" so Marcel may I ask why are you." Mrs.shawl said as I took a seat in the kitchen.
"well Mrs.Shawl you know my secret."i said my voice a bit shakly.
"Yes, Marcel I do."
"well they took over and now Kaitlyn thinks I'm a jerk because of them"
"oh Marcel don't worry she'll get ..." She suddenly stopped hearing the door open and close.
"mom is Marcel here."
"n.oooo sweetie come here."
"ok."
Her tone suddenly changed after hearing I wasn't present.
"fuck. Mom you lied."
"sweetie we need talk."
i sat there quietly looking at her hurt face.
"fuck you."
She said looking directly into my eyes.
"KAITLYN that is no way to talk to a friend."
kaitlyns eyes widened and she stared at her mom. She took 3 steps and got right in front of my face.
"you Marcel you will never ever be a friend again." She said then storming out of the room.
"Mom don't even worry about me coming home I'll stay with a friend."
Then the door slammed making us both jump.
"Marcel I'm so sorry she..."
"no Mrs.Shawl I'm so sorry what ever they did they must of messed up. This isn't anything new. But what really gets to me is that they knew. THEY KNEW SHE WAS MINE AND." I punched the wall behind the wall, leaving a big hole in it. I stood and stared at the hole. I got down on my knees and sobbed. Kaitlyns mom was just staring at me with a blank expression. I ran out of the house and jumped into the car. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't care.
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after two hours of driving I was at a lake. I don't know why I was here except all I knew was she would never love me again. Josh loves her ore she will get together with him not me. I'm a nerd I'm ugly I have glasses. He is sporty, good looking and blue eyes. I'm nothing.that repeated in my head.
im nothing
im nothing
im nothing
im nothing
im nothing
im nothing
i was walked towards the dock.
she will never love you
she will never love you
she will never love you
she will never love you
she will never love you
i jumped off. Water started to fill my lungs. I tried to swim up but I couldn't I just couldn't she won't miss you Marcel stay.
Marcel stay underwater.
shes done with you.
hah you think she loved you.
she loved us.
"MARCEL."
i felt someone jump underwater and pull me up to the air.
"Marcel what the fuck." I heard a familialar voice say.
i opened my eyes and say Kaitlyn. she smiled at me.
"MARCEL KICK YOU LEGS YOU WEIGH TO MUCH."
"I.. Iiiiii can't iimmm colllld."
"Ermmmm."
"Put your hands on the dock on push yourself up." I did as told now I was up on the dock. She followed after me.
"Take your shirt off."
"what.."
"hurry marcel your freeze take your shirt off."
um ok. I took off my shirt revealing my tattoos.
"whhhattttt about youuu?"
why did I say that.
"don't be perv. I'm doing this because I can die too." She said and took her shirt off leaving her in her bra.
"follow me." She said leading me to her car. She went into the trunk and put on a blanket and then came over and shared with me.
"it the only one I have."
Then we jumped into the back of the car and turned on the heat.
"thank you." I said stuttering a little.
"it fine Marcel."
we sat there for a while silent until she asked.
"why."
"what what,"
"why did you try to drown yourself."
"um."
"Marcel tell me, I may be calm now but you scared me. Your the only friend I have left. I saw you jump when I was getting into my car to drive away then I saw you. I ran as fast as I could, I thought I lost you," she said with tears streaming down her face
"Kaitlyn I thought you didn't want me no more, I thought you hated me. When you said that to my face my heart shattered, I punched your wall and made a hole. Your mom gave me a disappointed look. I knew I was just a disappointment to everyone. To you, to my mom. To your mom, to the school to everyone. There was nothing to live for."
more tears where streaming down her face.
"I will always love you Marcel."
She said pressing her lip tightly to mine. She pulled away after 5 mins of makeing out.
"Marcel."
"yes honey."
"I'm still in my bra." She said giggling looking down.
i pressed my lips to hers once more.
"nothing I haven't seen before"
"Marcel!"
no harry leave did you not just see I just tried to kill myself.
shut up let me have my fun.

Notes

OHHHH the mom knows. And harry gonna well u know with Kaitlyn ohhh
✌️yo
-Kiki