The Foster
Crying Myself To Sleep
"Liv LIV!" I heard Colton screaming. I jumped up panting and covered with sweat. "GROSS!" I screamed. "You where having a night mare" Kip said sitting next to me. "Oh, that was a dream?" I asked. "Yea?" Jessy said. "So we haven't gone to school yet this year?" I asked. "Nope!" Colton said. I screamed with joy. I DIDN'T kiss Horan! I smiled and ran to the shower. "We're heading home to get ready!" Kip said. "I'll pick you up later babe!" I called through the door. I took a nice long ass hot shower.
I was filled with joy to know I DIDN'T kiss Horan. I was so happy.
I was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91025649. and http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91034759.
Kip was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91030339.
Jessy was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91032286.
I was happy because my new tattoo could be seen, all the others where hidden. I picked up Kip and Jessy and went to school. Since it had been raining we have the roof and doors on. We pulled up and jumped out walking in. As soon as I walked in I went to Mr.S' office.
I herd 5 guys talking and one of the office lady's said he was running late and to go right in. I nodded and walked in. I froze when I saw who was in the room. I guess they where shocked also.
{Best Song Ever <3}
I took a deep breath and walked in. I closed the door behind me and sat on the chair that was next to Zayn.
"Hello again Livana" Zayn said. Zayn was the only one who had ever cared when the other where bulling me. "Hello Zayn nice to see "you" again!" I smiled. As I said you I glared at the others then smiled looking back at him.
Mr.S walked in and I turned looking at him. "Alright this is Zayn Malik, Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, and Niall Horan" Mr.S started and I just zoned out.
Next thing I know Mr.S slammed his hand down on his desk standing up. I jumped and looked at him. The boys started to laugh. I sent them a glare and they shut right up. Mr.S handed them slips and we headed out.
"Where to first?"I asked walking out of the office. "Our lockers?" Harry asked as if he was caring to mush stuff. "I can get you to the locker rooms but I can't go in: I said heading to the boys locker rooms. Once we got their the boys went in and took a hole at least 25 minutes to put every thing away. The walked back out and I was sitting on the floor waiting.
"Come on, get up" It was only Louis, Liam, and Harry. Great. "Where are the other 2?" I asked as they walked out. I rolled my eyes and stood up. I took out my phone and started to play my fave song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgesPWGUigU&list=RD02vuDCvzLoTa0.
I started tapping my arm in the air as it plaid. I was leading them to the class rooms. I started to sing. "I you move a little closer closer, Girl I got to get to know ya know ya, Everything makes want ya want ya, Know baby don't ya don't ya" I sang smiling. Zayn and the others started to clap. I blushed and rolled my eyes. "Your good" Niall smiled. "Yea like you would know Horan' I spat and the next song came on. I love this song also. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7v2TmV3Zuc&list=RD02vuDCvzLoTa0.
I sang to that song also. I showed the boys around. "Theirs not mush else to show you, I can't bring you out side use the rain" I said. "The only place we haven't gone is the hottest place in the school" I said. "Yea lets go there!" Harry yelled. "Umm no we can't!" I said worried. "Why not? Is little Livana scared?" Louis asked. 'No! Im wearing a sweatshirt and gloves moron!" I said. 'Take em' off" Niall said. "I can't!" I said turning and walking. I led them to the pace. They where all sweating like pigs.
"Sexy look!" I joked taking a photo of all of them. "How are you not sweating?" Liam asked. 'Because I dont sweat" I smirked. 'Then come here!" They all said going in to hug me. I sceamed. "DONT TOUGH ME!" I ran past them and out the door. I was gasping for cold air. I smiled and was about to close and lock the door on them.
Out of no where the door bust open and I was throw into the lockers. I let out a scream as my body slammed into the metal. Niall looked over then ran to me."Livana! are you alright!" He yelped. I pushed him away standing up. "Its not the first time I've been pushed into the fucking lockers Horan" I spat brushing my self off. "Its not?" Liam asked. "No Payne" I rolled my eyes.
"Why could people do that to you?" Harry asked. "I dont know Styles maybe because EVERY person in this building other then Kip and Jessy hate me?" I shrugged. "Well why do they hate you?" Louis asked. "HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO KNOW!?" I yelled. "What am I going to just stand up while their beating me and be like "Hey why do you hate me?" I growled turning and walking off. "You know the school get around your self" I spat.
"Come on Livana don't be like that!" Liam called. I heard them all run after me. "Leave ma alone" I said. "You have to hang out with us for 2 weeks!" Zayn said. I stopped and sighed. "Well you know your way around the school? Lunch isn't till another hour" I said. "Lets just go and walk around for a half hour then go to the lunch room" I said.
We walked around the school over and over. Once it was around lunch time thankfully we where already right by it. I lead then to it and we walking in waiting for the food to be ready. The boys sat at a table and I stood looking around. "I have never been in the lunch room for this long" I muttered under my breath. I heard yelling and ran I heard the boys running after me. I ran in and as quick as I could got my lunch and things together, payed and walked out to see the pop boys running into the cafe. I jumped as they saw me.
"Hey little Livana!"They said walking over to me. "I just came to get my lunch I know its your room I'm leaving now, see?" I asked not wanting trouble. "But you know you need to get here real early or after us" He said. "Yes I know Jake its just Im showing these 5 guys around today and they wanted to wait in here and then I heard you coming and tried to get out as soon as possible I said. "Well you know what happened last time you where a bad little Livana right?" He asked. "Yes Jake I know" I sighed looking down. "Tsss Tsss Tss don't look down look up" He said forcing my face up and forcing me to make out with him. When he pulled away he smirked. "Go stand at the food wall" Jake said.
He took my tray. I walked over to the food wall. Aka the wall he makes me stand at so him and his friends can whip food at me. Jake and his friends took the food off my tray and started throwing it at me. I stood their like I always do. Once every thing was gone they told me to stay there. I was hoping the boys wheren't going to come out any time soon. Next thing I know Jake and his friends are back whipping room at me as hard as they could. My eyes got watery. "HEY NO CRYING!" Jake yelled. More and more people started to come and join in. Once half the school was all joined in I could see a little glamps of the boys looked around for me. I also saw them go right up to Kip and Jessy. I could tell they where asking where I was. They shrugged. Once my food whipping was over every one cleared out going back and getting their food.
Since I got a food whipping I didn't get food. My eyes where watery. I saw Kip and Jessy started to go to the bathroom where WE eat our lunch. I ran after them. Kip hugged he tightly. "Did he tell you not to move?" Jessy asked. "LIVANA!!!" I heard Jake screamed. I burst out crying and they quickly took me to the bathroom. I sat on the counter and Kip closed the door. Out of no where it burst open. "Livana?" I heard a Irish voice say. "Horan?" I asked. "Are you alright?" Zayn asked. "Malik?" I asked.
"Thats it we're coming in" Louis said and walked right in. Kip, Jessy and I where on the counter. Kip and Jessy where eating while I was crying picking food out of my hair. "Louis!" I saw Niall retch out and tried to grab him but fell. Zayn and Liam fell out on top of him. Harry walked out and smiled waving. I rolled my eyes. I was still crying. "Where are you lunches?" Kip asked. "Out side" Louis said. "Well if you insist on hanging with us go get them" I said jumping down and walking to the sink.
"What happened?" Niall shot up and over to me. "Horan you don't have to worry about me, you never have before this is just another day in the life as me!" I growled. I washed out what I could. "I just have to keep a low profile till like I die" I sighed looking down.
The boys went and got their lunches. I was still trying to get stuff out of my hair and off my new closes. I quickly took off my gloves and rolled up my sleeves. "What the hell are you doing!? do you want them to see you?" Kip yelled. "No but I have to clean them!" I said. I washed the food and drink off my cuts. The boys came back in and I tried my best to keep them hidden.
Zayn's POV
I walked back in and saw for the first time Livana didn't have her gloves on, I also saw why she wears them. She had cuts all the way up her arm. I nudged Niall to look over and he did to Louis to did to Laim and Harry. We all looked at one another.
Liv's POV
I quickly dried my cuts witch hurt like a fucking bitch and put my gloves back on rolling down my sleeves. I looked over at them. Naill walked over to me. "Here" he said handing me his tray. "Horan I'm not taking you food" I said walking around him and jumping up next to the girls. "Don't even try we're been trying for years!" Jessy sighed. Niall looked down and started to eat.
I could hear the people in the fall ways and once it was dead silent I looked out. Kip and Jessy had already gone. I walked out and the boys ran to the cafe real quick to put their trays back. They all ran up to me. "What next?" Harry asked. "Walk around till the bell rings"I said. The all nodded.
We walked around for what seemed like hours. "Livana-------------" Zayn started but I stopped him. "Im getting sick of this, call me Brady, nothing else" I said. "Alright Brady who did that to you?" He asked. "No one its nothing new just got to go home take a shower before my brother and uncle get home and repeat every thing tomorrow" I sighed. "You don't have to be treated like this" Niall said. "Its just how it is Horan" I sighed looking down.
"You should be treated better" Louis said. "Im fine! All of you just leave it alone its NOTHING new!" I yelled. "Liv come on" Niall put his hand on my shoulder and called me Liv. "Niall-------------" whispered trailing off. "Niall its the same way you used to treat me, when you left them took over, now drop it!" I yelled and as I did the bell rang. I shot away from them running to my ran. The first 2 people out of the building after me was Kip and Jessy. They quickly jumped in as Jake ran out. I took off like lightning.
I dropped them off and then went home. I showered and did the normal stuff. The around the time Colton gets home I cried my self to sleep again.
I was filled with joy to know I DIDN'T kiss Horan. I was so happy.
I was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91025649. and http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91034759.
Kip was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91030339.
Jessy was wearing this http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91032286.
I was happy because my new tattoo could be seen, all the others where hidden. I picked up Kip and Jessy and went to school. Since it had been raining we have the roof and doors on. We pulled up and jumped out walking in. As soon as I walked in I went to Mr.S' office.
I herd 5 guys talking and one of the office lady's said he was running late and to go right in. I nodded and walked in. I froze when I saw who was in the room. I guess they where shocked also.
{Best Song Ever <3}
I took a deep breath and walked in. I closed the door behind me and sat on the chair that was next to Zayn.
"Hello again Livana" Zayn said. Zayn was the only one who had ever cared when the other where bulling me. "Hello Zayn nice to see "you" again!" I smiled. As I said you I glared at the others then smiled looking back at him.
Mr.S walked in and I turned looking at him. "Alright this is Zayn Malik, Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, and Niall Horan" Mr.S started and I just zoned out.
Next thing I know Mr.S slammed his hand down on his desk standing up. I jumped and looked at him. The boys started to laugh. I sent them a glare and they shut right up. Mr.S handed them slips and we headed out.
"Where to first?"I asked walking out of the office. "Our lockers?" Harry asked as if he was caring to mush stuff. "I can get you to the locker rooms but I can't go in: I said heading to the boys locker rooms. Once we got their the boys went in and took a hole at least 25 minutes to put every thing away. The walked back out and I was sitting on the floor waiting.
"Come on, get up" It was only Louis, Liam, and Harry. Great. "Where are the other 2?" I asked as they walked out. I rolled my eyes and stood up. I took out my phone and started to play my fave song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgesPWGUigU&list=RD02vuDCvzLoTa0.
I started tapping my arm in the air as it plaid. I was leading them to the class rooms. I started to sing. "I you move a little closer closer, Girl I got to get to know ya know ya, Everything makes want ya want ya, Know baby don't ya don't ya" I sang smiling. Zayn and the others started to clap. I blushed and rolled my eyes. "Your good" Niall smiled. "Yea like you would know Horan' I spat and the next song came on. I love this song also. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7v2TmV3Zuc&list=RD02vuDCvzLoTa0.
I sang to that song also. I showed the boys around. "Theirs not mush else to show you, I can't bring you out side use the rain" I said. "The only place we haven't gone is the hottest place in the school" I said. "Yea lets go there!" Harry yelled. "Umm no we can't!" I said worried. "Why not? Is little Livana scared?" Louis asked. 'No! Im wearing a sweatshirt and gloves moron!" I said. 'Take em' off" Niall said. "I can't!" I said turning and walking. I led them to the pace. They where all sweating like pigs.
"Sexy look!" I joked taking a photo of all of them. "How are you not sweating?" Liam asked. 'Because I dont sweat" I smirked. 'Then come here!" They all said going in to hug me. I sceamed. "DONT TOUGH ME!" I ran past them and out the door. I was gasping for cold air. I smiled and was about to close and lock the door on them.
Out of no where the door bust open and I was throw into the lockers. I let out a scream as my body slammed into the metal. Niall looked over then ran to me."Livana! are you alright!" He yelped. I pushed him away standing up. "Its not the first time I've been pushed into the fucking lockers Horan" I spat brushing my self off. "Its not?" Liam asked. "No Payne" I rolled my eyes.
"Why could people do that to you?" Harry asked. "I dont know Styles maybe because EVERY person in this building other then Kip and Jessy hate me?" I shrugged. "Well why do they hate you?" Louis asked. "HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO KNOW!?" I yelled. "What am I going to just stand up while their beating me and be like "Hey why do you hate me?" I growled turning and walking off. "You know the school get around your self" I spat.
"Come on Livana don't be like that!" Liam called. I heard them all run after me. "Leave ma alone" I said. "You have to hang out with us for 2 weeks!" Zayn said. I stopped and sighed. "Well you know your way around the school? Lunch isn't till another hour" I said. "Lets just go and walk around for a half hour then go to the lunch room" I said.
We walked around the school over and over. Once it was around lunch time thankfully we where already right by it. I lead then to it and we walking in waiting for the food to be ready. The boys sat at a table and I stood looking around. "I have never been in the lunch room for this long" I muttered under my breath. I heard yelling and ran I heard the boys running after me. I ran in and as quick as I could got my lunch and things together, payed and walked out to see the pop boys running into the cafe. I jumped as they saw me.
"Hey little Livana!"They said walking over to me. "I just came to get my lunch I know its your room I'm leaving now, see?" I asked not wanting trouble. "But you know you need to get here real early or after us" He said. "Yes I know Jake its just Im showing these 5 guys around today and they wanted to wait in here and then I heard you coming and tried to get out as soon as possible I said. "Well you know what happened last time you where a bad little Livana right?" He asked. "Yes Jake I know" I sighed looking down. "Tsss Tsss Tss don't look down look up" He said forcing my face up and forcing me to make out with him. When he pulled away he smirked. "Go stand at the food wall" Jake said.
He took my tray. I walked over to the food wall. Aka the wall he makes me stand at so him and his friends can whip food at me. Jake and his friends took the food off my tray and started throwing it at me. I stood their like I always do. Once every thing was gone they told me to stay there. I was hoping the boys wheren't going to come out any time soon. Next thing I know Jake and his friends are back whipping room at me as hard as they could. My eyes got watery. "HEY NO CRYING!" Jake yelled. More and more people started to come and join in. Once half the school was all joined in I could see a little glamps of the boys looked around for me. I also saw them go right up to Kip and Jessy. I could tell they where asking where I was. They shrugged. Once my food whipping was over every one cleared out going back and getting their food.
Since I got a food whipping I didn't get food. My eyes where watery. I saw Kip and Jessy started to go to the bathroom where WE eat our lunch. I ran after them. Kip hugged he tightly. "Did he tell you not to move?" Jessy asked. "LIVANA!!!" I heard Jake screamed. I burst out crying and they quickly took me to the bathroom. I sat on the counter and Kip closed the door. Out of no where it burst open. "Livana?" I heard a Irish voice say. "Horan?" I asked. "Are you alright?" Zayn asked. "Malik?" I asked.
"Thats it we're coming in" Louis said and walked right in. Kip, Jessy and I where on the counter. Kip and Jessy where eating while I was crying picking food out of my hair. "Louis!" I saw Niall retch out and tried to grab him but fell. Zayn and Liam fell out on top of him. Harry walked out and smiled waving. I rolled my eyes. I was still crying. "Where are you lunches?" Kip asked. "Out side" Louis said. "Well if you insist on hanging with us go get them" I said jumping down and walking to the sink.
"What happened?" Niall shot up and over to me. "Horan you don't have to worry about me, you never have before this is just another day in the life as me!" I growled. I washed out what I could. "I just have to keep a low profile till like I die" I sighed looking down.
The boys went and got their lunches. I was still trying to get stuff out of my hair and off my new closes. I quickly took off my gloves and rolled up my sleeves. "What the hell are you doing!? do you want them to see you?" Kip yelled. "No but I have to clean them!" I said. I washed the food and drink off my cuts. The boys came back in and I tried my best to keep them hidden.
Zayn's POV
I walked back in and saw for the first time Livana didn't have her gloves on, I also saw why she wears them. She had cuts all the way up her arm. I nudged Niall to look over and he did to Louis to did to Laim and Harry. We all looked at one another.
Liv's POV
I quickly dried my cuts witch hurt like a fucking bitch and put my gloves back on rolling down my sleeves. I looked over at them. Naill walked over to me. "Here" he said handing me his tray. "Horan I'm not taking you food" I said walking around him and jumping up next to the girls. "Don't even try we're been trying for years!" Jessy sighed. Niall looked down and started to eat.
I could hear the people in the fall ways and once it was dead silent I looked out. Kip and Jessy had already gone. I walked out and the boys ran to the cafe real quick to put their trays back. They all ran up to me. "What next?" Harry asked. "Walk around till the bell rings"I said. The all nodded.
We walked around for what seemed like hours. "Livana-------------" Zayn started but I stopped him. "Im getting sick of this, call me Brady, nothing else" I said. "Alright Brady who did that to you?" He asked. "No one its nothing new just got to go home take a shower before my brother and uncle get home and repeat every thing tomorrow" I sighed. "You don't have to be treated like this" Niall said. "Its just how it is Horan" I sighed looking down.
"You should be treated better" Louis said. "Im fine! All of you just leave it alone its NOTHING new!" I yelled. "Liv come on" Niall put his hand on my shoulder and called me Liv. "Niall-------------" whispered trailing off. "Niall its the same way you used to treat me, when you left them took over, now drop it!" I yelled and as I did the bell rang. I shot away from them running to my ran. The first 2 people out of the building after me was Kip and Jessy. They quickly jumped in as Jake ran out. I took off like lightning.
I dropped them off and then went home. I showered and did the normal stuff. The around the time Colton gets home I cried my self to sleep again.
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