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That was then, This is now

Room 1912


3 months later...


Sleeping peacefully, I was brought to reality by my phone ringing loudly. I opened one eye to see it was 5 am, why on earth who someone be calling me at this time in the morning?
I covered my ears with my pillow but it just kept ringing.
Sighing, I grabbed the phone and answered it abruptly.

"Yes?" I said sleepily.

"Mia thank God you're answering!" A very worried voice spoke on the phone.

"Niall? Is that you?"

"Yes!"

"Why are you calling me so early in the morning?" I groaned.

"Mia I…" His voice paused. "Something happened."

"Okay?" I sat on the bed, all my sleep pushed aside now.

"It was Harry." I noticed he was trying to give me the news very calmly. "He had an accident."

"He what??" I gasped.

"I'm sorry to tell you like this but I thought you should know." He was calm, but that was not good, it was worse because it means he's suffering.

"How did that happen?" I was now fully awake.

"It a car accident, he was driving with too much speed and then lost control of the car."

"That doesn't sound like him, he's an excellent driver!"

"I know." He sighed loudly.

"How is he?"

"I'm not gonna lie to you, it's bad. He's in a coma." A solitaire tear slid down my face as Niall's words came out. And then it hit me...

"I'm going to London!" I informed him.

"Are you sure?"

"Of course I'm sure Niall, Harry and I may not be together right now but I still care for him."

"I knew it!" He breathed relieved. "Get in the first plane you can catch and I'll meet you at the airport."

"I will. And Niall…" I said very quickly. "Thank you."

"Of course Mia, I know he'd like to have you here as well."

Without even time to think I threw my suitcase on the bed and packet a few outfits and my toiletries while crying silently.
I dressed the first thing that came to my hands what happened to be some shorts I bought in London, a t-shirt and a hoodie. http://www.polyvore.com/12/set?id=84343763
I didn't have time or the courage to wake my mum so I left a note on the kitchen praying that she wouldn't get mad at me. It was useless though cause I knew the minute she sees my note saying I left to london without further explication she'd be more than mad but I honestly didn't care.

I grabbed my car keys and drove to the airport with a million things on my mind. I only had my driver's license for a month and a half but it didn't stop me from driving full speed.



-


Meanwhile in London…


"Niall I'm at the airport." I said to the phone.

"I'm parked at the door, come outside and you'll see me." I ran to the door with my suitcase in one hand and my phone in the other. Looking around I recognized Niall range rover and climbed in throwing my bag to the back.

"How are you?" He hugged tightly.

"I'm not sure yet. He's still the same?"

"Yeah." I saw tears forming in in his eyes. "We're all extremely worried about him."

"Take me to the hospital please."

The drive was quiet, no one really spoke completely lost in our thoughts except from when he asked me how I was.

"I haven't seen you in a while." He said.

"Yeah since my birthday."

"That was 3 months ago." He stated.

"I know."

"And you barely spoke to any of us since then."

"I know." I swallowed.

"Why?"

"Honestly I don't know." I looked at the window, the houses were full of snow and some of them had snowmen. I'd find it extremely beautiful if I was paying any attention to it.

"You know…" He started and I knew this conversation was no near to the end. "I understand that the break-up must have been really hard specially because of the circumstances of how it happened but I thought we were friends and the rest of the boys too."

"And we are."

"You even stopped speaking to El and Dani."

"That's not true." I looked at him for the first time since this awkward part of conversation started. "I still speak to them."

"It's rare when you do." This was making me really uncomfortable.

"Niall I'm sorry I just… Whenever I speak to you or the girls it reminds me of him and I just needed to get away of everything that makes me think of it."

"He misses you, you know?" He said after a while.

"Niall…" I closed my eyes in frustration.

"I just thought you should know." He interrupted me. "Before it's too late." My whole stomach twisted just to the thought of that. Not being able to see Harry again it's just… unbearable.


With all the chitty chat I didn't even notice we had arrived until Niall mentioned it. I made a mental prepare as I knew I'd find everyone there, the people I haven't seen in three months would be in a few seconds right in front of me and there was no escape possible, I had to speak to them.

"Ready? "He asked squeezing my hand.

"No but I have to, right?"

"I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have told you."

"No, I'm thankful you did." I said very quickly. "I wanted to know."

As soon as we entered the ICU I recognized my other six british friends sitting motionless on the waiting room.

"Mia!" Dani was the first one to see me.

"Hey." I waved shyly at them, all watching me right now.

"You told her?" Louis was now speaking to Niall.

"I had too." He shrugged. "That's what he wanted." The he was Harry.

"How is he?" I asked and immediately everyone's look saddened, that's when I noticed they all had puffy reddened eyes from all the crying.

"Did the doctor say anything yet?" Niall asked eagerly.

"H-he did." Zayn sobbed. I'd never seen him like that. Or any of them to be honest which scared me more, I don't think I'm ready to hear what their about to say.

"And?" I encouraged them to speak. They obviously knew more than Niall and I.

"He said Harry had an internal bleeding and there was too many brain damage." El's cries became louder.

"What does that mean?" Niall was confused.

"I know what that means." I looked to the ground already crying.

"I don't." Niall hissed.

"There was to many brain injuries to save him." Liam was the only capable to say it.

"No!" I buried my head in my hands till I felt fours arms wrapped around me, it was my girls.

"They're just waiting for you to say goodbye so they can turn off the life support machine." Liam explained speaking to Niall. "We obviously didn't know you'd bring Mia along."

"I want to see him." I bluntly said.

"I don't think that's a good idea." El was still shaking next to me.

"Why?" I frowned.

"Because he's not exactly… himself right now." She explained but I could barely understand due to her crying.

"His body suffered a lot from the accident, the Harry you'll see there inside is not the same Harry you know." Dani explained to me. "Are you sure is that the last memory you want to have from him?"

"The last words I told him were 'I hate you'. Any other memory is better than that." I shook my head.

"Okay then Niall will go first and then that's your turn." Liam said with the doctor already next to him.

I waited on the chairs with my legs pushed to my chest and my arms holding it together whilst Dani and El were both on either side of me, leaned against my shoulders crying inconsolably.
I was looking ahead not really watching anything as tears ran freely and I let my thoughts wander, allowing Harry's memories that I tried so hard to hide to finally come to surface. The way he sings and speaks to me with the most angelical voice. I remember how his contagious laugh would always make me smile even when I was angry, how his arms would instantly wrapped around me in the minute we were together, the touch of his lips, his hands, his dazzling eyes looking into mine full of love, and his words… 'I love you' I could still hear his voice murmuring in my ears.
Maybe this was all my fault, maybe if we were still together we would have…

"Mia." The doctor interrupted my thought. "You can see him." I dry swallowed and stood up still getting used to walking as we where on those chairs for the last four hours.

We wandered for an endless corridor till the doctor stopped on the last door at the left, room 1912.

"You have five minutes, I'll be waiting at the door." He informed me. I nodded pushing the door open, When I did my body froze and I instantly regretted it.

Harry was lying on the bed lifeless, with a huge bandage hiding his curls and his face full of cuts. His arms were inside the sheets but I imagined it equally damaged.
I walked slowly to his side and sat on the chair next to his bed.

This is not my Harry, this is not even Harry, just a a body because he's not there anymore. His heart is only beating and his chest only rises because the machines are doing it for him. But he's not there anymore.

I looked at his face and couldn't help wondering how we wasted three months, three months of pure happiness while I'm still here loving him with all heart and he's laid on this bed… dead.

That's the first time I could think of that word but that's the truth, Harry… is dead.

I laid my head against his covered belly trying to hold him as I regretted everything I had told him the day we fought and never saw each other again. But now ti was all worthless because time can't go back and the last memories he'll ever had of me will be 'I hate you'.

"Please forgive me." I whispered. "Please forgive me." I said louder, my words full of desperation. "I love you so much and you don't even know." I cried and cried, not letting my face dry as more tears replace the ones who'd fall.

"You need to know that, I have to tell you. You must hear how much I love you because I do, I do love you." I said as if he was able to hear me. "Always have and always will."

"You have to hear me say it, please wake up." I started shaking him in a hopeless attempt to wake him up. "Wake up Harry, wake up." I tried shaking him harder but nothing, he wouldn't move.

"Miss excuse me, you have to get out." The doctor opened the door trying to stop me from touching Harry. He must have heard my yells and cries.

"No!" I tried pushing him away.

"You're very upset at the moment and that's not any good for you." He did his best to convince me but I was still debating against him. "Security! Someone call security." He shouted realizing I wouldn't do what he says.

Not longer after two body guards appeared in the room and took me in their arms in order to take me out of the room. I tried kicking them with all my strength but it was useless, they're much stronger so I gave in and took one last glance at Harry as they pushed me away from the love of my life.

"What happened?" Niall asked and everyone stood up when they saw me being carried by the hospital security.

"She's with us." Louis informed them. The two man placed me on the floor but I instantly fell to the ground due to my lack of strength.

"Mia what happened?" El kneed in front of me holding my face in her hands.

"Harry died." I said it for the first time out loud and it felt like a thousand knives cutting my flesh without mercy. But the pain… the pain in my chest was unbearable. I just wish I was dead too.




















































"Mia, Mia are you okay?" Someone was shaking me.

"No!" I yelled breathing heavily.

"Sweetie calm down, are you okay?" I blinked in order to see who was in front of me. I distinguished my mother's silhouette.

"What happened?" I asked feeling my eyes wet.

"It was just a bad dream." She replied. "Again."

"I-I don't k-know w-what…" I was sobbing.

"It's okay." She held me in her arms. "I'm here now."

"It was terrible mum." I soaked her pyjamas with my tears as she balanced me back and forth to comfort me.

"Still the same dream?" She asked. I've been dreaming about Harry's death a couple of times since we broke up. I guess I feel guilty that after everything my last words to him were so hateful.

"Yes but this time it was worse, it felt…" I paused to breath. "It felt real."

"But it's not honey, it's not. It was just a dream okay? A terrible, terrible dream!"

"I was so scared." I confessed.

"I know you were, I know!" She laid on bed next to me. "It's okay now, I'm here, you can go back to sleep."

I snuggled better next to her as I tried to calm myself down, it was just a dream.


Notes

I'M BACK!!
Here's the first chapter, please don't hate me! The good news: it was just a dream yay! :D

Ready for the newest adventure of this young love? Well rate.comment.subscribe and you'll find out.

xx.

Comments

@M.J.

It's amazing how you know my writing and that I don't do happily ever after which is true but I don't think I've ever mentioned that (?)
And yes, I'm replying 6 months later, sorry.
I do envision the next step after that last chapter ended but that, of course, is gonna stay in my head. :)
xx

@Marbleskin

thank you, thank you, thank you :)
Yes, I'm working on something else indeed nut no more Harry and Mia :( I'll be in touch soon about new stuff, if you're still around

@Javairia_Directioner

Ahah, that's the FINAL end.. (As you've probably realized after 6 months.) sorry for the waiting but thank you so much for reading it!!

@faithy

That is awesome that you know it word for word!! I'd kiss you right now if I could :) thank you x100

I cried the whole way through, you evil evil woman! I loved it there is no doubt in my mind she takes his hand and they work things out. But of course this is the kind of thing you'd do. I am curious though what do you think happens? I know you dont really write happily ever after, but do see it in your head? I loved this chapter, i had so much fun reading both this stories! You are a great writer and it has been a privelege seeing how you have grown and improved! Congrats on ending this huge project!