I heard a soft but strong voice say yes. I wasn't expecting this since she didn't answer the other times I called. I didn't even know what to say. I stuttered on hello and kept talking from there. The words just poured out of my mouth. I couldn't stop it. Everything that came to mind I said to her.
"Please forgive me Olivia. I can't, absolutely can't live without you. You're my everything. When you left me, I felt like dying. I'm so sorry. Words can't describe how sorry I am for putting you through this much pain. My life is miserable without you. You're the reason why I wake up every morning with a smile on my face. Just please don't do this to me." I said finally finishing and taking a breath.
Olivia's POV:
Harry made this really hard for me. He was practically begging me to not walk out of his life. Tears were coming out my eyes. I was willing to forgive him. Before I told him I would forgive him, I prayed to god that Harry would never ever hurt me again. I spoke up clearly.
"If I forgive you, can you promise me something?" I said.
"Anything." He answered.
"Promise me that you'll never hurt me again. You hurt me really bad, you left a scar and I'll never forget, but I'm willing to forgive." I said.
"I promise." He said.
And with that I hung up. I laid in bed, thinking if I made the right choice. My phone rung again, this time it was Elenour. She called to see if I wanted to hang out. She also said she wanted to talk, but didn't mention about what. We met up at Starbucks.
I waved to her as she came through the door, letting the cold air sneak through.
"Hey, you alright?" She asked.
"Yea." I said.
"Danielle told me what happened between you and Harry and I just wanted to make sure you were alright." She explained.
"Thanks. It was pretty ugly but, I feel better now. He called me a bunch of times and I didn't answer, but I decided to answer this morning and I forgave him." I said sighing.
"How do you feel about forgiving him?" She asked.
"Honestly, I know forgiving him is the right thing to do, but I can't get over the fact that he hurt me really bad." I said with watery eyes, but not enough for me to cry.
"Well nobody is perfect and people make mistakes. I think you did the right thing. I know Harry really cares about you. Lou tells me all the things he says to him about you." She said.
"Like what?" I asked getting excited, but not showing her.
"Lou tells me that Harry tells him that he's in love with you and he thinks you're the one. And you make him feel happy." She said.
"Ohhh." I said smiling on the inside.
Spending the day with Elenour really help me clear my head and forget about all my drama. When I got home, the lights were on. I freaked out, I turned the lights off before I left. Who the hell was in my house? I walked slowly to the kitchen and saw a tall boy with curly hair peering the fridge. My heart filled up with joy, I was happy that Harry was home. But I didn't want to show him that.
"What are you doing here?" I asked putting my keys down.
"The boys and I got a longer vacation, so I thought why not come here." He said looking anywhere else but me.
"Look, you know I'm really sorry and I'll never hurt you again right?" He said.
Yea." I said walking away to put my jacket away.
Harry POV:
I felt like giving Olivia a hug when she walked in, but things were still rough and it would just be an awkward move. I knew it was going to take a long time a long time before Olivia and I were back to normal. I was just happy she talked and forgave me. I promised her I would never hurt again and I'm going to keep that promise.
Olivia POV:
I wanted to cuddle up with Harry and just forget about everything that happened. But, I just can't. It's going to take awhile before I can feel comfortable with him. He came into the room.
"Are you still going to move out?" He asked me.
"Do you want me to?" I asked.
"Of course not. I just wanna know where we stand." He said.
"I want to try and make this work Harry. I still love you and I have a special spot in my heart for you. But you gotta meet my halfway." I said.
"I don't want to end things with you either. And I'll meet you more than halfway." He said sitting on the bed looking at me.
I walked away. I hope Harry wasn't staying long. It would be awkward. I want him so bad. I want things to go back to normal. Since it was getting late, I decided to go to sleep. I went into the kitchen to get water to drink. When I was walking back to bed, I noticed Harry was creating a little bed on the couch. I looked up as he returned from the closet with pillows.
"You don't have to sleep on the couch. You can still sleep in the room. The couch is too hard." I said feeling bad.
"Alright." He said.
He came in the room and joined me in the bed. We didn't talk at all. We turned our backs to each other so it would be less awkward. When I woke up the next morning, his arm somehow made it across my waist. I didn't mind, I liked it. I moved his hand so I could go to the bathroom. When I came back he was awake, on his laptop.
"Morning." He said.
"Morning." I said.
I went into the kitchen to get started on breakfast. Harry came in the kitchen in only his boxers. He came up behind me, trying to reach something in the cabinet. I turned around trapped. He was way too close for comfort. He looked down realizing he way too close. He quickly leaned down and kissed me. I tried to push him off but my hands wouldn't move. I wanted him to kiss me, but I also wanted to wait. Kissing him was like kissing cotton. His lips were so soft. He hands went around my waist, picking me up and putting me on the counter. He came closer, bringing his body more in between my legs. I finally got control and pulled away. I hopped of the counter and ran to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and cried. I was so confused. Deep down inside I wanted him to look at me the way he did before. But, I didn't want to move too fast and just forget that he cheated. He came and knock on the door.
"Olivia, I'm sorry. I couldn't help myself. You were there and... I couldn't control myself. Please unlock the door."
I ignored him. Why was it hard for me to let Harry in? I wanted to, but I couldn't. I cried silently so he wouldn't hear me. I got up and unlocked the door.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to kiss you like that so fast after what happen before." He said sitting on the floor.
"I'm just confused Harry. I want things to go back to normal between us. I liked how you wrapped your arm around me and I liked how you kissed me, but I'm having trouble forgetting about the pass and moving on." I explained.
"I understand. I want things to go back to normal, but I'm afraid if I move too fast like I did in the kitchen, it could hurt our relationship." He said.
Let's just take one step at a time." I said getting up.
"Ok." He agreed.
Harry's POV:
I don't know why I went for the kiss. I was worried she would act like this. If Olivia never forgave me, I seriously don't know what I would have done.
Olivia POV:
I wanted to kiss Harry so bad after that. I felt bad for him, he made an effort and I just freaked out. Harry asked me if I wanted to hang out with the boys today. He bribed me by saying Danielle and Elenour were going to there.
When we were done getting ready, we walked to the car. When we got to Zayn's house and we parted. He went with the boys and I went with the girls.
"Hey, are you and Harry alright?" Danielle asked.
"I don't know. Things are awkward. He was going to sleep on the couch and I told him he didn't have to. So when he comes in the bed, we don't even talk. Then this morning he kissed me unexpectedly, I wanted him to but, at the same time I didn't want him to." I said.
"You're confusing." Dani said.
"Aren't all girls?" I said.
"No, just you." Elenour said.
We all laughed!
I didn't want to, but I did. As I opened the phone I thought "Fuck! He better treat me like a princess for even talking to him!"
Harry POV:
The ringing suddenly stopped and I heard a soft but strong voice say yes. I wasn't expecting this since she didn't answer the other times I called. I didn't even know what to say. I stuttered on hello and kept talking from there. The words just poured out of my mouth. I couldn't stop it. Everything that came to mind I said to her.
"Please forgive me Olivia. I can't, absolutely can't live without you. You're my everything. When you left me, I felt like dying. I'm so sorry. Words can't describe how sorry I am for putting you through this much pain. My life is miserable without you. You're the reason why I wake up every morning with a smile on my face. Just please don't do this to me." I said finally finishing and taking a breath.
Olivia's POV:
Harry made this really hard for me. He was practically begging me to not walk out of his life. Tears were coming out my eyes. I was willing to forgive him. Before I told him I would forgive him, I prayed to god that Harry would never ever hurt me again. I spoke up clearly.
"If I forgive you, can you promise me something?" I said.
"Anything." He answered.
"Promise me that you'll never hurt me again. You hurt me really bad, you left a scar and I'll never forget, but I'm willing to forgive." I said.
"I promise." He said.
And with that I hung up. I laid in bed, thinking if I made the right choice. My phone rung again, this time it was Elenour. She called to see if I wanted to hang out. She also said she wanted to talk, but didn't mention about what. We met up at Starbucks.
I waved to her as she came through the door, letting the cold air sneak through.
"Hey, you alright?" She asked.
"Yea." I said.
"Danielle told me what happened between you and Harry and I just wanted to make sure you were alright." She explained.
"Thanks. It was pretty ugly but, I feel better now. He called me a bunch of times and I didn't answer, but I decided to answer this morning and I forgave him." I said sighing.
"How do you feel about forgiving him?" She asked.
"Honestly, I know forgiving him is the right thing to do, but I can't get over the fact that he hurt me really bad." I said with watery eyes, but not enough for me to cry.
"Well nobody is perfect and people make mistakes. I think you did the right thing. I know Harry really cares about you. Lou tells me all the things he says to him about you." She said.
"Like what?" I asked getting excited, but not showing her.
"Lou tells me that Harry tells him that he's in love with you and he thinks you're the one. And you make him feel happy." She said.
"Ohhh." I said smiling on the inside.
Spending the day with Elenour really help me clear my head and forget about all my drama. When I got home, the lights were on. I freaked out, I turned the lights off before I left. Who the hell was in my house? I walked slowly to the kitchen and saw a tall boy with curly hair peering the fridge. My heart filled up with joy, I was happy that Harry was home. But I didn't want to show him that.
"What are you doing here?" I asked putting my keys down.
"The boys and I got a longer vacation, so I thought why not come here." He said looking anywhere else but me.
"Look, you know I'm really sorry and I'll never hurt you again right?" He said.
Yea." I said walking away to put my jacket away.
Harry POV:
I felt like giving Olivia a hug when she walked in, but things were still rough and it would just be an awkward move. I knew it was going to take a long time a long time before Olivia and I were back to normal. I was just happy she talked and forgave me. I promised her I would never hurt again and I'm going to keep that promise.
Olivia POV:
I wanted to cuddle up with Harry and just forget about everything that happened. But, I just can't. It's going to take awhile before I can feel comfortable with him. He came into the room.
"Are you still going to move out?" He asked me.
"Do you want me to?" I asked.
"Of course not. I just wanna know where we stand." He said.
"I want to try and make this work Harry. I still love you and I have a special spot in my heart for you. But you gotta meet my halfway." I said.
"I don't want to end things with you either. And I'll meet you more than halfway." He said sitting on the bed looking at me.
I walked away. I hope Harry wasn't staying long. It would be awkward. I want him so bad. I want things to go back to normal. Since it was getting late, I decided to go to sleep. I went into the kitchen to get water to drink. When I was walking back to bed, I noticed Harry was creating a little bed on the couch. I looked up as he returned from the closet with pillows.
"You don't have to sleep on the couch. You can still sleep in the room. The couch is too hard." I said feeling bad.
"Alright." He said.
He came in the room and joined me in the bed. We didn't talk at all. We turned our backs to each other so it would be less awkward. When I woke up the next morning, his arm somehow made it across my waist. I didn't mind, I liked it. I moved his hand so I could go to the bathroom. When I came back he was awake, on his laptop.
"Morning." He said.
"Morning." I said.
I went into the kitchen to get started on breakfast. Harry came in the kitchen in only his boxers. He came up behind me, trying to reach something in the cabinet. I turned around trapped. He was way too close for comfort. He looked down realizing he way too close. He quickly leaned down and kissed me. I tried to push him off but my hands wouldn't move. I wanted him to kiss me, but I also wanted to wait. Kissing him was like kissing cotton. His lips were so soft. He hands went around my waist, picking me up and putting me on the counter. He came closer, bringing his body more in between my legs. I finally got control and pulled away. I hopped of the counter and ran to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and cried. I was so confused. Deep down inside I wanted him to look at me the way he did before. But, I didn't want to move too fast and just forget that he cheated. He came and knock on the door.
"Olivia, I'm sorry. I couldn't help myself. You were there and... I couldn't control myself. Please unlock the door."
I ignored him. Why was it hard for me to let Harry in? I wanted to, but I couldn't. I cried silently so he wouldn't hear me. I got up and unlocked the door.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to kiss you like that so fast after what happen before." He said sitting on the floor.
"I'm just confused Harry. I want things to go back to normal between us. I liked how you wrapped your arm around me and I liked how you kissed me, but I'm having trouble forgetting about the pass and moving on." I explained.
"I understand. I want things to go back to normal, but I'm afraid if I move too fast like I did in the kitchen, it could hurt our relationship." He said.
Let's just take one step at a time." I said getting up.
"Ok." He agreed.
Harry's POV:
I don't know why I went for the kiss. I was worried she would act like this. If Olivia never forgave me, I seriously don't know what I would have done.
Olivia POV:
I wanted to kiss Harry so bad after that. I felt bad for him, he made an effort and I just freaked out. Harry asked me if I wanted to hang out with the boys today. He bribed me by saying Danielle and Elenour were going to there.
When we were done getting ready, we walked to the car. When we got to Zayn's house and we parted. He went with the boys and I went with the girls.
"Hey, are you and Harry alright?" Danielle asked.
"I don't know. Things are awkward. He was going to sleep on the couch and I told him he didn't have to. So when he comes in the bed, we don't even talk. Then this morning he kissed me unexpectedly, I wanted him to but, at the same time I didn't want him to." I said.
"You're confusing." Dani said.
"Aren't all girls?" I said.
"No, just you." Elenour said.
We all laughed!
2/20/13