"Is that true Ni?" I asked. He looked at his feet. I waited for his answer in silence. Is Louis just making things up? Or does Niall really love me? "Ni?" I asked. He glanced up then glanced back down, in a deep thought. "Niall just tell her." Liam said behind me. "Yeah, tell her, she'll find out sooner or later." Harry said. Wait what? Are they talking about him liking me or something else? "I'd rather it be later." Ni muttered. I am so confused and kinda mad that they won't tell me. "What are you guy's talking about?" I asked. "Nothing, just personal stuff." Zayn said. Ugh! They need to tell me cuz I'm getting angry. "It involves me, so I should know." I state. "We aren't telling you." Liam said. "Fine! I'm going to my room, cuz no one thinks I should know whatever the Hell you're talking about!" I angrily said. I ran up the stairs to my room, slamming the door and locking it. I threw a book from my bookcase across the room and I jumped on my bed landing on my stomach. I screamed in my pillow. Yes, I have anger issues, I have ADHD. I screamed in my pillow all I could until my throat was dry and my voice cracked. I cried while I was screaming so my pillow was wet and my eyes were dry of tears.

I walked to the bathroom that was connected to my room, inside of it. I looked in the mirror. There was a red haired girl with puffy eyes and a red face. I splashed water on my face and sorta drank it, yeah bathroom sink water, yuck? I wish the boys would tell me. I feel like I'm not trusted that they think I'm like a child, when I'm 19 turning 20 soon. I walked out of the bathroom and out of my room, feeling anger come back. I walked to the excersise room. I walked to the punching bag, I got the boxing gloves and put them on. I started punching the punching bag, harder every round. My anger started decreasing. I finished and threw the gloves down and walked to my bed. I was in my room the whole day without eating. I only ate breakfast, I think. Ugh! I walked down the stairs, I walked to the kitchen passing the living room, where the boys were on the couches whispering and watching some crappy movie. I grabbed a bottle of water and I heated the last five slices of the pizza the boys must've ordered, which they didn't tell me! I grabbed my meal and walked up the stairs to my room and sat on my bed. I turned on music. The first song was Best Song Ever by the boys. I skipped all the songs until Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri came on.
"No, I can't take one more step towards you 'Cause all that's waiting is regret Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore You lost the love I loved the most I learned to live half alive And now you want me one more time And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Who do you think you are? I hear you're asking all around If I am anywhere to be found But I have grown too strong To ever fall back in your arms And I've learned to live half alive And now you want me one more time And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Who do you think you are? And it took so long just to feel alright Remember how to put back the light in my eyes I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed 'Cause you broke all your promises And now you're back You don't get to get me back And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Don't come back at all And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts Tearing love apart You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul Don't come back for me Don't come back at all Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are?" I sang.
Someone clapped. I immediately turned to the door. Standing there was Zayn. "What do you want?" I rudely asked. "To see if you wanted to eat but I see you already ate and you're singing." He replied. "Okay, now go!" I rudely said. "Nah, I'll just watch you sing more." Zayn said. "Get out." I rudely said. He shook his head. "Get the Hell out of my room!" I yelled. He still didn't budge. "Get the fudge out off my room or I will scream and also you'll be sorry." I said. "Sorry? Just cuz a scream? Ha." Zayn said. "I scream loud, I bite, I know how to beat people who is more than twice my size. I practically know how to kill someone." I said. He got shocked. I smirked. "Now get out of my room before you make me mad." I said. He nodded and left. I closed my door and put another song on. Rock you by the boys came on. Ugh! I skipped it and next was Bangarang by Skrillex. I rocked out to that. My music turned off and I fell asleep.