"W-What do you want?" I said not wanting to sound scared. I was him shut the door behind him, and loud.

"Just wanted to see how you were doing, that's all" he said with a creepy smile. Gosh how much I hated him!

"Just leave Derek" I was trying not to be scared but c'mon it's Derek. Ew, I hate saying his name! "Now, don't talk to me that way princess" he was getting closet but he stopped. Thank god!

"Whatever. Leave or I'll call the cops.....again" I threaten him but it seem like it wasn't working. Great. Just great! I saw his face get angrier my the minute. His smile soon turned into an angry face. Oh god, please help.

I felt the back of my body being slammed against the wall. Ow! Doesn't he know that hurts?! He pinned me with my hands above my head.

I saw saw him getting close to my ear. I felt his breath come closer, and closed with my skin.

"Now, I'm not going anywhere sweetheart, and your not going to call the police" he tried to scare me now. It was working.

"I don't like you anymore. Get that through your head, then leave. Now" I responded harshly. He got even more angry, I could sooooo tell.

"Don't talk to me like that, you hear me. I'm going to show you how much I still love you by making you scream and moan my name so loud that the neighbors hear you, baby" He was now scaring me. He's never ever done this before and it was scaring me. A lot.

He he was about to kiss me but I turned my head to the side and he kissed my cheek. I felt his hand grab the sides of my cheeks and turned my head so I was facing him. He looked at my lips then kissed me, hard.

I tried pulling away away but failed miserably with him tightening his grip.

He stopped kissing my lips and moved to my neck. I finally had all the strength in me to push him off.

I wiped led my mouth with the back of my hand. He just stood there and looked mad than ever!

I was about to run outside but he got my legs and threw me over his shoulder. I was kicking and punching everywhere to see if he would release me. No use.

I felt him giggle and slap my arse. "Keep your hands to your self, you bastard" he didn't say anything. I was that he was walking up the stairs in the direction of my bedroom. Oh-oh.

Oh god, please help me! He opened my door and walked over to my bed. He threw me on it, and immediately got on top of me.

He started to kiss my neck, again. "Stop! Get off me!" I yelled trying so hard for him not to go any further.

It wasn't working, at all.

He he stopped all of the sudden and slapped me. I screamed out in pain. He did it again but in the other side.

"Please stop!" I was covering up my face from him to not keep hitting me. I started to cry. He started yelling these hurtful names.

"Your a piece of shit! No one like you or cares for you! Your ugly and fat! That's why I cheated on you! You don't deserve to live!" When he was done yelling at me all the flash backs started to come.

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I was in the bathroom repeating myself everything that Derek had said to me. He was right. About everything.

What if Harry is just playing around with my feelings? He wouldn't do that. Would he?

I clouding take it anymore. It's to much for me to handle. I got a blade. I holded it on too of my arm.

I took oil a feel breath and cut myself. I let out a cry of hurt ness. I haven't done that in months and now that I did it again I don't think I'll stop.

Derek was right. I don't deserve to live. No one likes me or cares for me. I'm a piece of shit that doesn't deserve anything.

I wanna die! But what about Harry?

Notes

Yay! I updated! So I went to the doctors and they told me this thing that can MAYBE help me with my cutting. She said to draw a butterfly in the place I cut and if I do I'm killing it.

Do u guys think it's a good idea? Do u think it'll work?

Anyways, moving on. Lol. What did u guys think of this chapter? It was so hard to write because part was from my experience and then the other part from my cousins.

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