Stand Up
But you fight it! Your fighting the feelings!*Niall
I woke up and I didn't know where I was. I looked over at the clock to see it was 2:37AM. I still dont know what happened or where I was. I looked down to see Kobe clutching my hand. I blushed a little. He was sleeping in a chair next to the bed I was in with railings. He might of been asleep but he had my hand in a death grip.
I looked around. Once I realized I was in the hospital I didn't know what to think. I looked over to the window to see Niall looking out over the land, it was a great view, moon and stairs. Niall wasn't sleeping. He was sitting in a chair with his foot up on the wall. His elbow on his knees and his fist holding his head up. I herd him let out a sigh.
"Now why are you the one sighin?" I asked and he shot up. "Calm down!" I said. He stood and ran his hands down his shirt. He slowly and quietly walked over, picking up a chair and putting it next to my bed on the other side. "How are you feelin?" He asked. "Why? Its not going to change anything" I said. "What are you talking about now" he asked a sly bit of anger in his voice. "You care so much for me, asking me if I'm ok? Staying in the window of my hospital room? Why? why do you are so much do you not get that I dont like you?" I said anger in my voice.
"So what if I like you? Im going to try to get you no matter the pain! Im going to fight to be your friend and when you can't fight back then you'll lay in my arms at night and every thing will be right! I bumped into you thinking you where a guy then looked at you and it was like love at first sight. I didn't want to loose you! You blacked out in MY arms! Not Kobe's, not Hudson's not your brother's MY arms! You didn't fight me! I know you WANT to be friend with me! I know you wont to be my girl friend, But you fight it! your fighting the feelings! Your fighting them and I can't seem to figure out why! Sorry if I like you I dont fight feeling! So why do you?" Niall finished and walked out.
I sunk into the bed and sighed. I had been tearing up. Maybe I was fighting the feelings, but why? NO I CAN'T let that Irish accent get into my head NOT now NOT ever! I guess Kobe had woke up because he squeezed my head. I looked over. "He's fight you know, I can see it in your eyes, you want to be with him, but your afraid of getting hurt, I dont know you your afraid to fall in love, your not afraid of anything else" Kobe said. Great 2 lechers in 1 night! "Im not afraid of falling in love! Im afraid of falling in love with him! All my life I have HATED rich, city-boy pop stars like him! I dont' WANT to fall for him! I dont want to be his friend, And Im NOT afraid-----"Afraid of some jock Irish man who has lots of money, who's strong and every thing you have every told me you wanted" Kobe had cut me off
"Stop fighting!" He said squeezing my hand again then getting up and walking out. I started to think about every thing down to the last detail. STOP! I yelled at my-self Im not letting 2 dude brain wash me! no no no no No No No No NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell asleep, I had a nice dream, hell nice it was great! Kobe, Hudson, Jade all of us just us riding our skateboards having fun! I was smiling and happy again. I rode into a hot sweaty guy and fell for him. Jade, Kobe, Hudson's faces started to melt away. They burnt away and I was in London, having "the time of my live!" I was screaming at them to come with me. Jade and I got into a huge fight and the last thing we told one another was we hated one another. Hudson had stopped talking to me and Kobe wouldn't even look at me.
My eyes shot open and I throw my body up into a sit. Tears and sweat running down all over me. I looked around. I was still in the hospital. but this time I was all alone. In a dark room with no one. I still have no clue why Im in here or when I'm getting out but still. I was alone. It was kinda nice. I looked over and saw my phone. I grabbed it and started to listen to my favorite songs, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DqQcCPV3c8, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77Wsfi3fB70, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jwv66iVbXc,
Then I fell back asleep. Having a much better dream then the last. Jade, Kobe, Hudson and I where all at a consent and ALL of my favorite singers/bands where there. That was a night to remember. I was dancing and we where all having the best of time. It was us the fave 4 since kindergarten! I missed thoughs days so much now that we took in 5 dudes 1 I wanted died!
I looked around. Once I realized I was in the hospital I didn't know what to think. I looked over to the window to see Niall looking out over the land, it was a great view, moon and stairs. Niall wasn't sleeping. He was sitting in a chair with his foot up on the wall. His elbow on his knees and his fist holding his head up. I herd him let out a sigh.
"Now why are you the one sighin?" I asked and he shot up. "Calm down!" I said. He stood and ran his hands down his shirt. He slowly and quietly walked over, picking up a chair and putting it next to my bed on the other side. "How are you feelin?" He asked. "Why? Its not going to change anything" I said. "What are you talking about now" he asked a sly bit of anger in his voice. "You care so much for me, asking me if I'm ok? Staying in the window of my hospital room? Why? why do you are so much do you not get that I dont like you?" I said anger in my voice.
"So what if I like you? Im going to try to get you no matter the pain! Im going to fight to be your friend and when you can't fight back then you'll lay in my arms at night and every thing will be right! I bumped into you thinking you where a guy then looked at you and it was like love at first sight. I didn't want to loose you! You blacked out in MY arms! Not Kobe's, not Hudson's not your brother's MY arms! You didn't fight me! I know you WANT to be friend with me! I know you wont to be my girl friend, But you fight it! your fighting the feelings! Your fighting them and I can't seem to figure out why! Sorry if I like you I dont fight feeling! So why do you?" Niall finished and walked out.
I sunk into the bed and sighed. I had been tearing up. Maybe I was fighting the feelings, but why? NO I CAN'T let that Irish accent get into my head NOT now NOT ever! I guess Kobe had woke up because he squeezed my head. I looked over. "He's fight you know, I can see it in your eyes, you want to be with him, but your afraid of getting hurt, I dont know you your afraid to fall in love, your not afraid of anything else" Kobe said. Great 2 lechers in 1 night! "Im not afraid of falling in love! Im afraid of falling in love with him! All my life I have HATED rich, city-boy pop stars like him! I dont' WANT to fall for him! I dont want to be his friend, And Im NOT afraid-----"Afraid of some jock Irish man who has lots of money, who's strong and every thing you have every told me you wanted" Kobe had cut me off
"Stop fighting!" He said squeezing my hand again then getting up and walking out. I started to think about every thing down to the last detail. STOP! I yelled at my-self Im not letting 2 dude brain wash me! no no no no No No No No NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell asleep, I had a nice dream, hell nice it was great! Kobe, Hudson, Jade all of us just us riding our skateboards having fun! I was smiling and happy again. I rode into a hot sweaty guy and fell for him. Jade, Kobe, Hudson's faces started to melt away. They burnt away and I was in London, having "the time of my live!" I was screaming at them to come with me. Jade and I got into a huge fight and the last thing we told one another was we hated one another. Hudson had stopped talking to me and Kobe wouldn't even look at me.
My eyes shot open and I throw my body up into a sit. Tears and sweat running down all over me. I looked around. I was still in the hospital. but this time I was all alone. In a dark room with no one. I still have no clue why Im in here or when I'm getting out but still. I was alone. It was kinda nice. I looked over and saw my phone. I grabbed it and started to listen to my favorite songs, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DqQcCPV3c8, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77Wsfi3fB70, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jwv66iVbXc,
Then I fell back asleep. Having a much better dream then the last. Jade, Kobe, Hudson and I where all at a consent and ALL of my favorite singers/bands where there. That was a night to remember. I was dancing and we where all having the best of time. It was us the fave 4 since kindergarten! I missed thoughs days so much now that we took in 5 dudes 1 I wanted died!
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