Bella's POV:

It's been almost a week, and I still have barely spoken to anyone except Liam. He's been a really awesome friend to me these past few days, I really needed him. Today's the day Harry, Zayn and Liam's shop is opening, it's called Twisted. They've been working really hard these past few weeks on making it perfect, and of course I needed to go to the grand opening. I woke up on the couch, for the fifth day in a row. Harry has been insisting I sleep in the bed, but I'm too scared to go near him still. I walked into the bedroom so I could get to the bathroom, but froze when I saw Harry.

"Good morning, love." He said with a small smile....so awkward.

"Hey...Big day today." I tried to say enthusiastically.

"Yeah, I'm headed over there now. Will I see you?" He asked buckling his belt. I hated to admit it, but he looked pretty hot.

"Umm yeah. I'll see you in a bit." I smiled. He awkwardly came over to me to give me a kiss but deflected and giggled softly. He sighed, and walked out the door. Time to get ready, I needed to look good. After all, this is expected to be one of the biggest tattoo shops in LA.

I took a shower, and quickly got dressed into one of my favorite outfits. I'm wearing long sleeves because yes, I cut myself a few days ago. I've been so strong through this whole thing, but Louis coming back into my life really messed with me and no, nobody knows. I finished curling my hair and doing my makeup and smiled at myself, I looked cute. I heard a knock at the door, it was Chloe.

"Ready to go?!" She asked reaching her arm out and locking it with mine. I smiled at her because she was so excited.

"Yup, let's get going." I said rushing out the door with her.

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"I'm nervous... I haven't really spoken to Zayn or Harry in a few days. What if it's completely awkward?" I asked sitting in the passenger side of the car.

"Don't be such a pussy! Let's go bitch!" Chloe giggled pulling me out of the car and slamming the door. "I'm gonna get a new tattoo, are you?" She asked. I looked at her like she had three heads.

"Are you crazy?!!?!? No fucking way." I choked out.

"Stop living like a little bitch Bella... You only live once!" She complained before swinging open the shop doors. Zayn was standing at the counter and his eyes lit up when he saw us walk in.

"Zayn!!!" Chloe squealed running into his arms. "I love it!" She screamed and was already walking into the back and looking for the other boys. "Harry and Liam, come here! I'm so proud of you...." her voice trailed off as she walked deeper and deeper into the building.

"Hey twinkletoes." He smiled pulling me in for a hug, I missed his hugs. "How are you holding up? It's been a few days... I want to apologi--" I stopped him.

"Don't apologize. I've been avoiding everyone. I'm ok, how are you?" I asked shifting the subject.

"Hanging in there, yeah..." There was an awkward silence as I nodded in response to him. "So how do you like the shop? Gonna get a tattoo or piercing?" He laughed taking my hand and leading me to the back.

"No way!!" I tried to release from his grip. "Zayn, I'm not kidding! I don't want anything!" I laughed reaching towards the other direction.

"C'mon! One on the wrist or hand isn't gonna kill you, love. Tattoos are sexy!" He smirked picking me up and placing me into the chair where people get tattoos... I felt like I was at the doctors office. Thankfully, Liam and Harry walked in smiling.

"You're getting a tattoo?!" Liam asked shocked with a smile. Harry was smiling too, which made me let out a little grin.

"No, Zayn just isn't listening to me!" I said kicking Zayn's bum.

"C'mon twinkletoes, you can come our first customer! Opportunities like this don't come often. Just do it. What are you afraid of?!" He joked. I sighed and shook my head. Was I really about to get a tattoo.... yup.

"You're so annoying... Fine. One small one." I rolled my eyes. Zayn bounced up and down with excitement like a chubby kid on halloween.

"Can I do it?" Harry asked innocently. I looked at Liam who had a concerned face and Zayn who looked a little uncertain too.

"Umm... Sure." Zayn sighed backing away. "See ya in a bit, love." he smiled waving at me. Liam rolled his eyes at Harry's smirk, so he leant down and kissed me on the cheek, making me blush.

"Want me to stay and hold your hand?" He teased, causing Harry to clench his jaw slightly.

"I'm a big girl Liam!" I smiled brightly at him. "See you in a little while, babe!" I giggled as he walked out the room closing the door. So now it was just me, Harry and a bunch of tattoo crap.

"Where do you want the tattoo?" Harry asked as sweetly as he could, making me laugh a little. I tried to hide my smile, because I really was mad at him, but I couldn't.

"Umm where do first time people usually get them?" I asked nervously.

"Well you could get it on your ankle..." he said pulling up my jean leg a little, giving me goose bumps. "We could put it on your hit, although that might be painful..." he continued lifting up my shirt a little. "Or we could put it on your hand..." he said grabbing my hand. "Most beginners get them on their hands or wrists..." he said reaching at my sleeve but I immediately pulled my arm away.

"Enough of that." I whispered holding my cut up wrist in my other hand. He looked at me confused at first, but then his whole face went pale.

"Bella.... What did you do?" He asked. I shook my head and titled my head back so tears wouldn't slip down my cheek. "Did you do it because of me..." He said it a shaky voice. I felt really guilty at this point.

"Why don't we just put a cross on my finger, that's cute." I changed the subject.

"I've got a better idea. Roll up your sleeves." He commanded. I didn't at first, but when he took my hands and slowly rolled them up I couldn't stop him, in fear of what he would do if I resisted. His eyes fluttered when he saw the scars and fresh cuts, but he didn't comment on them, instead, he grabbed his tattoo needle and started inking both my wrists up. "Don't look at them until I tell you." He said starting to prick me and giving me the tattoo.



"Fuck it hurts..." I sighed. It's been two hours of silence between me and Harry but thankfully he was finished.

"Take a look." He smiled holding up my sore wrists. I looked down and tears filled my eyes.

"I absolutely love it." I smiled softly admiring his lovely work.

Notes

idk where I was going with this chapter.... more drama next chapter!

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