Not Plastic
Chapter 1
*preface*
i had never felt secure about how i looked, and no one could debate the fact that beauty ruled the world. every where you look there are good looking people on ads and walking the streets. i'm not bad looking to the world around me, but i couldnt help but compare myself to everyone else. one day when i was feeling low i went to the park near my flat and met a great guy who soon became my best friend, along with his close friends. *present day (peytens pov)*
“Hello love,” louis said plopping down beside me on our favorite bench. “Hello louis,” you smiled. “How are you today?” “as good as always.” you say quietly. A little girl in a yellow sundress chased after a butterfly gigging to herself the whole time. “I wish we could go back to when we were little and didnt care how everyone saw us.” i stated while still watching the child play. “you can still be like that you know,”louis started. i gave him a quizicle look. ” really peyten, you shouldnt think about what people think. i mean nobodys opinion should matter except your own and mine that is.” louis finished. i thought this over as we walked down the shopping strip,i knew louis loved to shop so i went with him. we looked for hours before louis dragged me into a toy shop. “Why are we here?” you asked louis curiousity filling me. “Lux’s 2nd birthday party is tomarrow,” louis answered. i didnt think to much till we came across the barbie section. “I wish i could be as perfect as barbie,” i muttered to myself. the world saw barbie as the perfect person. and i couldnt deny that i wish i could be a barbie, even to just see how it feels to be perfect. i went home that night and thought about everything louis had said. i went to bed feeling a mixture of emotions ranging from sad to glad.
*dream state*
“I actually look good today,” i thought to myself aloud as i examined my apperence in the mirror. “no you dont! how could you ever look good?” my reflection spouted from the mirror. i ran out of my flat and into the park that i knew and loved so much. i felt better sitting on the bench that me and louis visited so often. “Your such a loser! cant you get a life?” my reflection in the fountain yelled out to me. again all i did was run. thats all i felt i could do. everytime one of my tears hit the concrete they would yell harsh comments at me. at one point i ended up back at my flat. i looked in the mirror and saw my tear and mascara stained face, which only made me cry harder. Soon i stopped being sad and became furious. i yelled back at my reflection and out of anger and insanity i smashed the mirror with the closest thing to me.
*Present(peytens pov)*
“peyten” louis yelled while shaking me awake. “what?” i grumbled getting out of bed. “we need to go meet up with everyone. i came to get you because you over slept.” louis explained handing me clothes to change into before we left.(outfit) when we arrived at the party the girlfriends were sitting in a table chating, while the boys were playing with lux. i joined the girls. “hey babe how are you,” jasmine greeted me. “good. hows the party?”you joked. “SSSLLLOOOWWW” Eleanor joked smiling. after the party me, jasmine, harry, perrie, and zayn went back to my flat. “so elizabeth’s surprise birthday bash is this wednesday,”perrie informed us. jasmine and perrie had to be my best friends of the girls, we hung out the most and told each other everything. but when it came to elizabeth, i didnt have a true problem with her. she is nialls girlfriend. and i had to admit i had a very small crush on him and im sure that is why she doesnt like me much. we all chatted for a while.”peyten?” i heard harry call from my bathroom. “yeah?” i answered. “why is your mirror broken?” harry said walking over to the couch to join us.
i had never felt secure about how i looked, and no one could debate the fact that beauty ruled the world. every where you look there are good looking people on ads and walking the streets. i'm not bad looking to the world around me, but i couldnt help but compare myself to everyone else. one day when i was feeling low i went to the park near my flat and met a great guy who soon became my best friend, along with his close friends. *present day (peytens pov)*
“Hello love,” louis said plopping down beside me on our favorite bench. “Hello louis,” you smiled. “How are you today?” “as good as always.” you say quietly. A little girl in a yellow sundress chased after a butterfly gigging to herself the whole time. “I wish we could go back to when we were little and didnt care how everyone saw us.” i stated while still watching the child play. “you can still be like that you know,”louis started. i gave him a quizicle look. ” really peyten, you shouldnt think about what people think. i mean nobodys opinion should matter except your own and mine that is.” louis finished. i thought this over as we walked down the shopping strip,i knew louis loved to shop so i went with him. we looked for hours before louis dragged me into a toy shop. “Why are we here?” you asked louis curiousity filling me. “Lux’s 2nd birthday party is tomarrow,” louis answered. i didnt think to much till we came across the barbie section. “I wish i could be as perfect as barbie,” i muttered to myself. the world saw barbie as the perfect person. and i couldnt deny that i wish i could be a barbie, even to just see how it feels to be perfect. i went home that night and thought about everything louis had said. i went to bed feeling a mixture of emotions ranging from sad to glad.
*dream state*
“I actually look good today,” i thought to myself aloud as i examined my apperence in the mirror. “no you dont! how could you ever look good?” my reflection spouted from the mirror. i ran out of my flat and into the park that i knew and loved so much. i felt better sitting on the bench that me and louis visited so often. “Your such a loser! cant you get a life?” my reflection in the fountain yelled out to me. again all i did was run. thats all i felt i could do. everytime one of my tears hit the concrete they would yell harsh comments at me. at one point i ended up back at my flat. i looked in the mirror and saw my tear and mascara stained face, which only made me cry harder. Soon i stopped being sad and became furious. i yelled back at my reflection and out of anger and insanity i smashed the mirror with the closest thing to me.
*Present(peytens pov)*
“peyten” louis yelled while shaking me awake. “what?” i grumbled getting out of bed. “we need to go meet up with everyone. i came to get you because you over slept.” louis explained handing me clothes to change into before we left.(outfit) when we arrived at the party the girlfriends were sitting in a table chating, while the boys were playing with lux. i joined the girls. “hey babe how are you,” jasmine greeted me. “good. hows the party?”you joked. “SSSLLLOOOWWW” Eleanor joked smiling. after the party me, jasmine, harry, perrie, and zayn went back to my flat. “so elizabeth’s surprise birthday bash is this wednesday,”perrie informed us. jasmine and perrie had to be my best friends of the girls, we hung out the most and told each other everything. but when it came to elizabeth, i didnt have a true problem with her. she is nialls girlfriend. and i had to admit i had a very small crush on him and im sure that is why she doesnt like me much. we all chatted for a while.”peyten?” i heard harry call from my bathroom. “yeah?” i answered. “why is your mirror broken?” harry said walking over to the couch to join us.
i will today!
8/14/13