I've got a war in my mind

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Twisting some of my coffee brown hair around my fingers, I flop back onto my bed. My shoulders drop and my breathing slows down. Everything is okay. I'm miles away from everyone who hates me. I'm with my family and the boy that loves me most in the world.

"A-Avery?" He whispers.

"Mhmm?" I roll over and look into his bright green eyes. They look like someone could drown in them. So dark but so bright. Like a star. Someone could hide inside them. Hide their dark, twisted secrets in them.

"D-Do you want t-to go and s-see your f-family."

"I'm okay." I smile and roll into his arms.

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When I next wake up, Marcel is sitting in an arm chair; watching Supernatural. I laugh. He hated those kind of shows but when I forced him into watching it, he started to like it.

"Really? Supernatural?"

He blushes. I swing my body from the bed and then wrap my arms around his neck, planting kisses along it, "I miss the time that we used to spend together."

"W-What times?"

"Do you remember when you gave me the promise ring?"

"Y-Yes. W-What happened to i-it?"

"I - I - I threw it away." I mumble. I'm ashamed of what I did. I threw away the ring that he gave me. The boy that loves me most in the world gave me the most beautiful promise ring and I threw it away.

"W-Why?"

"Because you called me broken." My voice catches in my lungs and comes out in a vicious hiss. I never asked for this. I never asked to have ever part of my body shattered into a million pieces.

"I'm s-sorry."

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My slim body drives into the chlorinated pool and I flip onto my back. The water is cooling down my mind and my thoughts about killing Marcel. It doesn't really matter that he brought up the promise ring. It's that he brought up the fact that he brought up the broken part. He's not wrong.

I'm sorry Marcel.

Someone jumps in next to me and then I roll over to see who it is. Lily.

"Hey Avery." She smiles.

"Hey Lils."

"What's wrong?"

"Just thinking."

"About what?"

Lie, Avery. If she finds out about everything then - "Hannah."

"Oh. I heard about that."

"It's fine." I smile and look over at her.

Awkward silence. I smile at Lily and then awkwardly get out of the pool. Twisting my hair into a messy bun, I walk over to the main lounge room and watch the edge of the sun set over the crystal blue ocean.

Notes

This chapter is dedicated to the faaaaabulous Iloveharrystylesforever who constantly puts up with my crap. <3 Promise that Unique will be in the next chapter. Thanks. And you should go and have a look at her story An Alternate Universe, because due to the fact that I'm fabulous, Avery is in it :D

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