Nothing
Chapter 1
PAIGE'S POV:
"No, STOP!" I squealed as Chris lifted me up in his big, strong, muscular arms, hovering me over the pool. My hands were gripped tightly around his neck, scratching him. "Fuck, you're hurting me!" He yelled. "Let go!" I said laughing. "Okay." He replied with a smirk. "Wait" I said but before I knew it, I was in mid air screaming at the top of my lungs until the cold water rushed through my entire body. I quickly swam to the surface and began breathing heavy and fast. Chris just sat at the poolside laughing to himself. "You think it's fucking funny?!" I yelled, which soon turned into laughing because I can't stay serious for too long. "Help me out?" I asked. He swooped me up in his arms and held me. I soon ruined the moment. "Ya know, thank god there's not a big mess in the pool because I have my period." I said laughing against his neck. He pushed me away. "Eh! You could've told me girl." He said disgusted. "Ugh you're such a boy! Ya know, most boyfriends would bring his girlfriend chocolates and sweets, and movies to watch and cuddle all night with her if they had their period." I commented. He stepped closer to me and held my face in his hands. "Well I'm not like most boyfriends." he said smiling. I rolled my eyes as he squished my face together and kissed me. He walked away, grabbed his towel and phone and walked back to me. "Where ya headed?" I asked. "I got to go. Today's gonna be a busy night so I just wanted to stop by my love." He said smiling. "Well I'm glad you did boo." I cooed as I wrapped my arms tightly round his waist. He kissed my forehead and left. "Love you!" I called out. "See ya babe!" I heard him faintly say. I nodded to myself and let out a sigh. It's noon, my boyfriend is busy all day, which basically means I'm staying inside all day, to do absolutely nothing with my dog.
When I opened the screen door, Rosie shot up from her spot on the couch and jumped crazily on me. I picked her up as she began to lick me all over my face. "Hi baby! How are you?" I cooed to her. I laughed when she sneezed but quickly put her back on the ground to run around. I strolled into my least favorite room-the kitchen. I don't do anything in there. I don't cook, I hate eating, so what's the point of having it? It's absolutely pointless, but Chris insists that I keep it. He always is on top of me to eat and to stay healthy but everything I eat, I just wanna throw up. I regret every single bite I take of every single thing. There are so many more cons than pros of eating. When you eat, you just gain weight, sometimes you get food poisoning and throw up, and just thinking of the carbs and everything is awful. Chris is really the only person in my life who helps me with my anorexia and bulimia. He stays by my side and cooks for me all time. That's why I love him.
But for the past week or two, he seems to be a bit more...distant to say the least. I mean he's just the type of person that's not too romantic and shit but, he doesn't spend more than like 3 hours with me anymore. Am I boring? Everytime Chris leaves I just think of all the other fun things he could be doing without me. Going to the beach, hanging out with his friends, not being socially awkward, and just enjoying his summer. Unlike me. I just stay home and wait for Chris to show up whenever. And everytime he's not with me, I'm a totally different person. After about an hour without him, I hate myself. The butterfly feeling he gives me, is gone when he is. So there's really nothing left for me but this boy. I would so much rather be dead if Chris weren't in my life.
"Come here Rosie!" I yelled to my dog as I ran up the stairs. She was instantly by my side and ran in front of me to go to my bed. I plopped down next to her and cuddled with her. I took out my phone and saw:nothing. Just like me. So I decided to text Chris really quick.
Me: Hey baby I know you said you were gonna be out today so I hope I'm not interrupting anything but I just wanted to say I miss you already! And if you can, stop by later but if not, I love you. And I'll see you tomorrow;)
Rosie than began jumping on top of me when I put my phone down. I laughed and shrieked as she licked me and began panting. When she heard the mailman approaching the front door, she quickly stormed off of my body and scurried off down the the stairs. "Ah! Shit." I growled. I looked down at my leg and saw that when she ran off, she left a deep cut in my thigh. It began to slightly bleed, and slowly dripped down my leg. I watched the blood pour and ooze down, not even fazed. This was becoming normal for me.
"No, STOP!" I squealed as Chris lifted me up in his big, strong, muscular arms, hovering me over the pool. My hands were gripped tightly around his neck, scratching him. "Fuck, you're hurting me!" He yelled. "Let go!" I said laughing. "Okay." He replied with a smirk. "Wait" I said but before I knew it, I was in mid air screaming at the top of my lungs until the cold water rushed through my entire body. I quickly swam to the surface and began breathing heavy and fast. Chris just sat at the poolside laughing to himself. "You think it's fucking funny?!" I yelled, which soon turned into laughing because I can't stay serious for too long. "Help me out?" I asked. He swooped me up in his arms and held me. I soon ruined the moment. "Ya know, thank god there's not a big mess in the pool because I have my period." I said laughing against his neck. He pushed me away. "Eh! You could've told me girl." He said disgusted. "Ugh you're such a boy! Ya know, most boyfriends would bring his girlfriend chocolates and sweets, and movies to watch and cuddle all night with her if they had their period." I commented. He stepped closer to me and held my face in his hands. "Well I'm not like most boyfriends." he said smiling. I rolled my eyes as he squished my face together and kissed me. He walked away, grabbed his towel and phone and walked back to me. "Where ya headed?" I asked. "I got to go. Today's gonna be a busy night so I just wanted to stop by my love." He said smiling. "Well I'm glad you did boo." I cooed as I wrapped my arms tightly round his waist. He kissed my forehead and left. "Love you!" I called out. "See ya babe!" I heard him faintly say. I nodded to myself and let out a sigh. It's noon, my boyfriend is busy all day, which basically means I'm staying inside all day, to do absolutely nothing with my dog.
When I opened the screen door, Rosie shot up from her spot on the couch and jumped crazily on me. I picked her up as she began to lick me all over my face. "Hi baby! How are you?" I cooed to her. I laughed when she sneezed but quickly put her back on the ground to run around. I strolled into my least favorite room-the kitchen. I don't do anything in there. I don't cook, I hate eating, so what's the point of having it? It's absolutely pointless, but Chris insists that I keep it. He always is on top of me to eat and to stay healthy but everything I eat, I just wanna throw up. I regret every single bite I take of every single thing. There are so many more cons than pros of eating. When you eat, you just gain weight, sometimes you get food poisoning and throw up, and just thinking of the carbs and everything is awful. Chris is really the only person in my life who helps me with my anorexia and bulimia. He stays by my side and cooks for me all time. That's why I love him.
But for the past week or two, he seems to be a bit more...distant to say the least. I mean he's just the type of person that's not too romantic and shit but, he doesn't spend more than like 3 hours with me anymore. Am I boring? Everytime Chris leaves I just think of all the other fun things he could be doing without me. Going to the beach, hanging out with his friends, not being socially awkward, and just enjoying his summer. Unlike me. I just stay home and wait for Chris to show up whenever. And everytime he's not with me, I'm a totally different person. After about an hour without him, I hate myself. The butterfly feeling he gives me, is gone when he is. So there's really nothing left for me but this boy. I would so much rather be dead if Chris weren't in my life.
"Come here Rosie!" I yelled to my dog as I ran up the stairs. She was instantly by my side and ran in front of me to go to my bed. I plopped down next to her and cuddled with her. I took out my phone and saw:nothing. Just like me. So I decided to text Chris really quick.
Me: Hey baby I know you said you were gonna be out today so I hope I'm not interrupting anything but I just wanted to say I miss you already! And if you can, stop by later but if not, I love you. And I'll see you tomorrow;)
Rosie than began jumping on top of me when I put my phone down. I laughed and shrieked as she licked me and began panting. When she heard the mailman approaching the front door, she quickly stormed off of my body and scurried off down the the stairs. "Ah! Shit." I growled. I looked down at my leg and saw that when she ran off, she left a deep cut in my thigh. It began to slightly bleed, and slowly dripped down my leg. I watched the blood pour and ooze down, not even fazed. This was becoming normal for me.
Notes
Hi guys! So this is my new story and I really hope you like it because I wanna go far with this one. And as I said in my notes about my other story "Decisions..." I probably will be ending that soon becuase I just..like not feeling it anymore:) sorry! but hopefully you enjoy the last few updates for that one and...yeah! enjoy everybody;)))oh and sorry about the bold at the end. idk what happened and i couldn't fix it.
tehehe;)
8/27/13