This had to be the best kiss ever. Getting kissed like this was never this amazing when I would receive them from Xavier.

The kiss started out nothing but when I kissed him back, he seemed taken by surprised by my actions. I just loved having the feel of him being so close to me. I have never craved for someone’s touch as much as I crave for Liam’s.

Our lips moved fast against each other’s and I felt my head spinning. My hands made its way up slightly rubbing up and down his hard chest. I didn’t know why I couldn’t just pull away from him.

I felt his tongue glide over my lips waiting for me to open my mouth for him I’ve only snogged once to be honest. I tried to it with Xavier and it felt weird.

I guess I could try a second time and so let him, I ever so slowly opened my mouth. When my lips were an inch apart, Liam immediately slipped his tongue in exploring my mouth. I so badly wanted to moan when his tongue fought with mine now. God, I have never felt so sexually aroused before and it’s all thanks to Liam.

We snogged for a few minutes until he pulled away and we both gasp for air.But just as he had pulled from lips, he put his mouth on my neck and began kissing it. My arms grew goose-bumps and I closed my eyes as he began sucking on my neck. This was becoming to be too much for me, I wasn’t use to this.

I softly pushed Liam’s chest so he could pull his lips away from marking me.

“L-Liam,” I whisper.

He pulls away and I see his eyes are so dark that I could believe they’re black.

“I want you,” he whispers and it almost sounds desperate and sad.

“I can’t do this,” I shake my head and move away from him and sit on the couch.

“Why not?” He frowns and sits beside me.

“I don’t know you Liam. I’m not the type of girl who does these things with random guys,” I explain. “And I’ve only gotten out of an unhealthy relationship a few months ago.”

“I just got out of a long term relationship a month ago… I’m sorry it’s just I miss doing these kind of things with someone. It hurts a lot,” he says and looks down at his hands.

He reminds me of a little kid with the look he has on his face, it’s cute. I feel bad for him though. I know he’s hurting, I can see it. I wish I could help him somehow.

Maybe I can. Maybe if we do go further in what we were just doing, it can help him and me get rid of some stress and sexual tension.

The only thing I’m afraid of is if I will regret this. I don’t think I will though. I think I would regret if I didn’t do this with him now.

Even though I’m feeling sober, I feel like my next actions make me seem drunk.

“Liam…” I whisper making him look up at me. “I want you too,” I reply back. He looks at me bewildered and I chuckle lightly.

He gives me a smile before attacking my lips, making my heart beat race faster than I thought it could.

I kiss him hard and he moans in mouth making me mentally giggle. I hug his body to mine and let my hands find his hair and gripping it tight.

“Let’s go upstairs, yeah?” He asks softly. I nod as we get up and he holds my hand. We walk up the long set of stairs the make our way down the hall until we stop at a door.

He opens it and gestures me to go inside, but leaves the door open. I look around and I notice it’s a nice looking room; we must be in the guest bedroom.

I feel Liam wrap his arms around my waist then he kisses my neck sending chills down my spine.

“I would take you in my room but it’s a bit messy in there,” he deep chuckles into my neck.
I turn to look at him and give him a shy smile.

“Here is fine, it’s a lovely room,” I say. He smiles at my compliment but doesn’t respond.

Instead he closes the space between us and kisses me hungrily. I love his lips so much, I need to feel them all over me. I wrap my arms around his neck as his hands find its way down my bum.

“Jump,” he says breathlessly. I don’t hesitate before jumping on him and wrap my legs around his waist.

He takes us to the bed and pulls the duvet cover to the end of the bed with one hand as we continue to kiss passionately.

I feel myself being lied down on the soft cold bed sheets with Liam hovering over me. He pulls away from my lips and begins to suck on my neck. With my arms still around his neck, his hands go to my sides and he rubs tiny circles on my hips. I couldn’t help but moan when he found the sweet spot on my neck making my body tingle. I close my eyes lean my head back so he is able to explore more of my neck.

“Has anyone ever made love to you?” He murmurs as he continues to suck on my skin.

“N-no,” I say breathlessly now.

“So you’re a virgin?” No hint of humor, only seriousness. I open my eyes to find him pulling away and looking me in the eyes.

“Yeah,” my face flushes with embarrassment.

“No need to be embarrassed about it. I just… Are you sure you want to do this with me? Don’t you want to save it for someone better, someone special?” He asks me with a hint of sadness.

It was sweet of him to try to convince me to wait for someone who I could make love with but honestly, I don’t know when I will ever meet someone who will love me. I don’t know if I believe in love at all. I thought I did but I was wrong when I ran away from Xavier. If love did exist between Xavier and I; I wouldn’t have had the need to run away from him, I shouldn’t have been beaten up by him at times either. He wasn’t supposed to take our relationship for granted, he should have been there to protect me, not hurt him.

That’s not love.

Liam is being caring and gentle with me. I think this is the closest thing I will ever get when it comes to love.

I want us both to feel that right now. To feel loved.

Just for tonight.

I break out of my deep thoughts when I feel Liam’s hand cups my right cold cheek. I look into his eyes and give him a smile before replying.

“You are special.”

Notes

I wanted to save the upcoming scene for the next chapter. Sorry for leaving you hanging!
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