"ummm wow umm i don't really know what to do" "u have until next Friday" "ok" "well where do u want to be dropped off at" "the airport" he looked confused "huh?" "the boys made me mad earlier and they keep doing it so I'm taking a small vacation." "ok do u have money for it?" "ya. " "ok then" he then drove to the airport. He dropped me off and i ran inside hoping nobody will recognize me. I waited for the next flight to America, which lucky for me was the next flight. I said good bye to Ireland and got onto the plane. I started to cry as it took off knowing that i left in a rush and away from my troubles. I had to have time to think.

*when plane landed*

i got off and went into the airport. No-one knows were i am, I'm only 17 and i have no one around me that i know. I got in a taxi and they dropped me off at a hotel there i got a room and relaxed for a day.

The next day i was awoken by somebody POUNDING on my door. I grumpily woke up and trotted over to the door. It didn't have a peaky hole so i had to open the door to see who it was. I opened the door and was tackled with a huge hug. I heard them crying and whispering over and over "I'm so sorry I'm so so sorry" i looked at who it was and i was surprised but yet i wasn't… it was Zayn. I suddenly hugged him back… tightly. After a couple of minutes of hugging we both pulled back. I looked at him and he had red eyes. He didn't waste any time he put his hands on my cheeks and kissed me. It wasn't long before we both were on the bed in a make out session. A couple of minutes into the kiss i realized that this was wrong. I pulled away and looked down as my eyes filled with tears. He lifted my chin up and said "don't doubt yourself i came all the way over here to just to kiss u i know you think its wrong and it is but its so wrong its right." he wiped my tears away with his thumb and leaned in. He rested his forehead on mine and rubbed our noses together. I giggled and he looked down at my lips then back at my eyes as if he was asking permission. I slightly nodded and he whispered "so beautiful" then kissed me again. He let his lips linger a little longer after. He then pecked my lips. I then said almost in a whisper "you took my second first kiss." he began to sing 'last first kiss' "girl let me be your last first kiss" i pretended to think about it for a second before i wrapped my arms around his neck and said "i don't know im pretty hard to please" "i hardly believe that" he then smirked. "oh believe it!" he then chuckled and said "ya right. You seemed pretty pleased when I walked in on you and Niall." "ya because that was my first kiss" he started to pout "i wish i was your first kiss" "your the second first kiss and the kiss that i actually expected and sort of wanted" he smirked even more and said "u expected the kiss??" "kind of" "well than in that case" he kissed me again and said "i stole your third first kiss" he kissed me again and again "fourth…" "fithth" "sixth" "zayn?" "yes love?" "we only had one date…" "and?" "YOUR ALREADY KISSING ME!!!" "oh sorry you're just to perfect and i feel like one of the other guys is gonna steal u away " "hmp!!" i turned away from Zayn. He doesn't realize that he has my heart and no one does. He can break it easier than saying 'love'. He stood up from the bed and came over to that side i was on. He kneeled down where i was forced to see him and he said "why are u doing this??" i was on the verge of tears. "because u don't realize anything" he said "what don't i realize?" i was getting more upset by the second "ZAYN ARE U SERIOUS!!!?? I DIDNT GO TO LOUIS OR NIALL I CAME TO U!!!!" "what are you trying to say " "U GOT MY HEART ZAYN IM IN LOVE WITH U I HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL YOU DONT EVEN SEE IT. YOU CAN BREAK MY HEART SO EASLY…-" i was cut off by him kissing me head on with such force and passion. So much force it knocked me on the bed. He was on top of me and i was under him kissing the living heck out of each other. He murmured against my lips " i don't know what would happen to me if i lost u" i smiled. After a couple minutes i pulled back and said " i don't know what to think right now" he shook his head and kissed me again.

*couple hours later*

I was in Zayn's arms in my hotel bed. Its almost midnight and we have planned to stay up for my birthday. "10…9…8…" we both stood up and walked over to the clock slowly. "7…6…5…4…3…2…1" he lifted my chin up and said "i will do my best to make this the best birthday ever" i whispered "it already is" he then slowly kissed me… passionate, Loving and caring. Of course i kissed back. I was finally 18. I was a adult. I can now drive legally i can move out i can do so much stuff now. Zayn pulled me out of my thoughts when he picked me up over his shoulder. I giggled when he started tickling me. After he put me down he sat us both down on the bed. I laid back and he hovered over me and whispered "now that your 18 i can take you places now without Niall or your parents telling me i cant ." i smirked i have never seen Zayn like this and i kinda liked it. He was acting rebellious and i liked that about him. He smirked and leaned in. As soon as our lips touched i wrapped my arms around his neck and taunted with his hair with my fingers. He finally pulled away and looked at me. He smiled and said "i like kissing u" "i like kissing myself too!" i kissed my hand. I went in for another kiss on my hand and at the last minute Zayn pulled it away and i kissed him. I started to baby him "awww my poor baby Zaynie getting jealous of this handsome hand!!!" he started to pout. I laughed and cupped his face in my hands. I kissed his nose and said "i wouldn't trade one for another" he smiled and cupped my face in his hands to. He said the same thing then kissed my nose. I laughed and yelled "COPY CAT!!!" he laughed and said "yep" a little to proudly. I got from his grip and ran across the room laughing. He finally got over to me and said " butt head!!" "i know what u are but what am i" "ummm perfect, adorable, pretty, cute, a girl, 18, my girlfriend" the last one hit me hard. I haven't told him about my job and I'm afraid of what he'll say or think. I might as well tell him while we're alone. "ummm Zayn i have something to tell u but u cant get mad at me" "ok love what is it?" "i got a job" he looked happier and put his arms around my waist and hugged me "thats good i don't know why u got a job because ill be buying u everything and anything u want but its ok!!!" i looked down and whispered "ya but i have till next week to make my mind up about weather I'm gonna take it or leave it" "well are u gonna take it and what job is it?" "i don't know and modeling" his hands dropped and his smile came with it. He looked at me with the worst face possible. It was filled with disgust, hatred, and absolutely no love at all. "do u hate me??" "i need to think" he walked out the door. I fell to the ground and started crying.

*30 mins later*

I looked a my phone and thought about calling someone. I got up slowly and walked over to it. Right then I saw Zayn's name come on the screen vibrating. I was quick to answer it trying to hide my sorrow. "hello?" "Ummm i think we need to break up" i dropped my phone and really fell hard on the ground crying. He knew he could hurt me badly and he just did it and it hurt a lot. He said "Kayla, Kayla are u ok?" i crawled over to the phone and said still in tears "goodbye Zayn…" i whispered the last part very lowly "forever" i then hung up. I looked at the barely visible scar on my arm. I remembered that day all to well. I looked on other arm there was nothing there. It was to blank. It needed something there to remember… i needed something there to remember not to trust or love a guy. He made my birthday and the only one ill have that means this much the worst. I mean who breaks up with u on your birthday!!!?? I went into the bathroom where i found a razor i then put my phone on its holder and pressed record. I explained everything to it and then i said "i guess this is goodbye" i then cut myself. I didn't show it to the camera but u could still see it. I felt dizzy so i decided to lay down. I fell asleep knowing that i probably wouldn't be waking up again…