Crystalised

Jenna's POV

"Dear Diary

This is a new notebook. My new diary. And I sort of started to hate the word 'diary' because it reminds me of the time that I was broken. But I got fixed, so from now on this is my journal. It's a different notebook, different life, a different me.

Today was like the best day of my life. It was perfect. It's really intriguing how you can grow close to someone in such a short period. And your life is no longer the same. So many things happened this past few months. I learned so much. I learned not to be afraid of anything and that death is just a part of life. I learned what is love. Not the definition of the word 'love', but I have felt it. It is this amazing feeling that can cure you in your darkest most depressing days. It is something that burns inside you, a fire.

I've also learned how to open up. I was always afraid, you know. Showing my feelings was my biggest insecurity and still is. But I have no problem what so ever to open up to him. He changed my life somehow. I spent so many years thinking I will never see the light, I will never trust, I will never be safe, but he came along and in two days I told him my life story. I told him every heavy thing that was in me. He taught me how to let go, how to free myself from me. How to become normal. I know I am bipolar, and he makes it ok."

I stopped writing, and smiled. It was the 1st of October. October was my favorite month. I don't know why, because it has no special meaning. Nobody I was close to was born in october, yet I still was happiest in october. My phone rang. It was Britney. At first, they were like my real friends, but since me and Harry went public, Britney and Chelsea had been up to my neck. They always want to hang out with me, and when we do hang out, they ask me about Harry the whole time. I'm getting the feeling they are just using me. On the other hand, Lucy is such a sweetheart. She doesn't focus on Harry when she comes. She asks about how I am feeling. But I am getting the feeling from her that I'm just a charity case because I have a mental illness.

Other girls in my school were talking to me, girls I don't even know. I answered my phone

"Hey Britt" I answered. She asked me if I wanted to hang out. It was thursday. I didn't want to go out so I made an excuse that I am busy studying, which I really was suppose to, but I was too lazy.

I heard the doorbell, and soon after, Harry came in my room

"Hello, love" He said, and greeted me with a kiss. I was never busy for him.

"Hi Jen" greeted me Niall from the hallway.

"Oh, hey" I said, I was confused. He then went into Leena's room. "Are they…you know?" I asked. Were they going out and Leena didn't tell me anything?

"Go ask your sister. Niall is being secretive about it too." Harry said smirking, and he then laid on my bed and started to type something on my laptop. I jumped next to him

"Hi" I said, and kissed him. He kissed me back. It was a quick peck, but I felt like all of our kisses were magical, even the little ones. "Watcha doooooin?" I asked, sounding like Isabelle from Phineas and Ferb. He didn't answer my question, and played 'Yellow Submarine' by the Beatles on YouTube.

I loved spending time with Harry, it was very lovely. He always took me to my therapy sessions, he made sure I was always A-OK. He always helped me with my studies, too.

"So, what's on the menu today?" He asked me.

"Well I have history, math…OR… We can kiss" I said, and kissed him tenderly.

"The third one sounds very good." He said, and pushed me on the bed. He then laid on me, kissing every part of my face, and neck.

"Can't-breath" I said, faking suffocation noises.

"Oh, sorry" He said, and used his elbows to hover over me, so he doesn't kill me. He then continued to kiss me. I was playing with his hair. It was really soft.

"What conditioner do you use?" I said, pulling away.

"I don't really know…Something my hairstylist suggested." He said, as he was kissing my neck.

"It's really soft, like a pillow" I said and he smiled in my neck "Like cotton" I said, he smiled again, and continued to kiss me "Oh great, now I want cotton candy." I said, like little kids say when he wants a toy in a store filled with toys.

"Could you not speak right now?" He said, laughing. I guess I was killing the mood. But what was I suppose to do? I WANTED COTTON CANDY!

"Harry, when a girl says she wants cotton candy-" I didn't finish my sentence when he cut me off

"I will buy you a cotton candy machine, can you be quiet for a moment and let me enjoy this?" He said, and went back to kissing me. He found my weak spot, and a soft moan was released from my mouth. He smiled, and continued. He started kissing my collar bone. He got carried away, and so did I. I didn't mind him kissing me anywhere right now. As he was going lower, I got my legs up, and tied them around his waist. Our bodies couldn't be closer. He was basically lying ON me. The whole time he was kissing me, I had my hands in his hair, and even time he kissed my weak spot, i grabbed his hair tighter, and pulled it a little. I felt his boner, and he was definitely turning me on too. We were interrupter by Niall's barging in.

"Hey, you guys want to-" He stopped when he saw us. Harry got off me, and I put my legs down. "I'm sorry, I didn't know i would interrupt. Carry on" He said as he closed the door smirking. Harry sent a seductive smile towards me. I got up and went on my laptop.

"Come back" Said Harry, lying on his back.

"Make me" I said, acting all cold. He got to the corner of the bed, and picked me up in his arms. He laid me down on the other side of the bed and started to tickle me as he was lying again over me.

"Stop, stop you're gonna kill me!" I was screaming.

"Oh darling, I would never kill you. I love you" He said and continued to tickle me. After few moments, I was out of breath and he noticed so he stopped.

"Thank you" I said, catching my breath. He kissed me on the lips a few times before his tongue entered my mouth. The kiss became more passionate by the second. He again started to kiss my neck, and went lower and lower.

"Harry…" I said, as he almost reached my breasts.

"Mmm?" He said, not separating his lips from my skin.

"Don't…" I said, as he was pulling my shirt down. I didn't want him to stop, but it just didn't feel right. I don't know why.

"Ok, ok" He said, pulling away, and settling next to me. "Sorry. Got carried away" he said, looking at the selling.

I turned to him, and kissed his cheek.

"Well come on, you need to study." He said as he got up, and went looking for my math book. "Math first?" He said, holding the book.

"I guess. It's easier."

Harry's POV

I helped her study math. To be honest, she knew more than I did. She was excellent at math, and physics, and chemistry. And, of course, art, music and drama. But she hated history. She found it too hard, and so many years and places and events, she couldn't remember all of them.

"When am I going to need this?!" She exclaimed. I started laughing because every time she couldn't understand something in any of the subjects, she says that. It was really cute.

"You are going to need it so you don't fail, love" I said, and kissed her cheek.

"Well, I refuse to learn it" She said closing her book.

We spent the rest of the afternoon watching cartoons. I learned probably the most important thing about her, that was she is stubborn. VERY stubborn. There was no point in fighting about it when she sets her mind to it.

We watched Dora the explorer and laughed at everything because Dora was, as Jen said "fat child who's clothes don't fit her and talks to monkeys.". Then, we watched Sucker Punch. She got so into the movie, she literally said "I wish my step dad killed my sister so I can go and fight like her". But, at the end she just commented "On second thought, I don't like to be poked in the eye with sharp objects."

It became really late, and I had to leave. After the, what it seemed the millionth film ended, I got up.

"I have to go" I said, looking for my phone on the ground.

"No, no one more movie, please" She said, trying to stop me. "We'll watch whatever you want." She said.

"But you need to sleep, and so do I." I said. She pulled me by the hands, and I fell on the bed. "Don't, come on" I said, but I didn't want to get up. She didn't want to let go for more than a half an hour, but her mom came and I got away. She walked me to the door, and I kissed her. As I was going out, Leena came in.

Jenna's POV

"Where have you been?" I asked her, teasing her a little. "Niall?"

"Shut up" She said, blushing. She got upstairs and I followed her into her room. "Nothing happened, okay?" She said, still blushing.

"Come on Leena. Do tell." I said, as I jumped on her bed.

"We just went to the park, and then to the movies…and then went to dinner…Oh my god Jenna, he is really sweet you have no idea. I like him, but not in THAT way. He was giving me some tips on how to approach Richard. You know? Richard Robertson?" She bursted out.

"Calm down" I said laughing. I was happy for her. The next 30 minutes we talked about her and Richard and how she was thinking about making him ask her out. That's right, MAKING him. She never asked a boy out, and wasn't planning on it. Niall told her that he liked some girl, and was really nervous around her. She gave him tips on how to ask her out. Basically they were helping each other. It was really sweet.

After that, I went to bed. When I put my hand under the pillow, i found something. It was Harry's phone. I didn't want to read his e-mails or messages, so I didn't. Instead, I clicked the twitter app and he was logged in.

'Dear Harry

Where is your phone?

Sincerely, Oh it's right here.'

I wrote on his twitter. 5 minutes later I had a reply from Lou

'Dear Jen

I'm there in 10 minutes

Sincerely, death.'

I started to laugh. 10 minutes later, he came. He threw a rock at the window in the hallway, but I heard the knock, so I opened mine.

"Romeo, wrong window" I shouted. He laughed.

"My phone, please" he said smirking.

"I'll be right down." I said. I got his phone and sneaked downstairs. Everyone was sleeping.

"Thank you" He said, as I gave him his phone. He then pecked me on the lips. "I love you" He said in a whisper.

"Okay" I said and closed the door in his face. I heard him laughing. I laughed too. After that I went to bed.

***

Harry's POV

I woke up on friday. It was pretty early. I had a meeting at 11, but it was like 9. After the meeting I picked up Jenna from school.

"Where are we going?" She said, as she put her seatbelt on.

"How did it go on history?" I asked.

"I don't like to talk about it." She said. Se was frowning. I guess it didn't go well, considering the fact that she didn't want to study yesterday.

"You still want that cotton candy?" I said, trying to cheer her up. We went to the amusement park. It had the best cotton candy. On the other hand, no cotton candy is bad cotton candy. She cheered up while we were on some of the rides. After two hours, she was normal again.

"If I can eat one thing for the rest of my life, it would be cotton candy" She said, stuffing her face with cotton candy. We went back to my house. When we walked inside, Lou was lying on the couch int he living room.

"Is he sleeping?" She asked me, whispering.

"Maybe" I said, as I hung our coats.

"Well, let's see" She said. Few moments later she ran and jumped on him. "Lou! wakey wakey" She sad as she sat on his back.

"I will kill you" Said Lou quietly. She started to laugh.

"Come on. We have cotton candy." She said and got off him.

"Where's Harry?" Said Lou, still not moving a muscle.

"Here." I said, as I walked in the living room. "You ok?" I said, as I sat on the corner of the couch.

"No. I hate the female population" Lou said, still not moving, and dived in a pillow with his face.

"You finally came out of the closet? Oh Lou, I'm so proud. All the Directioners will support you now" Joked Jen. But I knew Lou wasn't joking. Something was wrong. I gave Jen a don't-joke look. And she immediately became serious.

"What's wrong Lou?" She asked concerned.

"Nothing." Louis said as he got up. His eyes were a little red. He walked towards the door, I went after him and gave Jen a sign to stay in the living room. While he was putting his coat on, I asked him

"What's up?" I was concerned "Have you been crying?"

"We'll talk later. Have fun with Jen" He said, and got up.

"No, no. Hold on. Go upstairs, I'll tell Jenna to leave,so we can talk ok? Come on" I said, and he listened to me. After I went in the living room to talk to Jenna.

"What wrong?" Said Jenna worried.

"I have to talk to him, do you mind leaving? I'll call you later" I said. She was very understanding about it.

"Okay. I love you" She said as she was opening the door.

"Love you too, bye." I said, and then went upstairs. Lou was lying on the bed. "Ok, talk." I said.

He started to talk about El. They had another fight. Lately they've been fighting very often. She picks fights out of random things. And I know El, she can over do a joke sometimes, and Lou could get it too literally and makes and elephant out of a mouse. This was like any other fight of theirs, about a random thing one of them said. But I was really sympathetic. After an hour he cooled off, and called Eleanor to talk. After, he went to meet up with her. It was about 9pm when that happened. So I called Zayn Liam and Niall to hang out.

"So what's going on with you and Jen, Eddy?" Said Zayn. Lately he's been calling me Eddy. Go figure.

"It's ok" I said blushing. "Don't call me Eddy, Javadd!" I said. We all started to laugh because I could never pronounce Zayn's middle name correctly. We all started drinking, and Liam was stuck with tea. We had typical guy conversations. I was a little drunk when my phone rang. Liam answered it.

Jenna's POV

"Hello" Said someone. It wasn't Harry's voice.

"It's not Harry." I said.

"I know" It was Liam. I recognized him. "How are you?" He asked politely.

"Ok, sort of. I'm really bored. B-ored!" i said. I heard music in the back, and someone shouting random things. I couldn't understand anything. "You can get back to your party Liam, and tell Harry to call me when he can" I said. He said ok, and I hung up.

I played Sims 3 for a while. I had the perfect virtual life. It was a friday night, and I was playing Sims 3. Woohoo! My phone rang. It was Chelsea.

"Hey Chelsea" I answered.

"Hey Jen, what are you up to? Have any plans for tonight?" She asked.

"None whatsoever." I said.

"You are not with your perfect boyfriend Harry?" She said, teasing me.

"No, he's with the guys. I don' like to invade their guys night." I said.

"Well come on, let's have a girls night. I'm with Britt and Lucy at Starbucks. We are having the time of our lives" She said, and the last sentence was sarcastic. I started to get ready. After I finally found something to wear, I went downstairs, where Rob blocked my way.

"And where are you going?" He asked me nicely.

"Out with Brit, Cheals and Lucy." I said "I'm not sure where we are going, I'm really bored to stay home" I said as I was putting my coat.

"It's 10:30. It's late for you to go out now." He said. I guess mom had a talk with him to act like a father towards me, because we always had a friendly relationship, but not like we are father and daughter.

"Oh come on. Please, I am really bored. What could possibly happen to me? It's not that late…" I said, and walked out of the door.

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