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Looking Forward

Chapter 1

Jenna p.o.v
I woke up earlier than my the 3 alarm clocks that I had set up so I wouldn't be late for school. I quietly turned each one of them off. I took a deep breath and looked around my room taking in the peacefulness of it all.

How long has it been since I woke up without the smell of alcohol and drugs filling the air?

Clearly a very long time ago since I can't remember. Anyway let me introduce myself.

My name is Jenna, I'm 17 and I've been pretty much raising myself ever since my father died . Now your probably wondering where my mom is. She's alive don't worry. She's just to busy with work to realize that she has children. Yeah, what a mom, lucky me right?!. I dragged my feet out my room to my little sister's room ,Charlie, to get her ready for school.

I ran away from home with Charlie to England. I just couldn't stand the thought of her having to raise herself and feel alone like I have.

Or should I say like I am.

I entered her room as silently as I could without waking her up. After I closed the door behind me, I turned around to see the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. She looked so innocent and angelic. At that moment I couldn't help but remember the conversation I had with her doctor.

*flashback*

" Are you sure the test result are right. I mean there's a 50% chance those could be wrong. " I said to the Dr. Cooper who looked at me with sympathetic eyes.

"I'm sorry Jenna but the test results are indeed correct. she doesn't have very long to live.maybe 2 to 3 years." he said sympathetically .

I chocked on his words. Two the 3 years only, that not a lot. How could this be happening to such a nice innocent kid. Why ?

"I'm sorry Jenna " he said breaking me out of my thoughts.

" I know this is very hard for you considering your current situation" He finished saying.

"But try to make the short amount of time left with her as memorable as you can" He said putting his hand on my shoulder.

I looked up to him giving the best fake smile I could at the moment.

"Umm.. th-thanks. Thank you for everything that you've done for her. I don't know what I'd do if it weren't for you" I said genuinely to him smiling.

He gave me a hug before he spoke again" You know I'll always be there for you Jenna." He said putting both arms on my shoulders. "Thank you Dr. Cooper. I really appreciate it." I said with a shy smile .

" Please call me Ryan." He said with his a broad smile revealing his perfect white teeth.

"Thank you. Ryan" I said with a little blush on my cheeks."

" You're welcome. It's my pleasure. Just call me if you ever need anything." He said beforeescorting me to the door.I then let out a breath I had no idea I've been holding. The entire ride home all I could think was WHY? WHY her and not me.

*End flashback*

I was brought back when I felt someone pulling on the shorts of my pjs. I looked down to bright blue eyes staring straight in mine. I bent down to get a better look at the small figure next to me.

"Why are crying Jenny"(Jenny is what she calls me).

I looked at her with a puzzle expression on my face. Had I been crying? Her smalled little hand reached out to me wiping the tears that had unknowingly streamed down my cheeks. I smiled a sad smile and pulled her into a hug.

"Are you sad" she said to me worriedly.

"No baby I'm not" I replied.

" Then why are you crying?" She asked so innocently.

I smile at her before I spoke "Because I'm happy Charlie."

" But people cry when there sad not happy" she said.

Smart kid, smart kid.

I laughed and picked her up throwing her over my shoulder.

"It's time for your bath" I said while tickling her, as her pretty laughter filling the room.

"You're gonna be late if we don't wash your smelly feet quickly" laughing as I said so.

"My feet aren't smelly " she protested.

I put her down and smelled her feet. I then fell over pretending that the smell killed me, which made her laugh even louder than before