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It Takes Patience

Chapter 41: Out in the Open

*Reagan’s POV*
I lied down looking at Harry for what seemed like hours. I took in every ounce of him from the way his eyelashes fan to frame his beautiful eyes, to the smallest amount of freckles on his nose that most would miss if they didn’t look closely, to the scars on his hands that I want to kiss away, to the way that his brows are still furrowed while he stares back at me...Why is he still frowning? I reached up to rub the space between his eyebrows to smooth away the wrinkles he’s putting there and they disappear momentarily only to return despite my efforts. I leaned in to kiss his lips and he kissed me back but the look on his face didn’t change.

“Harry will you please stop looking at me like that?”

“I can't! I’m still pissed!” Harry whisper shouted at me and I quickly respond in the same way.

“What for Harold?! If anyone should be angry here it’s me!” Harry rolled his eyes then looked back at me.

“What do you have to be angry for?”

“Harry you said some evil shit to me!”

“I’m bipolar glasses! I say some evil shit to everyone! Sometimes I don’t mean it.” I fight back a smile when I hear him call me glasses and scoff instead. He can’t seriously think that he will get to blame what he said on his disorder.

“How am I supposed to know what you do and don’t mean? I’m not a damn mind reader! I care about you and you know that. I told you that, I mean that, I go out of my way to show you that even when you’re unaware of it!” A look of guilt flashes in Harry’s eyes and I know he thought about when he ran off to Cheshire and I went with his friends to look for him. He changes his position from lying on his side, to lying on his stomach and folding his arms while lying his head down on them.

“The way you acted when I was telling you about...In the café you just seemed all too eager to record it. I made myself think that you just wanted a story, so I gave you one and was ready to wash my hands of you after it was over....” I looked at Harry and began to furrow my eyebrows feeling anger rise again after he spoke.

“How can you say that?! I tried to console you so you could get through the story and you snapped at me.”

“I don’t like pity or sympathy and I had already told myself you only did that for the assignment not for me!”

“So you’re mad at me for some shit that you put into your own head, something I have absolutely nothing to do with mind you, so you could be done with me and hurt me in the process?”

“Don’t act like you haven’t said hurtful shit too Reagan! You have!” I rolled my eyes and turned my back to Harry causing him to grab me and turn me over on my back to make eye contact again.

“Don’t do that! It’s rude! We’re talking. You wanted to talk so suck it up!”

“You have no argument!”

“I do! I’ve never talked about that subject to anyone except my family and friends after it happened and Dr. Baker and Paul. And I’ve only ever talked to them once or twice about it before making them change the subject! And when I told you about it accidentally at my mum’s house I knew that you would look at me differently by the expression on your face.”

“And how do you know that Harry? You didn’t even give me a chance to process what you said after it came out. You yelled at me and told me to leave! You can’t just drop bombs like that and expect no one to react before they say anything.” Harry looked at me and pursed his lips before the look on his face softened slightly.

“But you did didn’t you? You looked at me different. Don’t lie tell me the truth.” I looked at Harry and bit my lip before I answered.

“Yes...” a pained look flashed in Harry’s eyes before he looked away from me. I put my hand on his face to draw his eyes back to mine

“...but only because you didn’t tell me everything! I’m sorry. You didn’t give me a chance H. and it was self-defense. There was nothing else that you could have do-”

“Can we just not talk about it anymore today please?!” I looked at Harry and shook my head yes knowing that it took a lot for him to tell me about it earlier and that I would have to take baby steps to get him to tell me more about it again.

“Do you have anything you want to say to me?” I looked at Harry and waited for a reply.

“...No...” My mouth dropped open slightly and I moved to get up out of the bed before he grabbed my arm and pulled me back down.

“Okay Okay! I’m sorry for some of the shit I said! Gosh you have no idea how to take a joke!” Harry turned me to face him and we were once again in the position we started off in.

“This isn’t a time to joke with me Harry!”

“Okaaaay! Shut up.” Harry furrowed his eyebrows and then he smiled at me showing his dimples. I tried to keep the scowl on my face but I haven’t seen a smile, a sincere smile on his face for days. A smile broke out on my face causing him to chuckle and pull me even closer to him than I already was. All of me wanted to ask him what this meant for us, but I decided not to push the matter since we just got back on some type of good terms.

“When did you get here? We hadn’t been texting for that long before you came over unannounced.” Harry slid down the bed and laid his head on my stomach right underneath my chest. When he started to trace circles on the material of my shirt by my stomach with his finger he made another smile come across my lips.

“I was just in the neighborhood...” I looked down at Harry and pursed my lips and he looked back up at me raising one of his eyebrows.

“Okay fine! I went to Niall’s house after I left here. He lives in the area. I wasn’t sure what to do after I left you so I called him...I kind of wanted to come back here to you but my bipolar didn’t let me.” Harry said the last part quietly and I smirked again.

“You mean your stubbornness? I'm not accepting you putting the blame for every wrong thing you do on that. How did you know I would be home this time?”

“I didn’t. I just got lucky I guess.” I grinned and continued to question H.

“What did you do at Niall’s house?”


“Harry?!” I yelled at him and snatched off the beanie he was wearing on his head to get his attention.


“You’re not telling me the truth!” Harry smirked and turned on the bed to face me laying his head back down on my stomach.

“We smoked some weed and he went with me to get a new tattoo. I was tense and I needed to calm down. You made me angry and hurt my feelings when you said all you wanted from me was a fuck.” Harry whined and I could feel myself start to get angry again.

“Harry we talked about this! You shouldn’t be smoking weed and I didn't say that! You said you wouldn’t do it again!” I sat up making Harry’s head go into my lap. He had a goofy grin on his face that only upset me more.

“We talked about ecstasy! You never said anything to me about weed. Weed doesn’t do anything but make me feel relaxed...and sleepy...and hungry. Usual side affects Reagan. It doesn’t act with my medication like X would. But in my defense, I didn’t even take my evening dose of medication the day I did the X because I know that would have been a bad trip.” Harry looked up at me as if his statement was logical.

“How is anything you just said supposed to make me feel any better about the situation? When we spoke about the X I meant all drugs Harry! We want you moving forward not backwards! What if Dr. Baker decides to give you a drug test tomorrow then what?” Harry rolled his eyes and turned his back to me.

“Don’t do that its rude!” I mocked H. causing him to chuckle and turn to lie on his back. When our eyes met Harry gave me the mischievous look I’ve seen too many times before and I force myself to look away knowing how weak he makes me and I can’t be bothered right now...maybe later.

“Have you told any of your friends about us?”

“No.” Harry scoffs and I feel a sting run through my body. He notices my facial expression and corrects himself.

“I didn’t mean it like that to hurt your feelings, don’t be so sensitive. I just don’t want to say anything that could get you in trouble and sometimes they let things slip on accident in front of the wrong people. I’ll tell them when you’re internship is finished.” I turned my head to hide my blush before I asked Harry about Niall and Laurie. The fact that he’s thinking about us after my internship is over makes butterflies return to my stomach.

“Yeah he seems to really like the bird. She must be a good lay or something. He talked about her the whole time I was at his house.” I swat Harry’s arm at his comment and feel somewhat jealous. I wish Harry could talk about me that way.

“So you got a new tattoo? Can I see it? How did you get the money to get so many of them? You don’t have a job.” I started to laugh as Harry’s face got more and more scrunched with each question I asked him.

“Uhhh yes I got some new tattoos. You can see them if you can find where I got them. I had a job when I was 16 and started to get them. I have some money put away that my dad saved for me and Gemma before he died and my friend is a tattoo artist so I get a discount.” I laughed again as Harry lifted his head off my lap and lied down next to me.

“Well then come on...” I looked at him confused as he lied there crossing his arms behind his head.

“Search me. I’ll tell you when you get hot and when you get cold.” I straddled H. not thinking as I agreed to play his little game and I could feel the mood shift in the room when I did. Harry licked his lips then looked at me with the sexiest expression I have ever seen.

“How do you want me to do it? To look for them?” I corrected myself and Harry’s eyes went darker as they began to dilate. He grabbed one of my hands and placed them on his stomach before he spoke.

“Just slide your hands around and I’ll tell you if you’re hot or cold.” His voice was huskier than it was before and I could see his growing erection straining against his skinny jeans. I slid down his legs sure to graze him in just the right spot, as I got down to the edge of the bed by his feet. I heard his sharp intake of breath before I spoke.

“Im going to start down here and then move up.” Harry smirked and slowly nodded his head as I started to move my hands starting at his ankles.

“Cold I already have tattoos there” I moved his jeans up slightly and saw the writing on both of his legs right before his feet. The ink seemed older so I began to move my hands up slowly and rested it on his leg by his calf.

“Cold.” I moved my hands up some more and stopped them when I got to his thighs. His chest was rising and falling at a quicker pace and his eyes were now almost black. He turns me on so much. I feel like walking sex when he’s so close and I can’t take it anymore. I move my hands up again and hook my fingers inside his jeans. When I go to try and unbutton and unzip his pants to free him, Harry sits up and stops me shaking his head.

“Nooo no, no, no, no.” I sit on his legs and start to pout while he holds my hands and looks at me amused.

“But why not? I can see that you want me to. I want to for you...” Harry licks his lips and closes his eyes briefly before he bites his lip.

“I don’t think we should. Not now anyway. We just started to talk to each other again and we have to see how this goes first. I have to know how to deal with you and you clearly have to learn how to deal with me.” Harry smiles but I can see a small amount of panic in his eyes. I started to feel bad because he just said he thought all i wanted him for was sex, but keeping my hands off of him will probably be one of the hardest things that I will have to do besides tell Peyton I can't be with him. I want H. so much and every time we have sex I crave him more and more when it's over. I nod my head, get off of his lap, and see him check his watch before he reaches in his pocket and takes out his phone to call Paul. When he got off the phone he rose from the bed and began to put his shoes back on.

“Where are you going?” I started to get nervous when I think about how he left earlier.

“I’ve got to leave some time glasses. Don’t worry it’s not like earlier today, plus if I don’t leave now I’m afraid I’ll be raped.” I snapped my head up to look at him while I blushed and he grinned at me.

“You’re so cute when you’re embarrassed.” I roll my eyes and get up to walk him to the door. When we get to the living room, Harry puts his hands on my sides squeezes them and then starts to kiss me. We both get so lost in the kiss and in each other that we didn’t even hear Channel walk in.

“AHEM!” Channel clears her throat loudly when I break the kiss and step away from H. with a nervous look on my face and Harry looks majorly annoyed by the loss of contact. Channel grins at both of us and I know it’s not long until the teasing starts.

“So did I miss the good part or am I just in time?” I glare at Channel and am happy at the same time that it’s only her coming in and not Laurie too.

“She knows Harry its fine.” Harry looks at me with a raised eyebrow and a quizzical look on his face.

“Not everything, just about us.” The look on his face softens before he looks back to Channel.

“Since you guys haven’t met officially, Harry this is Channel my best friend from back home, Channel this is Harry.” They said hello to one another at the same time and a weird tension rose in the room.

“Your eyes are much prettier when they’re not glassy and red rimmed.” When Channel spoke I could have killed her. Harry looked at her with brashness beginning to cover his features before he spoke and I knew it would be nothing nice.

“And you were much prettier when your mouth was closed.” And there it is. Channel smirked before she spoke and I grabbed her before she opened her mouth. I wasn’t sure who to be angrier at or concerned for between the two of them. Both of them can be harsh once they get going. I’ve been on the end of both of their wraths to know.

“Stop it! Harry I will see you tomorrow before we get to session.” I glare at him and he glares back at me before quickly kissing the corner of my mouth and leaving. I turn to Channel when I am sure H. is out of the hallway before I let her have it.

“What the fuck Channel?! What was that about?” Channel takes a seat at the breakfast bar stool in the kitchen before she answers plainly.

“I got protective. You’re like my sister Rea and you cried over him so hard and so much on several occasions, might I add. It was bound to come out. Better sooner than later. I’m over it now. You can continue to fuck him if you want and I will be nice I promise. But you might want to be more careful seeing as you gave Laurie a key. What if it was her who came up and not me?” Channel half laughs and I cringe at the way she talks about Harry and I but she’s right. I’m going to break it to Peyton soon and I want to tell him first before Laurie knows, not that I think she would tell, it would just be better that way.

“We didn’t fu- have sex Nel. We just talked. He told me he wants to be with me and I want to be with him.” Channel gives me a shocked look and then smiles but I can tell that it’s not genuine because it doesn’t reach her eyes.


“Nothing...” My blood starts to boil. I hate it when I can tell people are lying to me, especially Channel.

“Channel tell me, please! You know I hate that.”

"I just don’t think it’s the best idea anymore Rea. I told you that before, but it’s not me who has to deal with it it’s you. I will be here for you regardless, but I just don’t see it working out.” I walk back in my room and get into bed. I wish I hadn’t asked her. I love Channel but she can be so infuriating sometimes. It was her idea to keep both Peyton and Harry in the first place and now all of a sudden it’s a bad idea to have Harry in the picture all together. I feel my body get tired and I drift off into a dream state of what it will be like when Harry and I don’t have to worry about the consequences of a relationship anymore.


So Harry and Reagan finally get to air out some issues that they have with each other but will it be enough to keep what ever they have at the moment going? What do you guys think? You know i love to get comments and read them and reply so be sure to leave me some! I love you guys and thank you for trying to see how to get the ratings for my story up! I have already set aside notes for the sequel to the story lol. Be sure to vote and subscribe if you have not done so already and you are enjoying the story. Love you for reading as always! Xx :D


I have read this story loads of times just wish you had finished it it is absolutely amazing. So so good

Niki Niki

I'm sorry I just saw this comment! I'm definitely going to update the 3rd part of the story! I'm so sorry that I'm taking a while. Its just because I'm at school but I PROMISE I will finish it xx


Are you going to update on this story please I need to know what happens please update and I hope they stay together and with a happy ending they deserve it

Elizabeth1Dfan Elizabeth1Dfan

Oh my gosh! I just saw this and it made my night! Thank you so much! Please continue to comment as you read and I'll respond to you. Comments make me so happy lol xx


God! This is soooooooo amazing!