Liam’s POV

I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing. I groan and try to ignore it but it wouldn’t stop ringing and I become irritated and grumpy. I opened one eye and looked for my phone and spotted it on the other side of my room.

I decided to just let it go to voicemail.

Surely within seconds it stopped ringing.

Great, now I’m wide awake.

I usually can’t go back to sleep once I wake up.

I sigh with frustration and just lie flat on my stomach and just think.

For some reason I started wondering why I’m in such a grumpy mood this morning but then my mind processes what happened last night.

I rub my eyes and turn my body over and lay on my back now.

I don’t want to believe what I saw yesterday.

I don’t want to listen to what Mia has to say.

I don’t want to forgive her.

But I have to, I need to. I don’t want to lose Mia, that’s the last thing that I want. Usually it’s hard for me to stay mad at someone, sure I’ll get angry if I need to but I’ll forgive easily if that person truly means their apology.

But I forbid her to be with Harry if they have something going on.

And I’ll make sure he understands that Mia is off limits.

As long as she lives under my roof, and as long as she still works for me, then she will not be in any relationships with anyone.

It’s not that I want her to be alone and single but… If she was to find someone else, and ended up falling in love with them, she would want to start a life with the guy and that means I have to let her go.

I’m too selfish to let her go now, she’s addicting to me, I crave her presence and touch so much that it’s hard for me to be apart for her.

The thought of not having her around now just aches.

I really want to just go apology to her now but I’m nervous.

My phone rings again and this time I get up to answer it. My eyes scan the caller ID and I smile.

“Hello?” I answer with a deeper voice than usual which comes out naturally because I just woke up.

“Hey!” The cheery voice replies.

“Hey, what’s up?” I yawn.

“Do you think we can hang out again today? You know since you had to ditch me the last time.”

“You know I didn’t mean to… It was urgent, I’m sorry.”

“So then can you make it up to me?” You can hear the begging clearly.

I rub my forehead with one hand and think about my answer for a second.

Maybe it would be a good idea to get out of the house for today- I can just talk to Mia later. Maybe she’ll need a day to herself.

“Alright, where do you want to meet up?” I agree.

“My house again?” She says hopefully.

“OK, I’ll be there in an hour or so, I’ll call you when I get there.”

We say our goodbyes and I hang up.

I take a shower, change and then head downstairs.

What I didn’t expect was to find Mia sleeping on the couch in the living room.

I ever so slowly move closer to the sofa and look at her face.

Her eyes are puffy, bags under her eyes, her hair is really messy –though I love it— and her cheeks are a light pinkish-red color. She looks restless. I feel ever more terrible.

I get close to her until I kneel down in front of her and softly stroke her hair but still careful not to wake her and leave a delicate kiss on her forehead.

I get up and decide not to leave a note for her telling where I’ll be.

What she won’t know won’t hurt her, right?


Mia’s POV

I sit in my room holding myself into a tight ball.

I had woken up an hour ago and it wasn’t a pleasant normal wake up either. I had the dream about Xavier again and woke up sobbing. And what was worse this time is that my dream was longer, it went on because Liam wasn’t here to wake me up which caused me to cry more. I wanted his comfort, his soothing words, his kisses… but no, I was alone.

I have no clue where Liam is. After I woke up I went straight upstairs to his room to apologize but he was gone. I looked in the entire mansion but I didn’t find him anywhere, he was gone.

I assume that he went out just to get away from me- I don’t blame him but I wish we could talk now.

I didn’t bother making me anything to eat because I’m far from hungry right now, I feel sick. I have a massive headache and I just want to go back to sleep.

I’m trying so hard not tto cry right now. I’m questioning everything.

Questioning my feelings actually.

Do I love Liam?

I didn’t even know that I liked him! It’s barely going to be a week with him and now I’m thinking that I love him? That’s not possible. You can’t fall in love with someone so quickly, you just can’t. Falling in love with Liam is not an option.

But then I start to question the small feelings I get when he’s around me, I feel when we’re together, it’s just us in this world, there’s no one to judge me, no one to tell me I’m doing wrong, he understands me. That’s why it hurts so much to think that he hates me now, that he might kick me out of his life. I just need him to understand that I am here for him and I would never take advantage of his kindness or money.

*8 Hours Later*

I begin to doze off, unable to keep my eyes open any longer. I tried to stay up for Liam but he hasn’t come home yet. I was becoming worried but tried to just stay calm because maybe he just needed to be by himself. I received a couple of text messages from Harry who apologized in each one and begged for me to forgive him. I didn’t bother on replying, I would text him tomorrow.

I was thinking that Liam could just be with Andy or one of the boys in the band but I prayed he would not tell them about what happened last night. The last thing I wanted was to be hated by his friends too.

Just when my thoughts seem to clear from falling asleep, I heard noises coming from down the hall. I almost let it go but then I thought I hear Liam’s voice. I rub my eyes to help wake myself up and get out of bed. I walk out of my room and walk down the hall and hear another voice but it doesn’t belong to Liam’s. It’s a girl’s voice. I walk closer and see the light on in his bedroom. It was until I stop at bedroom door and hide my body on the side and watch.

“Liam you just need to sleep,” the girl shakes her head and helps Liam lay down on his bed.

“But I don’t want you to go!” Liam says to her sadly and pouts. Is he OK?

“C’mon I’ll see again soon, but next time we’re not going to the club.” The club? That’s where he was and with her? Who is she?

“Come lay down with me for a bit, please?” He begs. The girl sighs but agrees and lies on the bed beside him. My heart is beating out of chest and I feel like it’s about to explode for some reason.

“Now hug me,” he tells her.

She doesn’t argue and hugs him. His arms wrap around her and she lays her head on his chest.

Seeing this… just makes me feel… hurt, maybe sad?

“Now kiss me,” he says lastly and I suck in a sharp breath and freeze in place.

A part of me hoped she wouldn’t do it .

But she did. It was not a kiss on the cheek but a kiss on the lips.

I watch the scene unfold and now I realize the feeling that I was having, numbness.

I haven’t felt numb like this in a while.

The kiss got deeper and soon she was on top of him.

I couldn’t watch this anymore.

I soon felt pain in my chest. What was happening?

I quietly left and went back to my room. My mind running wild.

My body was shaking.

I could feel tears form in my eyes.

My face felt hot, my arms grew goosebumps.

Was he really going to go further with her?

Does he not know what he’s doing?

Why does it hurt so much at the thought of him being with her.

He wasn’t mine.

He was never going to be mine.

Even though now I realized I wanted him to be mine.

He wasn’t.

How could I let this happen?

And now that he was with someone else in bed, I felt so low now- like he didn't need me anymore.

I began to hear them getting loud down the hall.

As in they were…

I quickly shut my door and yet I felt like I could still hear them, maybe my mind was playing tricks on me.

Did Liam hurt this much when he saw me and Harry kiss?

Did it feel like he was crumbling to pieces? As if he was about to break any second?

That’s how I feel right now.

My ears were covered now by my hands, trying to block out the horrible noises that seemed to break my heart every second that goes by.

That’s when I decided to let out what I’ve been holding in for the past couple of minutes.

I sob. The loud noise that comes out of my mouth seems to block out the noise I no longer wanted to hear. I never sobbed so much in my life.

I almost felt like I was going to drown in my own tears, they never seemed to stop.

Lying in bed, I couldn’t stop the aching feeling in my chest, my heart. I shiver at the images of what Liam and that girl could be doing.

I do have feelings for Liam. If I didn’t, it wouldn’t have hurt so much like this.

Why is he doing this to me?

Why can’t it all stop?

I want the pain to stop for once. It's getting harder to breathe but I don't care.

“Please make it stop,” I sobbed into the pillow.

But I don’t think it ever would.

Notes

I was tearing up a bit when I was typing this chapter. What did you think of it?

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