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It Takes Patience

Chapter 24: Recurrences

*Harry’s POV*
“Where the fuck have you been?!” I’m not trying to smile but I can’t help it. I've been in a shit mood all day and this helps.

“You better answer me you dozy fucker! And wipe that damn grin off your face or I’ll do it for you!”

I woke up in a cold sweat and squinted at the clock on my bedside table that read 2:12 am. I had only been asleep for about two hours this time, before the dream started. Knowing that I wouldn't allow myself to fall back to sleep, I went downstairs turned on the television and texted Liam knowing that he would be the only one awake right now.

To: Liam

It happened again...
From: Liam
How bad was it?
To: Liam
I can handle it never mind.....
From: Liam
Don’t be a dick! Was it bad or not?
To: Liam
It’s fine asshole! I don’t even know why I told you....I’m just going to watch telly until I fall asleep again.
From: Liam
Tell Reagan tomorrow or I will! Not everything of course, but at least that you have bad dreams.
To: Liam
Don’t be a cunt!
From: Liam
I’m serious Harry!

I threw my phone against the wall, thankful that I was in the basement and that my mum was a heavy sleeper. Here lately I can feel my mood shifts happen as if they were a living thing inside of me. I went upstairs took two of my aripiprazole and went back downstairs to watch TV until the sun came up for the fifth time this week.

*Reagan’s POV*
Today is going to be the best day! It’s Sunday and that meant that Channel would be here at three. Harry and I also got the day off from going to session today! I hopped out of bed giddy when my alarm went off and called Harry to make sure that he was awake. While I waited for an answer, I walked into the kitchen to make sure I had everything I could in order before my best friend gets here. He answered me on the seventh ring.

“Are you up Harold or do I have to come roll you out of bed?” I asked jokingly.

“I’m up.” When Harry replied, his answer was short and cold.

“You really must not be a morning person.”

“Nope.” After our texts last night I couldn’t put a grip on why he was being so short with me. I didn’t do anything to him. This has to be an episode.

“Hey um not to be pushy or anything but did you take your medication because-” Harry cut me off before I could finish.

“This has nothing to do with medication! I just don’t feel like dealing with you today! You’re honestly so fucking annoying especially in the goddamn morning!"

“Harry I will be there in twenty minutes. I suggest you fix your fucking attitude, take your, medicine and suck it up!” I hung up the phone before he could respond. I wouldn't let anything ruin my day today.

When I got to Harry’s house, I paid the taxi fare and rang the doorbell to be answered by a smiling Ms. Cox.

“Hello Reagan, how are you today? Harry, get downstairs!” I smiled back and greeted her as she let me in and went to the stairs to call Harry again when she got no reply.

“Harold Edward Styles?!”


“Reagan is here.”

“So? She knows where the stairs are and she has legs and feet...” Harry replied annoyed and his mother flashed me an apologetic smile before telling me that he has been in a bad mood this morning.

I assured her that I could deal with Harry before she went into the kitchen to start making breakfast. When I got up the stairs, Harry was sitting in the loveseat in his room wearing a grey tank, a blue zip up with the hood covering half of his hair which was extremely curly today and black sweats. My heart began to speed up in my chest before I stepped into his room and sat on the bed. He didn’t acknowledge me and continued to watch the television when I spoke but, I started up my tape recorder regardless.

“So you clearly in a better mood than earlier when we were on the phone.” I spoke sarcastically and finally gained a glare from him. When I finally saw his eyes he looked worn out. They were red rimmed and had dark circles under them and he was hauntingly pale, a lot like the day he got sick from the mistake that nurse made except somehow worse.

“Harry, are you okay? Did you take your medicine?” I was almost afraid that my body would shut down and not ask the question in fear of getting chewed out.

“Aripiprazole” he replied without looking at me.


“Aripiprazole is the medication I take. They are mood stabilizers not happy pills. They help with depression sometimes but that’s not their purpose. I have a whole other set of pills for that. These keep my mood from shifting as much as it did before....” Harry paused momentarily and then continued.

“So to answer your question, yes I took it and now I’m stable in the mood that I’m in.”

“And what mood would that be? You sound like a robot.” Harry looked at me with a flat expression on his face. He wasn’t angry, he wasn’t playful. He wasn’t anything, just blank.

“Well I took two pills last night because I was angry, I think. Then I couldn’t sleep and yelled at you on the phone so I took two more because I was angry and tired. So now...I don’t know. I think I’m tired, but...I don’t know.”

“Harry you can’t just pop pills like that and you know it!” I scolded him and he looked back at the tv.

“You suggested it. I was only listening to your suggestion.” Looking at Harry now, I felt bad about every time I told him to go take his meds when his mood changed slightly. I didn’t want him to turn into a shell of himself.

“Can you tell me why you were angry last night?”

“No...I forgot why.” Harry looked down at his fingers and started to fidget with them. He’s clearly lying.

“Well can you tell me why you couldn’t sleep?”



“Why is that” I asked Harry hoping for him to tell me the truth. He looked back at me and grinned then looked back down at his fingers and began to fidget again.

“It’s embarrassing....”

“Tell me.”

“It’s because my dick was too hard and it made it uncomfortable to sleep so I stayed up all night wanking and watching television. Pornographic channels mostly.” Just as I thought I was going to get somewhere, Harry shut me out. Even though I’m annoyed I’m glad that Harry is pulling out of his robotic mode. I rolled my eyes at him then threw a blank piece of paper from my notebook at his head and he furrowed his eyebrows and tried to suppress a grin when he looked back at the television.

“What do you want to do today? I’m only shadowing you for a little while today because I have to pick up my friend from the airport.”

“I don’t know.”

“Where are your friends at? Do you want to go by there?”

“I don’t know.”

“When is the last time you got a good eight hours of sleep?”

“I don’t know.” Harry was driving me crazy the more I tried to pull him out of himself, the more he evaded my questions. I can’t get anywhere when he’s like this! I stopped the tape recorder, there was no point in recording myself ask questions to get no real reply.

“Harry say ‘I don’t know’ one more time and I will lose my shit!” Harry laughed and looked back at me turning off the tv.

“You owe me answers today and you said that you would be in a ‘giving mood’ by now so get to it.”

“Louis, Niall, Zayn, and Liam are all at work. I got eight hours of sleep last night, and I really don’t know what I want to do today. Also, I didn’t mean giving in a talkative type of way glasses.” I could feel my blood tingle inside of my body and my pulse quicken. My body is betraying my brain again. Please don’t do this to me, not now.

“Well I need to get some groceries before I pick up Channel. You can come with me since you don’t know what you want to do.” I ignored his comment and thanked my brain for winning that round. Harry smirked got up and went to the bathroom to shower. I went back downstairs and waited for him knowing that if he came out of the bathroom in just a towel again my brain would melt and my body would take full control. I went downstairs and joined his mom on the couch watching tv and making small talk.

“How do you think Harry is handling being released?” I asked her to get a different perspective, plus if anyone knows him it’s his mom.

“Good, I’m so proud of him. Things used to be so different .When me and Gemma used to go visit him at Maudsley when he first was admitted sometimes he wouldn’t speak. Then when we would get ready to leave at the end of visiting hours he would break down. It broke our hearts to see him go through, and to not be able to stay with him was even worse on me. He has his bad moods here and there now and that’s to be expected but it’s nothing like before...”

Just as I was about to ask her why Harry was admitted in the first place he came downstairs wearing black skinny jeans, a white t-shirt and a black fedora. The color in his face had returned and he was back to looking like walking sex.

“Hey, hey stop your gossipin! You got me ready to go now you’re deep in conversation.” Harry was in a great mood. He walked over and kissed his mom on the cheek then smiled at her before nodding his head toward the door cuing me to stand up.

“Where are you two going?” Harry’s mom asked appreciative of Harry’s vivacity.

“Harry was going to accompany me to the grocery store. I have to pick up a few things before my friend from home gets here.”

“Oh, alright how are you getting there?”

“Just walking.”

“Nonsense. Harry has a car why don’t you take her?” Harry’s eyes lit up in excitement at the mention of his vehicle.

“You’re giving me my keys back?” Harry asked in a tone that mirrored his facial expression as his mother grabbed her key ring and took off a set of keys.

“I’m sure you’ll be fine Harold.” Ms. Cox handed Harry the keys and a small smile rested on her lips. Harry took them stuck his tongue out and ran out the back door.

“Hurry up glasses!” I thanked Harry’s mom before turning to leave and follow him. Harry pulled out of his garage in a midnight blue Jeep Patriot then unlocked the door so that I could get in. We got to the store in no time and I couldn’t be more thankful for the ride allowing me to get more groceries. On the way back to my apartment, I asked Harry more questions and answered some about myself.

“How did you get all of the tattoos?” Harry grinned looking at the road ahead while he answered.

“Louis is older so he has a friend that works in a shop that did them for me. I think I was 16 when I got the first one and then I got addicted, good distraction.” Distraction from what I needed to know. I tried to ask another question, but he cut me off to ask one about me.

“Why have you never had sex?” My eyes slightly popped. Why does it always come back to this? We were doing so well earlier.

“Um, honestly because guys always feel that they can and it’s a surprise factor when I tell them I won’t. I’m called a tease a lot back home and it’s funny because it’s a challenge.” Harry looked shocked by my answer.

“So you’re not waiting for any ‘Mr. Right’” Harry asked in a girly voice and batted his eyelashes causing me to chuckle and roll my eyes.

“Why does this interest you?”

“I’m a very sexual person when my mood is right glasses. I like to be open about it. I think it’s quite natural.” I hesitated before I spoke.

“No. I guess I’m not. I just enjoy the chase... Make a left here.” Harry looked me up and down and it was hard to read his facial expression. I chose to ignore it and instead help him get my groceries out of the car and into my apartment.


Hey guys, so this is a longer chapter but it's necessary ;) Thanks for all of your messages and comments on the story and keep them coming please! I love to receive feedback. Be sure to vote and comment if you haven't already. Also be sure to subscribe if you are enjoying it so far. Absolutely love you for reading! xx :)


I have read this story loads of times just wish you had finished it it is absolutely amazing. So so good

Niki Niki

I'm sorry I just saw this comment! I'm definitely going to update the 3rd part of the story! I'm so sorry that I'm taking a while. Its just because I'm at school but I PROMISE I will finish it xx


Are you going to update on this story please I need to know what happens please update and I hope they stay together and with a happy ending they deserve it

Elizabeth1Dfan Elizabeth1Dfan

Oh my gosh! I just saw this and it made my night! Thank you so much! Please continue to comment as you read and I'll respond to you. Comments make me so happy lol xx


God! This is soooooooo amazing!