Warned
This is awkward
*Lydia's Point of View*
The quite rustling coming from the other side of the door jolts me from my peaceful slumber that seemed to intoxicate my mind. I am acutely aware that this is, in fact, Liam's bedroom.. I can't be here. A sixteen year old in a what, 20 year olds bed? My mother would kill me if she found out! But than again why should I care what she thinks? She's one of the reasons why I ran from the "perfect" life that was set up for me.
Unlike my older sister I had goals. I was going to be a teacher.. an elementary school teacher. The girl inside is what kills me.
The sporty, carefree girl that was devoted to making others happy had a deep, dark secret though.
She hated herself.
Constanly comparing herself to others while wishing she were them. To be able to wear what she wanted without judgement. To be "the pretty girl". Sure she had constant reassurance of her beauty from her parents and friends, but that's their job.
I hate thinking about the girl I am.. The low self confidence gets in the way of living life to fullest!
Suddenly, the door of the bedroom creaks open slowly, revealing Liam in only a pair of sweatpants nestled low on his hips.
Hot damn.. Why do guys have to be so attractive?? It's not fair sometimes, I swear!
I close oser my eyes and relax my face to make it appear as if I'm still sleeping, not wide awake evaluating the person I am. I can hear the soft foot steps cross the plush carpeting
over to the other side of the bed. The bed sinks slightly due to the added weight of another body as Liam lays down adjacent to me. I peek through my lashes at his body to see him staring directly at me.. Woops!
"I'm so sorry love, did I wake you?" He asks softly as a look of concern wades over his face. His comforting brown eyes make me want to tell him everything.. Like I can entrust him with my soul.
"N-no.. I woke up a few minutes ago!" I rush out. I probably look like a crazed teenager mixed with a hobo at the moment. I can assume my hair has gotten flatter and greasy, while my facial makeup is pretty much gone at this point due to the events from last night.
"You could have come out you know, I don't bite!" He replies with a smile, causing me to giggle my unflattering laugh.
"I didn't want to scare you completely with my appearance so early in the morning", I sarcastically reply while propping myself up on my elbow, smirking at Liam as he breaks out into laughter.
"I don't see anything wrong!" He manages to choke out between chuckles.
"And you know, I'm usually a lot harder to get into bed! I just made and exception for you since you're cute," I joke, adding an extremely exaggerated wink. He busts out into another round of laughter. God he's so hot.. Stop it Lydia! He's too old!
Than again he could be younger.. Ugh I need to know!
"Just a random question, you know cause I'm curious, how old are you?" I ask him as his laughter does down.
"Haha, I just turned 20! How about you? 18-19?"
Oh lord.. Do I lie? Or should I just tell him the truth? Jesus Christ the dilemma.. I feel like I can be honest so I might as well just spit it out.
"Wellll not quite.." I pause as his face scrunched up in confusion,"I'm uh, 16. I know it's young but I'm I act older if that helps! And I don't really mind that you're 20, age is just a number right? You know what? I'm just gonna go!" My cheeks are burning hot at this point due to the embarrassment of my rambling. I pull the covers away and start to get up when a large arm wraps around my waist and pulls back.
Just like last night I'm faced with Liam's beautiful face only inches from my own. I hold my breathe as his eyes wander down to my lips, than back up to meet my gaze.
"Four years isn't a problem darling.. There's just something about you that so different. You seem so innocent.. Yet broken."
The word that describes my entire being just left those gorgeous lips.
Broken.
The quite rustling coming from the other side of the door jolts me from my peaceful slumber that seemed to intoxicate my mind. I am acutely aware that this is, in fact, Liam's bedroom.. I can't be here. A sixteen year old in a what, 20 year olds bed? My mother would kill me if she found out! But than again why should I care what she thinks? She's one of the reasons why I ran from the "perfect" life that was set up for me.
Unlike my older sister I had goals. I was going to be a teacher.. an elementary school teacher. The girl inside is what kills me.
The sporty, carefree girl that was devoted to making others happy had a deep, dark secret though.
She hated herself.
Constanly comparing herself to others while wishing she were them. To be able to wear what she wanted without judgement. To be "the pretty girl". Sure she had constant reassurance of her beauty from her parents and friends, but that's their job.
I hate thinking about the girl I am.. The low self confidence gets in the way of living life to fullest!
Suddenly, the door of the bedroom creaks open slowly, revealing Liam in only a pair of sweatpants nestled low on his hips.
Hot damn.. Why do guys have to be so attractive?? It's not fair sometimes, I swear!
I close oser my eyes and relax my face to make it appear as if I'm still sleeping, not wide awake evaluating the person I am. I can hear the soft foot steps cross the plush carpeting
over to the other side of the bed. The bed sinks slightly due to the added weight of another body as Liam lays down adjacent to me. I peek through my lashes at his body to see him staring directly at me.. Woops!
"I'm so sorry love, did I wake you?" He asks softly as a look of concern wades over his face. His comforting brown eyes make me want to tell him everything.. Like I can entrust him with my soul.
"N-no.. I woke up a few minutes ago!" I rush out. I probably look like a crazed teenager mixed with a hobo at the moment. I can assume my hair has gotten flatter and greasy, while my facial makeup is pretty much gone at this point due to the events from last night.
"You could have come out you know, I don't bite!" He replies with a smile, causing me to giggle my unflattering laugh.
"I didn't want to scare you completely with my appearance so early in the morning", I sarcastically reply while propping myself up on my elbow, smirking at Liam as he breaks out into laughter.
"I don't see anything wrong!" He manages to choke out between chuckles.
"And you know, I'm usually a lot harder to get into bed! I just made and exception for you since you're cute," I joke, adding an extremely exaggerated wink. He busts out into another round of laughter. God he's so hot.. Stop it Lydia! He's too old!
Than again he could be younger.. Ugh I need to know!
"Just a random question, you know cause I'm curious, how old are you?" I ask him as his laughter does down.
"Haha, I just turned 20! How about you? 18-19?"
Oh lord.. Do I lie? Or should I just tell him the truth? Jesus Christ the dilemma.. I feel like I can be honest so I might as well just spit it out.
"Wellll not quite.." I pause as his face scrunched up in confusion,"I'm uh, 16. I know it's young but I'm I act older if that helps! And I don't really mind that you're 20, age is just a number right? You know what? I'm just gonna go!" My cheeks are burning hot at this point due to the embarrassment of my rambling. I pull the covers away and start to get up when a large arm wraps around my waist and pulls back.
Just like last night I'm faced with Liam's beautiful face only inches from my own. I hold my breathe as his eyes wander down to my lips, than back up to meet my gaze.
"Four years isn't a problem darling.. There's just something about you that so different. You seem so innocent.. Yet broken."
The word that describes my entire being just left those gorgeous lips.
Broken.
Notes
Was this even good? HahaI haven't written in a month.. My b! I've got a cold and nothing better to do so thought,"Maybe someone will actually read this jank?"
I kinda use this as an emotional let out, you feel me?
If any of you (If there's any lmao) have ideas, hit me up haha
I could use some suggestions!
Thanks brahhhh
-Lydster
10/21/13